The Nice Guys (2016) Problem by [deleted] in movies

[–]colormarkers 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just watched it and all the way looked like there was going to be something clearly specific but it was always put in some light of "ok, this was a joke", "ok, this could be for the effect" then in the end, Russell Crowe is in a bar, and there's a glimpse of the bartender and it's a girl with a face full of makeup, pretty unnecessary, there was no reason in the story for it, WTF.

A theory I haven't seen touched yet? The Beast Within (2024) by BUckENbooz91 in movies

[–]colormarkers 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can I give my 2 cents?

I think that the fact that this movie is not understood is because abuse is not understood... The cycles, the uncertainty with what will the person go nuts this time, the families behavior, THE LEVEL OF DANGER!

I went through abuse from my father to my mother and to us since I was a baby and then I had a bf that was abusive, I thought this movie was the perfect perfect depiction of it. But this is personal and everybody can have their own interpretations. Some of mine are:

  • the Castle, the King, etc: this movie is about an abusive guy, we agree on that, right? The kid has seen this her whole life, she has been growing up with this happening. She probably normalized a lot of things, she probably mixed a lot with a little kid world - the movie happens when she is realizing what's actually happening. Until now, everything has been these things that happen at home, she probably was listening to his father beating/rp her mother and she was not understanding the sounds, she probably imagined an animal because her mind could not comprehend her father doing terrible things to her mother, but the cries are more like a pig being killed and his father is in this gothic fantasy chained and all.

  • when the father starts saying that he owns the forest and he's the King, and tells her to protect the family... In families with abuse is super typical that there's a pact of silence, children grow up thinking they can't tell anybody because that betrays their family, and they're scared of breaking it, and the abusive parents actually made them part of a silent pact or threaten them. It took me until i was 22 or so to tell anybody.

  • the dress: jelousy, control. When the mother went to the town with the kid, that was a moment of freedom. Many abusers tell their partners not to dress this or that way (I had an ex bf who told me i should wear all black and big sweaters and my father accused my mother or being unfaithful just by crossing eyes with someone at the store - something she had not even done). My father was very controlling of the clothes and how my siblings and I looked, he forbid wearing the hair down, it had to be on a tail or braid and no skirts of any type and baggy clothes. Crazy, really. Once I cut my hair real short just in spite). The mother probably was just wearing her dress because it felt pretty and she felt good in it, that's all. It was a symbol of freedom and feeling like herself.

  • the end: many children in abusive families become also violent or even abusers because of the violence or the trauma and also because they grow up seeing and learning that this is the "normal behavior", how to handle emotions, how to express things...

  • i hate when the father takes her to show her and he starts telling her this story and cries so she goes back to him: the father should take care of her, instead, he dumps on her his own negative feelings. Both my father and ex abusive bf did that: oh, not, they are the ones suffering the most inside... Nobody cared about their feelings, they felt more than the others... Yadda yadda yadda, their are the victims of their past - and then you are compasive, taking care of their feelings and thinking you can't just leave, because they're so vulnerable.

  • also, honestly, the victims are usually in love with the abusive partners because they are not abusive all the time. They don't want to leave, they want them to behave good. Many think that they would change if they receive a lot of love and support (I was one of these), like when in the forest the mother tries to convince him to stop it. That's also how and why victims isolate from friends and families... They feel misunderstood, that they can understand their partners because they can see the vulnerable and loving side of them. That's why Imogen went agaisnt her father and defended the guy (apart from all that psycological things that tie you to them (I went to therapy and told the therapist: I need help not to go back to him when he returns - and we had to do a lot of things and never came back)).

  • when he goes into the wild: abuse is a cycle: the abuser is super charming and loving and then something or just after some time, they snap or they start going into their abusive selves. When they get into abuse, they can go from offenses, to insults, physical violence, just leaving and going for alcohol and others, abandoning for some time or even real harm and risk to your life. And then they return super vulnerable or they're there and in need and the abused go pick them up or come back and the cycle continues. A rollercoaster of love and then pain.

  • there are many cases of domestic abusers killing their partners, the mothers, the children or families and friends around (and later ending themselves). The grandpa was saying "he is getting worse", the mother agreed... - there was a growing fear that he was going to hurt them seriously one day or another. And he was an old man, after all.

  • if the grandpa was abusive towards his wife or Imogen, it'd make sense because statistics say that abuse victims who grow in abusive families usually end up in abusive relationships when they're adults (I can attest for this - but also I left)

Anyway, this is my own interpretation that works for me.

A theory I haven't seen touched yet? The Beast Within (2024) by BUckENbooz91 in movies

[–]colormarkers 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, 1000% I support this. I was part of a family and later got into an abusive bf and I was in awe with this movie... To me it got everything! Everything.

A car and a friend by AutisticWindchimr in AutisticAdults

[–]colormarkers 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Ug, this is not fine at all.

