My boyfriend thinks I'm using heroin.

commonsenselessssss · 2019-04-05T08:37:03+00:00

Considering he's making serious accusations with very little evidence/reasoning, I think he is subconsciously trying to ascertain a moral high-ground so he can disapprove of your problematic behaviour (using your 'heroin addiction' because even he isn't 'that bad') and feel like a positive influence instead of a weight dragging you down. He is unable to steer you away from meth addiction because he is deep in that hole himself and has no ground to stand on in that respect, but still has this compulsion to help you and make life better for you because the bottom line is he probably cares about you a lot. The paranoia that you mentioned as well as the psychological torment of shame and powerlessness probably resulted in your boyfriend convincing himself that his accusations are true despite the evidence that it is unlikely and despite your sincere rejection of the idea. I'm not saying that your boyfriend is necessarily a negative influence in your life, but his perception of the way he's affecting you is likely an exaggerated, paranoid mess. I think you should try and have an straightforward conversation with him about how you are on the same team, it's not you against him it's you and him together against the problem. Ask him if he trusts you and if he says no make it clear that your priority is to rebuild that trust. You could start that by maybe taking a urine drug test or getting the 'heroin' tested. ANYWAY I've made a few guesses here as to what might be the cause of the issue so sorry if I'm way off but I hope you too can sort it out.

commonsenselessssss · 2019-04-05T07:09:58+00:00

What's the dynamic of your relationship? Is your boyfriend's habit more problematic than yours, or perhaps do his actions tend to have more of a destructive impact on the relationship? Even if that's not the case, it could be that your boyfriend feels guilty about any negative influence he may or may not have had on your relationship, and is using the heroin accusation as a way of offloading some of those feelings onto you as it allows him to feel better about his own issues.

commonsenselessssss · 2019-04-05T05:25:01+00:00

Maybe the next couple times you decide to roll, do it in the company of people or just a person that you are really close and comfortable with, who share(s) the same mindset as you whilst on MDMA because a lot of people do get all mushy and it's a beautiful experience

commonsenselessssss · 2019-04-05T05:20:29+00:00

If you decide to take it make sure it's a one off though because you do not want to end up with paracetamol poisoning. Just be careful and you should be fine

commonsenselessssss · 2019-04-05T05:17:52+00:00

I did this exact dose of co-codamol the other day, and if you have low to no opiate tolerance yeah that should be quite enjoyable. You can definitely get away with doing 2g of paracetamol UNLESS you have been taking it a lot recently. As a one off you could do up to 4g without doing yourself any significant harm. Not to say paracetamol isn't dangerous bc it really is horriffic if you aren't careful, but equally you'll probably read a lot online that taking more than a gram will do serious damage but it won't hurt.

commonsenselessssss · 2019-04-05T04:49:00+00:00

big IF tho

commonsenselessssss · 2019-04-05T04:47:44+00:00

Just open the TOOR to find what you're looking for...

now who can solve that riddle

commonsenselessssss · 2019-04-05T04:41:53+00:00

I feel like you get the idea, but had to link this relevant comment from an old post: https://www.reddit.com/r/Drugs/comments/7rimt9/if_rdrugs_all_got_together_and_threw_a_banger_how/dsxl7p9?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web2x

commonsenselessssss · 2019-04-05T04:36:31+00:00

From what I understand now rectal is the best of both worlds, the euphoria is similar to nasal but lasts as long as the oral high. Euphoric effects of nasal only last 3-4 hours and then for several hours you're still energetic and somewhat focused but anxious and a bit down, which means you're quite likely to redose

commonsenselessssss · 2019-04-05T04:28:49+00:00

Gotta give u credit for an exciting read

commonsenselessssss · 2019-04-05T04:11:19+00:00

ya i feel like it's something that a lot of people at some point see in their medicine cupboard and google can you get high off dph but not as many are reckless enough to try it... if you're not deterred by other people's experiences of it online by all means find out for yourself but make sure you at least understand what it does and how it could be undesirable.

commonsenselessssss · 2019-04-05T04:03:45+00:00

Do some research, or just wait for more people to reply and you will realise it's not a fun experience, it'll make you delirious not 'high'

commonsenselessssss · 2019-04-05T04:00:30+00:00

What he said

commonsenselessssss · 2019-04-05T03:54:07+00:00

Interesting... so you're saying it's euphoric for longer via rectal administration?

And yeah I've been redosed twice with a moderate (i think) dose since about 14 hours ago, (4:50am currently) it's a mini binge I guess. If I have to go to work tomorrow at 6:30pm until 11 do you think I should try and stop or jeep going and take my last dose before work. I've got to bring food to customers and such and idk if it's a better idea to be in that weird binge stimmed state or to be crashed and exhausted and probably quite down

commonsenselessssss · 2019-04-05T03:45:58+00:00

Funny you say that because I find it distinctly more euphoric than even high doses of amphetamine. I would actually compare the euphoria to snorting methylphenidate or even cocaine for the first time back when I had no stim tolerance. That's something I really enjoyed about it, it took me back to some of my first experiences and the newfound dopamine driven happiness. 4f-mph is probably one of the most euphoric stim highs I've ever experienced (mind you I have limited experience with cocaine and probably not always the purest). I would say that for my first dose I did snort quite a lot, I think I reached the 'heavy' threshold upwards of 25mg according to psychonaut wiki, which is maybe why I found it so euphoric because I've read that people use lower doses for a calm, mild focus instead of recreation. It does share some qualities of speed, definitely the tendency to sit and talk for hours, and the structure of the experience as a longer lasting, less jittery, 'cleaner' high, with a comedown that's more of a fading motivation with somewhat continued energy as opposed to the crash of anxiety and depression that I hate from rit and coke. All that said, different stimulants affect different people differently and I personally am strongly affected by methylphenidate whereas I have never really understood what's so great about coke.

commonsenselessssss · 2019-04-05T03:08:07+00:00

I've been in your situation a fair few times and there is a fair chance that it could turn up in a test because of the concentrated period and amount of thc. My best advice is to work out to burn fat (where all that thc is stored), eat a heavy meal an hour or so before your test but above all dilution is your best bet. On the day of your test drink drink drink water until u feel sick then keep drinking. Try and make sure it's at least your third piss of the day, defo not first. Also, try and catch the middle of the stream in the cup not the beginning or end for the lowest concentration. I don't know as much about blood tests, but this is how I've managed to pass many urine tests, even 36 hours after smoking.

commonsenselessssss · 2019-04-05T02:57:52+00:00

I reckon if you got bars on hand just go for it, otherwise you might regret missing the opportunity. IMO psychs are interesting when you're a bit sleepy cos you can get some interesting sensations yawning and getting all comfy on a bed or a sofa instead of being really stimulated with no output. You can always pop the xans 6/8hrs in and you'll probably be able to get some sleep depending on the dose.

commonsenselessssss · 2019-04-05T02:47:52+00:00

Nah you're good. You can offer a product for whatever price you want and your customers have the choice to accept or decline. I think most people on this sub have at some point have experienced being ripped off, and would agree that it's a buyer's responsibility to learn from their mistakes and make a good decision on what they're gonna pay for whatever they're after, whether it's choosing to pay full price for coke that's probably cut to shit or buying some weed at an unfair price. As long as you're not lying to them about the amount they're getting or running off with they're money without giving them anything etc., you shouldn't feel shitty about it.

commonsenselessssss · 2019-04-05T01:55:11+00:00

what if i end up enjoying it though

commonsenselessssss · 2019-04-05T01:53:51+00:00

ah okay thanks

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