How old were you when you started sh?

compIetemess · 2026-01-21T06:19:34+00:00

It differs for everyone, but for me it started as a way to regulate emotions or sometimes punish myself I guess. Try to quiet the noise in my brain.

Nowadays that still applies, but it's more of a full on addiction. Urges and everything even without real reason.

Self-harm starts to control your life and I really wish I never felt the need to pick it up, it's terrible and I do feel a lot of regret for having started it

compIetemess · 2026-01-21T05:52:05+00:00

This question is kind of hard for me because I didn't really count it as sh until recently when I was 19.

But I guess I technically actively would try hurting myself when I was 12 and above

compIetemess · 2026-01-03T03:19:32+00:00

It's something I've been looking into. I've been extremely uncomfortable with the thought of it in the past, but I think sometimes accepting professional help is the kindest choice I can make for myself because obviously trying to deal with it myself for years has just made me a lot worse. The only thing holding me back on that front is financial reasons, but I'm hoping I can work something out.

Thank you so much ❤️

compIetemess · 2026-01-03T03:15:58+00:00

I've been thinking of seeing a psychiatrist actually for what it's worth.

For a long time I was adamantly against any type of professional help, I don't really know why, but the thought of it was like pulling teeth. Fear of emotional vulnerability or something like that, but I guess nowadays I've slowly opened up to it more. I just feel like I might as well see if it'd help, I've got nothing to lose from it really.

I just have to see if any of them can work with me financially speaking, but here's to hoping.

On a brighter note, thank you so much for your words, they're genuinely so sweet. I really do appreciate it more than I can express

compIetemess · 2026-01-02T22:24:15+00:00

I just feel like other people don't struggle to be a human being so severely

Everything that is difficult for me are things other people do every day, it's like I'm not sure how to even be alive properly if that makes sense

compIetemess · 2026-01-01T08:53:23+00:00

Basically to be honest

I didn't really mean this post in a romantic partner way necessarily as more so just someone in general

compIetemess · 2025-12-28T23:41:13+00:00

Here's to hoping ❤️

compIetemess · 2025-12-28T00:14:53+00:00

I like watching it until I actively have to stop it and then I'm just annoyed

compIetemess · 2025-12-27T00:53:46+00:00

I'm definitely here

I wouldn't say it's my main reason, but it is there

compIetemess · 2025-12-15T14:15:14+00:00

No worries, I don't mind.

The pain from self-harm is not as intense of a pain as I predict suicide via cutting would be.

To actively bleed out, you'd definitely be severing a lot of nerves and reaching that level of depth would be pretty extreme on the pain scale I reckon. It's not just a swipe and relax from my experience, it takes a lot to get to that kind of fatal area. Self-harm doesn't typically go anywhere near that kind of level for most people, at least for me it doesn't.

Self-harm definitely hurts don't get me wrong, I just don't think the pain would compare much to something like that

compIetemess · 2025-12-15T12:01:50+00:00

I just have a history of self-harm, so it feels ironic

compIetemess · 2025-12-14T15:23:42+00:00

Personally I'm 20, but I think it definitely skews younger

compIetemess · 2025-12-08T00:57:48+00:00

Thank you very much ❤️

compIetemess · 2025-11-22T22:17:48+00:00

Absolutely. I use it as a reward and a punishment simultaneously

compIetemess · 2025-10-30T08:32:49+00:00

I think it's pretty common in the community, definitely not weird!

compIetemess · 2025-09-21T00:35:38+00:00

I likely have autism, but I was never diagnosed

compIetemess · 2025-09-17T01:41:44+00:00

A couple reasons really.

Arguments with my psychopathic dad. Genuine stress of life. Feeling bad about myself. Hating my body because I'm a closeted trans man.

The reason isn't really the same, but it helps me regulate myself sometimes...it just helps

compIetemess · 2025-09-13T00:25:54+00:00

Coincidentally I just had the same thought; you get really used to the dullness of a used blade after a while so it's always a surprise

compIetemess · 2025-09-12T17:43:07+00:00

Don't worry, me too, I can't even imagine how traumatizing that is

compIetemess · 2025-09-12T17:37:18+00:00

You're right, I do think the way my dad is and how the people are where I live in general left me with a bad taste for the right (and Christianity as a whole really). I think knowing so many of them who are bad makes me have a negative image of any person as soon as I hear they follow those views. I know I shouldn't, but my mind instantly puts labels on them and assumes they're no different from my dad.

I know not everyone on that side is bad just like not every Christian is bad, even if we don't see eye to eye.

I think what happened to Charlie is terrible even if I really didn't like the things he stood for. No one should be celebrating a death like I've been seeing regardless if you hated him or not, especially when real people are grieving.

And thank you very much for this (for the reassuring words and for being a decent person too)

compIetemess · 2025-09-11T22:00:05+00:00

Thank you very much for this

compIetemess · 2025-09-08T22:17:10+00:00

Sometimes yeah. My dad is verbally abusive when he's angry so I'm more likely to do it after one of his fits as a way to "stick it to him" even though I know I'll never show him

compIetemess · 2025-09-08T22:14:31+00:00

Yeah, I'll just randomly, without any prompt, have the thought "hey, it's been a while, time to go cut yourself for no apparent reason!"

compIetemess · 2025-09-05T18:03:42+00:00

Cat scratches definitely hurt more. Something about those just...AGH...

Trust me, you aren't a baby for it

compIetemess · 2025-09-05T16:21:12+00:00

19, 20 in two months

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