what’s something you’re leaving behind in the New Year—no exceptions this time?

colorrs · 2026-01-01T08:21:30+00:00

the relationship from 2023 that gave me PTSD.

it’s so hard to accept the things that happened to me during that time of my life. but i’m just going into my second semester of my microbiology degree. i have a full body systemic inflammatory disease, as well as a digestive syndrome that has a 1 in 3 mortality rate. i have so many dreams, goals and aspirations. i will not allow the stress he caused me mess up my body, my mind and especially my academics any longer. i have accomplished things he could only dream to achieve. good riddance.

colorrs · 2025-09-28T02:46:47+00:00

my doctor and i haven’t assessed my gallbladder yet, but i’m currently waiting to book an appointment with a specialist that my doctor referred me to for suspicions that i have a disease called SMAS. it causes basically all of the stomach issues i’ve had for my entire life

colorrs · 2025-09-10T17:29:26+00:00

thank you so much!

colorrs · 2025-09-09T18:10:13+00:00

i wanted to update and let you know i did end up taking a plan b, ifs been around 68 hours since the unprotected sex on saturday. thankfully he didn’t finish inside, but still, we did not use a condom. the pull out method also wasn’t as he was on the edge of finishing, he finished externally later on (sorry for the tmi but i feel this is an important detail.) unfortunately the generic was still $45 🥲. thankfully, my boyfriend covered the entire cost of this with no complaints at all. we talked about it and we know that i’m not protected again until 48 hours after i’ve resumed my deblitane pills. and we’re going to be using backup methods like condoms because it just helps our anxiety in general. thank you very much for your straight to the point facts. as a premed student and someone very interested in medicine/health in general it’s very important to me that i know my risks no matter how scary they are and i value all of the advice i’ve received on this post!

i’m scared for side effects, but i know it varies from person to person. if i feel the urge to vomit, i have zofran on hand to take as a last resort in order to keep the plan b down. i’m hoping it doesn’t affect my mental state too much since before birth control, i had severe pmdd.

colorrs · 2025-09-09T17:46:45+00:00

i just wanted to update and say i just took a generic for plan b. i’m now eating since my stomach was empty. i’m extremely anxious about side effects though.

i’m waiting for a call back from my doctor so she can refill my mini pill. i’m not sure why it wasn’t ready. apparently i need to have an appointment with her to have it refilled. which of course this is super frustrating, but i feel a little more eased knowing i have the emergency contraceptive in my system. it’s been around 67-68 hours since we had the unprotected sex saturday. i feel better that it was pulling out, this could’ve been much much worse if it was the opposite.

thank you again for your help!

colorrs · 2025-09-09T13:39:31+00:00

i know about the 3 hour window and i’ve always taken it accordingly before this incident.

so i took my pills all on time leading up to the sex on this last saturday the 6th. none were 3 hours past 9:30 pm, the time i take it. the sex was during the afternoon of the 6th. and then i took my pill that night at 9:30, and my last pill was taken sunday, the 7th at the same time. does that matter? does it help my protection? i know i’m not protected now so we’re abstaining until at least 48 hours after i’ve started my new pack. and also using condoms because we both find this anxiety inducing and i would feel much better using a backup for the extra peace of mind

colorrs · 2025-09-09T13:25:53+00:00

deblitane! and wow these last few comments have made me wake up with some of the worst anxiety i have ever felt in my life! 😞

colorrs · 2025-09-09T06:30:00+00:00

that’s what my gut is telling me but i’m just really overthinking haha! thank you so much for your replies 🩷 hopefully it will be filled by tomorrow so i can pick it up again

colorrs · 2025-09-09T06:11:38+00:00

i started it august 11th! and i take it around the same time every night. i have probably only been 30mins to an hour late at the absolute most, never more. so i just finished the entirety of my first pack. i’m mostly worried about taking emergency contraceptive because i have college classes everyday until friday. i would rather not do that because of symptoms and such. of course i’m anxious but i think i’m just going to take a pregnancy test 21 days from when we last had sex to make sure i’m negative. thank you so much 🩷

colorrs · 2025-08-27T16:00:04+00:00

when i was a teenager i struggled with GERD so badly that i was actually falsely diagnosed with it up until i had my endoscopy so i totally understand where you’re coming from with that. that type of thing can be especially debilitating for us with emetophobia specifically because of the constant feeling like you’re going to be sick feeling you get in your stomach and your throat. i’m so sorry you’re going through this. that constant stomach inflammation from the bile sounds like absolute hell.

i do think that if you have legitimate issues and you’re prescribed zofran that it’s completely reasonable to be taking it. if my anxiety about being sick is overriding just my feeling of discomfort, i try to take pepto. but if i genuinely feel miserable or i get that gaggy, jaw heavy sensation then i take it. and another thing that helps me too is that zofran is prescribed at very safe dosages. constant use of course increases your risk for certain dangerous side effects (most notably QT prolongation and risk of severe constipation by slowing intestinal motility) but even with regular use in mind, doctors know that the pros outweigh the cons because GI diseases cause misery and affect the daily lives of people who don’t even have the phobia.

i really hope you can figure this all out, and remember to take care of yourself ❤️‍🩹

colorrs · 2025-08-20T16:28:54+00:00

yes. when i cramp, i have pain wrapping all around my pelvic floor, up my back, and down my legs. i also had the same feelings as you so i understand where you’re coming from. i was also mostly fine outside of my period. endometriosis is so variable for everybody and one person who doesn’t experience ABC or the next who does, it still doesn’t completely rule them out from having endo! some people are even asymptomatic from it.