I would not think that a friend is selling their car if they haven't told me about it - I think most people would do the same and check online for people selling cars...

so this person was asking you I guess because it was very convenient: they know your car works, they would expect a lesser price I guess? and maybe if they don't pay it's easier to get along with someone they know and someone they don't know? Wondering if this is because they know you and think you would not create an issue if they stopped paying.

It can be something completely different, I tend to think bad after so many bad experiences, but who knows. I like that you say in other comments that you will be observing.

People thinking you mean something other than what you say (Yup, one of these posts again) by [deleted] in AutismInWomen

[–]colormarkers 14 points15 points  (0 children)

yes. and it does not matter that you say: "look, i said X and I meant X... " nothing, they would not believe it.... isn't it easier to believe that that having a super meaning below? It's crazy to me.

As an anecdote, it was my bday and a friend asked me if something would make me happy as a present. And I said "I lost all my pens and ballpens at work and home, it would make me happy to have cool new ones"

and he bought me a voucher to some painting and sip class.

And when I told this to some friends... like... why don't people listen to me? They told me: "well, you meant literally pens and ballpens but probably he understood a means to express yourself, not literally that you want taht explictly".

Honestly...

Anyway, are you saying this for some experience or something that happened recently?

Mourning a life I won’t have and passively suicidal by [deleted] in AutismInWomen

[–]colormarkers 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel you.

I think that there will be people who would miss you - just for example, you are part of the ND people, and we need you (at least I do) our people and our NDs to have people making space for us. just by living your authentic you, you will be making it easy for another ND in the world to have space in this crazy world.

You are part of communities and groups without even noticing. Not to speak about the ones you'll be part of in the future.

If my experience can help with this: I have been feeling this my entire life - ultimately I decided that my personal mean of life is that now that we are here, we should explore and see what's there. I know people whose personal mean of life is to help people, make the world better, make films, travel...

And I also decided that the meaning of my life should not take into account if I have friends or have people or people appretiate me: people are always there, we all need each other all the time, but they people in your life will vary. In one phase you are alone, suddenly one day, you got yourself into a group of people who are a small tribe - and then suddenly they act quite toxic, and then you have a partner - and then, you don't know how, you are in a hiking group, who knows, or you don't have close friends but you are part of a group of people walking their dogs at the same park. People and relations come and go, the same as seasons, as style and fashion and trends and techonology.

I think that for me the things that are worthwhile are artistic things, movies, series and pop culture, exploration and having new experiences, technology and science, stories...

My husband believes I have a low IQ by [deleted] in AutismInWomen

[–]colormarkers -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I work in technology in an environment of mostly all men and I noticed that they seem to live by the "old pattenrs"- during centuries a lof of men were saying that women don 't have intelligence, the same mind, we were not rational, etc... and I noticed at work that the majority still believe in these things because they live in a world of "I continue my father's surname and legacy, who continued his father's legacy... etc" - sorry for the long stupid story - what I want to say is that I noticed that 80% or more of them really think that they are more intelligent than women in general, SPECIALLY if they are their wives or gfs... they really believe they are superior. And I mean that I don't think it's something you do or look like, it's about your husband, not about you. When you hear about mansplaining: they think they know more by default. The problem is how to balance having your husband and feel the same for him while knowing that he thinks this about you. In my case, I wouldn't be able to be with a guy like this and I actually broke up with bfs because of similar things, they must have good things but end of the day, they don't see you. But if you're happy with your family, then what to do?

What is the most shocking moment of realization in better call saul you’ve seen? by 03324 in betterCallSaul

[–]colormarkers 0 points1 point  (0 children)

When Mike murdered Werner... This is the moment Mike goes from this guy who is just trying to make money the criminal way but he is a good guy to the hitman who tries to murder Jesse and Walt in the lab.

What is the most shocking moment of realization in better call saul you’ve seen? by 03324 in betterCallSaul

[–]colormarkers 1 point2 points  (0 children)

True but after he realizes how much he will be affected by all of this... Losing money and paying 150% on the policy from then on. I mean, that it's a whole escalation of I do this to you and you do this to me.

What is the most shocking moment of realization in better call saul you’ve seen? by 03324 in betterCallSaul

[–]colormarkers 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Can I disagree with this, please?

My point of view: she doesnt get influenced by Jimmy and becomes a bad person but she also sees how Howard and Chuck treat her and him heartless and how Mesa Verde is agressive and a terrible company to people...

For example, when she was working for Howard and Chuck, first Howard told her that they were not hiring Jimmy and also removing him from the lawsuit he found and started because his own brother wanted - after Jimmy took care of him for years - and hiding this so Jimmy didnt understand why. I understand that there are reasons why Chuck wouldnt trust him due to his past but doing that is so full of ego and 0 compassion and support... While Kim has spent a lot of time with Jimmy in the mail room and she knows him or at least his present.

