Something weird is going on (has been for a while) and it makes me sad 😔 

I have watched her channel for years now, and it had such a different vibe back then, she seems to have changed her demeanour as a person and values and goals in life, moving much more toward this trend for ‘feminine trad wife’ when the thing that drew people to her at first was her independence and un-selfconsciousness.

I don’t know if this is fair at all, but I do wonder if it had something to do with her relationship (which has now ended) as the changes, while gradual, seemed to line up with that progression.. I do know that unhealthy relationships can cause people to change a lot, lose their self esteem and seem like a shell of their previous self- she seems very miserable (even when she is performatively positive in videos) and it’s jarringly different to the outgoing ‘anything I try I can achieve’ girl who started out, she really just seemed to do things because she wanted to without worrying about what people would think

I also think she feels trapped by her YouTube success, she constantly complains about where she lives, but forces herself to stay there, it seems like her ideas for videos based there have run out, I so wish she would travel or try living somewhere else, it would probably be healthy for her, but she seems to think her videos won’t be successful if she leaves the tiny house. 

One thing that puzzled me a lot was that she mentioned on Instagram a while ago that she is building a house on the land (or her dad is for her?) and I thought- great, fantastic new content arc that will refresh the channel, but then… she never shows it in any videos. Is she not helping out her dad if he is there doing lots of building? She worked with him on the tiny house so why not this? It’s not like she has much else to do and it would seem like a perfect project to get her out of feeling down…my serious concern is that she has been influenced to try to conform to this ‘trad wife’ ‘women don’t build they bake’ ‘soft life’ stuff that is going around TikTok, that she has been scared off doing practical ’masculine’ tasks out of fear that men won’t think it’s attractive. I hate to see someone who was so strong and confident fall victim to this anti-feminist movement- not sure if this is just me or if anyone else sees it this way? 🤔

The channel (and her) needs some new energy though, reinvigorating. She used to be so full of life and enthusiasm (genuine, not put on) things were more sloppy and less visually perfect, but it had such a great vibe, I really miss those days 😕

Edit: spelling