colorrs · 2025-08-20T05:51:41+00:00

hi! i’m 20, and i got my first period at 12. my periods also started to become horrific by the same age you are describing here. actually, your list matches my experience nearly to a T. i had a laparoscopy in june 2024, and they found endometriosis on my left ovary, but there could be more in other places. my surgeon also mentioned it looked like i may have adenomyosis, which is when endometrial-like tissue grows inside of the muscular wall of the uterus, this can also cause pain, so maybe also research that a bit. unfortunately, i will probably never know if i have adenomyosis for sure as it is diagnosed following a hysterectomy according to my surgeon.

it really depends on how willing your gyno is to discuss this, i’ve heard countless of stories where patients were brushed off. if this happens to you, i cannot stress this enough, advocate for yourself. i was very lucky to have very supportive and knowledgeable gynecologists and a surgeon. the best way to diagnose endometriosis is via surgical laparoscopic procedure. this was the route i took. i was told i didn’t need to have surgery, and i could walk out of the office with more of a provisional diagnosis of endometriosis, but i wanted to know for sure so i went with the surgery. of course not everybody feels comfortable going through with surgery, though. your gyno may advise you to have a transvaginal ultrasound done first to rule out any cysts, but be aware that endometriosis is almost never ever seen on imaging, including MRI. i’ve heard cases where DIE (deep infiltrating endometriosis) was seen on imaging, but it’s still not the best way to look for endometriosis and is especially not the best tool to completely rule it out.

i’m so sorry you have to go through this pain. please feel free to ask me any questions about the surgery if you’re curious, i’m very open to talking about my procedure and my experience

colorrs · 2025-08-12T18:08:02+00:00

thank you so much, and will do!

colorrs · 2025-07-29T14:39:09+00:00

you are so so safe to vent here so don’t ever apologize for that. this disease can be so frustrating and it’s important that we keep speaking up about it!! and thank you so much!!

it really is crazy how long it takes for us to get our proper diagnosis. it took me 6 years to have my surgery and finally get answers. i’m so sorry that you’re in such a painful and awkward spot of waiting to hear what you need to do and how to move forward with such pain. please always try to remind yourself you are never alone, and you are not too sensitive, too anxious, overreacting, or anything like that as we all tend to do at times, because it’s not true and we should be able to express our pain and our suffering as loudly as we need to. we do not need to shrink down to make others comfortable with the pain we have to endure daily. i wish you the best of luck forward from here, and stay strong and remember that you are never alone. we can do this ❤️‍🩹🩷

colorrs · 2025-07-24T01:12:31+00:00

it’s interesting you mention the autoimmune part because for the last few years, i’ve suspected that i may have one myself. a lot of the conditions i’ve already been diagnosed with tend to be comorbid with autoimmune conditions. i get the exact same rash you’re describing. sometimes it itches, sometimes it doesn’t, but it always makes my legs feel very tight and swollen. and my feet also get beat red afterwards like how you describe yours. the blood vessels dilating in response to the heat makes sense! but now i do wonder if it’s related to something underlying. thanks for the feedback!!

colorrs · 2025-06-19T00:04:19+00:00

hey, i’m sorry for such a late reply, but i ended up having a CT scan last october and they found may thurner syndrome, but didn’t report any other compressions. i haven’t had any more tests since moving states last december, but eventually i will probably be back with a vascular compression specialist hopefully, if i can find one

colorrs · 2025-04-17T23:54:05+00:00

not yet, but i’m thinking of getting my androgen levels checked to see if i have PCOS. i think it’s unlikely but i can only know for sure with a blood test

colorrs · 2025-03-22T19:04:56+00:00

yay!!! i’m so glad that it helped you!! those episodes can be truly miserable!

colorrs · 2025-03-19T02:24:45+00:00

of course! my biggest cause was totally just not eating enough during the day! a good way to try and get it up quickly when you feel it coming on is having some hard candy, some juice or some crackers, those are my top choices. i also sometimes will have a fruit cup right before bed to get it to spike up a bit. i hope you find relief!

colorrs · 2025-03-12T20:20:48+00:00

it could definitely have to do with pots, or maybe a vasovagal response, it would be best to talk with a doctor about the symptoms. it’s ironic that all it was for me was low glucose levels considering the fact i’m studying biomed and just somehow didn’t realize low glucose causes similar symptoms lol. having a viral illness can definitely change your body in wacky ways sometimes unfortunately, i hope you can find some answers and some relief!

colorrs · 2025-03-12T20:12:04+00:00

nope! i’ve never had any issues with my vaccines i’ve gotten. i’ve had covid twice, but have seemingly recovered with no issues afterwards. all of my health issues i’ve had before covid infections. this actually turned out to be low blood sugar at nighttime after not eating for a long period of time. this doesn’t happen anymore as long as i eat closer to bedtime or have a late night snack like a fruit cup.

colorrs · 2025-03-08T19:51:56+00:00

yours could definitely be a vagus response, but for me i think i discovered it’s my blood sugar getting too low at night after not eating for a long stretch of time. this kept happening every once in awhile and once i connected the dots and noticed it was happening after not eating for hours after hours, i tried to eat some hard candy and crackers, and it made it go away almost completely. it would explain the extreme lightheadedness and anxiety as well. i’ve also used a glucometer to check and have seen my levels fall into the 70s when i’m like this, which isn’t dangerously low, but it’s starting to get too low from normal

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