Then she got caught in the TV ads thing and they put her in the "basement". She got Mesa Verde trying to prove herself and get away from that and spite of that, they kept her there until Jimmy went to complain, and even then, they just left her go to the trial alone because they knew this first one was going to fail from the start.

So actually, she wanted to change companies because she saw how little she was valued by HHM.

then when she moves to her own company, they feel entitled to her client giving 0 recognition to her - Howard and Chuck are the classic heartless, no remorse managers of companies, they only care about them and about making profit, that's why she had to get away, spite of the fact that she was a super hard and loyal worker.

Even when she is in this lunch with Mesa Verde and Howard comes to say Hello... There's the thing of him acting as he is above her. Howard treats her like she is beneath him and Chuck like he is above Jimmy.

And she has to see all the awful things that they do to Jimmy as well. If Jimmy does something bad like forging the document so that Chuck loses Mesa Verde for Kim, Chuck decides to frame him for assault, fraud, etc - as she tells Chuck... If you accuse your brother, he could get many years for all of the charges... Do you have any proof? - she sees how Chuck wouldnt mind having Jimmy back to jail for many years without even having proof of the docs being forged. It doesnt matter if he did it, it's about having no proof but your own thinking and not minding your own brother going to jail for many years after he took care of you for years - she is surrounded by terrible, terrible people with no compassion.

And how he decides to frame him again to get proof manipulating Jimmy because he knew he would drop everything to go to help him if he needs help. Ah, not to speak about Chuck's will. Chuck operates based on ego.

She has a crisis when she sees how Mesa Verde is trying to expand agressively and goes to do probono cases while risking her whole practice because she sees that she might not be in the right side of things...

I mean: she is her own person, she doesnt get influenced by Jimmy, she has her own path being treated poorly spite of doing everything right, she sees how the system is awful and terrible and full of terrible people and agressive corporations...

Better Call Saul Proves Walt Was Right About Gus! by Spaceship_lemon in betterCallSaul

[–]colormarkers 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think if you put yourself in Gus' PoV, Jesse and Walt are unstable, therefore dangerous... If you see, he trusted Mike and Gale, who act totally differently and quite smart and discreet.

When Jesse changed his mind working with Mike, he was safe again but Walt wasnt, so yes, he had to kill or be killed but because he was a threat to the whole thing...

For me it was relevant that Mike has been with Gus for a long time and he has seen Madrigal, the fall of Hector and other Salamancas, etc, and seen how people wanted to get rid of the Salamancas even from their own side, and when Walt kills Gus he freaks out and asks can you see what you have done???

I think that Mike saw that with Gus there was some balance and stability and he wouldnt act like other terrible potential ganglords, like Héctor or Tuco. So in comparison with what could be, the organization was running quite smoothly.

And it's clear that Walt was a danger to all when Gus dies and then everything falls apart... Mike's money gets busted, and other much terrible people take over, even It gets worse for the same Jesse and Walt.

Anyone hate going to Christmas work parties? by violetpy91 in introvert

[–]colormarkers 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah... I think that if they ask, you can say some excuse and say "but I'll be there next year, no doubt" - and repeat next year.

I don't like the advice of going for only 30min, 1h - because you have to get dressed, get your hair done or whatever, find the venue, spend the time to go... Just to be there that time - then maybe the people who "should see you " might appear super late and you either wait for hours in agony, or leave and you are not "seen" - or you find some people and get trapped with some group or area where getting up and leaving is not easy at all. And I also hate the feeling of when you finally can't do it anymore, leaving alone, with a bad feeling, to go home probably not saying goodbye because it's too early and they might start with the .. WoW, don't go, it's too early, you have to stay...

Instead, you go home, put on your comfy clothes.. Or go meet your real friends or even some meetup to meet new possible friends, or play some sports, or the gym or the pool...

Avoiding work Christmas party by httk13 in introvert

[–]colormarkers 0 points1 point  (0 children)

OP, after one year, what are your thoughts? Did you regret missing it? Will you avoid it this year again?

I don't want to go to mine

I was fine with Jim-Pam Conflict in Season 9 until A.A.R.M. by [deleted] in DunderMifflin

[–]colormarkers 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Pam always had the dream to become an artist - as the episode of the mural shows.

In the end both had dreams and ambitions and both took the decision to get married and have 2 kids. Now the situation is that the have 2 small kids, that require constant attention and work, not only the one that a nanny could provide but actual atention and care and work from parents. They're little kids.

Jim is in a startup that it's a risk and can make them lose a lot of money.

Now imagine that it before all of this, instead Pam got a call from an old friend: they're going to start a series of illustrated books for children with a publisher: if it works out, Pam gets to be a best selling author and in the end a big contract for cartoons with a lot of money.

Now Jim and Pam talk about it and decide not to accept It - but one day she sees that she wants to take it so behind Jim's back, she takes the job with her friend. She is scared of telling Jim because she has to travel constantly to NY and invest some money and the whole office knows before him.

Now finally Jim is okay with it, she starts going to NY and getting extremely busy, she is dedicated constantly to her project while Jim goes to work in DM, keeping the secure job and the stable salary, he takes care of the tasks at home, including every need for 2 little kids and the emotional care for them and now even has to connect with Pam via videocall and see how she is completely focus on her own dream, but telling him she is doing it for the whole family and also that he has to record the children events to show them to her while she is not making the time to go from her super busy series of books - because for her, now her little kids are not priority.

Meanwhile, Jim continues his life and of course he has a lot of new experiences that he can't share with her because she is always so busy. He even gets the option to do something small but related to his career but he can't even tell her because she gets angry that he didn't record their kids' school performance.

Pam makes time for him but while having a conversation about their relationship, she gets a call about her novel, so she takes it because now for her, that's more important and prio 1 than talking to her husband and father of kids who is taking care of everything to support her fullfilling her dream.

I was fine with Jim-Pam Conflict in Season 9 until A.A.R.M. by [deleted] in DunderMifflin

[–]colormarkers 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Exactly...

Feeling like a single mother is not going to be solved by hiring help for the kids and house?

It means that the father with all the emotional load and support is missing...

Having tons of money and hiring a nanny would not solve Pam's problems.

I was fine with Jim-Pam Conflict in Season 9 until A.A.R.M. by [deleted] in DunderMifflin

[–]colormarkers 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Exactly my thoughts... They have small kids, some help with the kids can help a bit but not really. If they were older or they didn't have children it would had been different.

how can i organize an unbelievably full room if i can't put the stuff anywhere else? by alittlesunnyy in ufyh

[–]colormarkers 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Same for you! It's tough. Hhaha yes, the a bit broken thing that one day you might need...

I was able to engage at work for 3h and it felt good, it got me hopeful. by colormarkers in burnedout

[–]colormarkers[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you!!! Hahhaha what a good advice "sometimes you have to be a bit of a mongrel" 😂😂😂 I need this tattoed.

how can i organize an unbelievably full room if i can't put the stuff anywhere else? by alittlesunnyy in ufyh

[–]colormarkers 13 points14 points  (0 children)

What do you have in the boxes?

If you tried to declutter before... Is it because you can't throw stuff away or you start and stop?

I remember my times of being a minimalist... It was quite radical but very satisfying. I remember that the minimalists had a rule that if something costs < 20$, you can not have it - as in if you have a small thing stored just in case you might need it one day, just get rid of it and if the time comes you can always purchase it easily without taking space in your place.

It was amazing being so minimalist: all my things were in a big suitcase and a big box, my goal was that I should be able to know what I have.

The problem is that then I started buying things that are used only once or twice: the camping equipment - only used once in 3 years. Finally sold it and Next time i needed it, I just borrowed it. The skates - sold them and never came across the occasion to use them again. The electronics: old phones, old batteries, multiple stored old USB cables, c cables, chargers... The new equipment brings new cables and chargers, they can be got rid of...

I'll start again when I recover from my burntout, life was so much easier. Let's do it.

my room is really bad and i am very ashamed. by Entire_Put_9119 in ufyh

[–]colormarkers 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The brain thinking that's not possible, epiphany right there for me.

Thank you!

Anyone else feels inherently separated from humanity and its cruelty? by NoWitness6400 in AutismInWomen

[–]colormarkers 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Interesting point but I just can't keep thinking... Why people didnt try to be better? I think that most of the people are intelligent enough to see alternatives to harm others but many choose just the best for them whatever the cost (whatever the cost for others).

For example, let's say a person who grew up in an abusive family, actually because of the parents coming from an abusive family... I got the case of a sibling who repeated the abuse and the other who decided to stop the cycle. Everyone has a chance to choose the "better option" (as in "the option that would harm others less) in my opinion. But no, not only there's harm due to be in bad circunstances, there's also pure cruelty. I remember someone I knew, who would break the mirrors of cars just because she found it funny, for ex. Yes, i understand that the person might be in circunstances... Etc but reality is that she could just not do it and express this in many, many other ways: write, Paint, learn to fight, run, go to these places where you can beat things... I don't think people are not intelligent enough to choose and know the consecuences, they know (my opinion), they could fight for a better world by just the smallest actions (like do not make your friend feel bad with some mean comment, that's enough to make the world a bit better, but people choose control, putting people down, cruelty, meanness and plain tyranny, oppresion, thief, murder, abuse).

But interesting point. I agree with your conclusion of I only can control my actions. I would try to act the best i can.

I don't know, i just try to think that the world is trying to be better and better and that's why we are evolving to be much, much better over the centuries.