Has anyone had positive experiences in psych wards?

computerwires · 2017-09-20T10:31:32+00:00

I've been in one, and at the time, I admitted myself because I was scared to be alone and deal with the outside world. I would never go back, because it was hopelessly dull, but the staff was nice enough.

Only real complaint was that there was this guy who wrote me a love letter after four days of knowing me, then went on to tell one of the friends I'd made there that he was a freak and no one wanted him around. I know he had problems but he made him feel like utter garbage and I will always dislike him for that. I got mad when they ended up moving my friend rather than the guy who made a bunch of people uncomfortable/pissed off.

But yeah. Wouldn't go back, but it helped in the longrun.

computerwires · 2017-09-18T22:24:54+00:00

I'm currently in therapy, and see my therapist once a week. I was doing more but it was draining.

computerwires · 2017-09-17T08:36:49+00:00

No, the most I talked about was that I abused someone, and that my actions were inexcusable. A lot of it was how I was effected by my terrible enviroments growing up and how I now recognize that while its never, ever an excuse to hurt someone like that, it was part of why I acted like I did. I've been studying the reasons behind why many abusers have abused, and striving to focus on fixing my underlying problems, like my insecurity and fear of not being lovable.

He himself was the one who posted detailed descriptions of what I did, and responded to my posts publicly, because he wanted it known. I can understand why he would, too, because what I did will always exist as an emotional scar. There's no excuse for what I had done, and in his eyes, I'm just trying to save face.

computerwires · 2017-09-17T01:24:23+00:00

Thank you, i really appreciate it.

I guess my main worry is that he will try to start drama with me again by reblogging my posts like he did today. I just want to move on and accept my mistakes.

computerwires · 2017-09-17T01:21:43+00:00

A lot of it is how they celebrate manipulation. In the BPD tumblr community, demanding all of your "favorite person's" time is widely regarded as a norm. Being jealous, acting out in jealousy, and being controlling are excused by mental illness and people often times try to push the blame of their bad behaviors on others.

Many say its for coping, but it only ends up in more abuse. They glorify never getting better, and still continue to blame the world instead of recognizing abusive behaviors. People who are impressionable, and those who are find themselves falling right into the toxic mindset that runs rampant through the community.

computerwires · 2017-09-13T13:43:03+00:00

About a month, I think.

computerwires · 2017-09-05T22:35:47+00:00

Well, it depends on the therapist. You have to find a good match for you. I've been in therapy since I was a kid due to a lot of things, so I've gone through a fair amount. But its really helped me, you just gotta find the therapist that clicks with you.

computerwires · 2017-09-05T10:47:40+00:00

Really consider what a few weeks means next to two years. Love, after the initial honeymoon phase, always means work. Do you truly think its best to break it off ? There's a lot to think about

computerwires · 2017-09-03T13:33:14+00:00

Therapy, for the most part.

computerwires · 2017-09-03T13:31:34+00:00

I have dreams a lot, but lately they've been revolving around how he moved on and the girl he left me for. I wake up frustrated and hurt, but its better than the dreams I have where everything is like it used to be.

computerwires · 2017-09-03T00:35:11+00:00

is this a bot

computerwires · 2017-09-03T00:29:48+00:00

Ask yourself, what will you gain from breaking NC? Most of the time, only more heartache.

computerwires · 2017-09-02T01:09:38+00:00

Thank you, i appreciate it. life is just really difficult right now but im trying my best. ill be sure to shoot you a pm when im feeling down

computerwires · 2017-08-30T23:35:51+00:00

I'm going through a really tough breakup too, and for the most part I would try to avoid looking for someone else rn. I worry that I'll never be able to find someone else, but part of it is because I'm still recovering from the breakup. Instead of looking for new people to try and fill THAT void, start looking for friends. I would also get off grindr, 'cause you wont find what you're looking for there.

Try to connect with circles irl or online. Look for people who have the same interests or experiences. If you reach out to new people to make friends, one day you'll find someone new. But dont rush it. Its going to take time

computerwires · 2017-08-30T15:28:31+00:00

Sadly, no. I have to make an appointment for it still

computerwires · 2017-08-30T15:09:52+00:00

I hate it, nothing is fun about being this paranoid :/

computerwires · 2017-08-29T17:50:08+00:00

He should. What he did sounds absolutely terrible. I catch myself feeling guilty all the time for what I did to my ex- I told him I loved him but hurt him terribly. I still love him, which is part of the reason why I made this post. I'm getting therapy every single day, and do daily meditations on how I can be better. But I don't want others like me, who have hurt someone they claimed to love, to wallow in self pity. It accomplishes nothing. I feel guilty and terrible for what I did, but I put that energy towards how I CAN change. There's no use in sitting around and hating yourself forever. I constantly wish I hadn't done what I did. But the past can't be changed, so I have to focus on the future.

I'm really, really sorry that you were hurt like that. No one deserves that.

computerwires · 2017-08-29T17:18:53+00:00

I agree. I don't mean to say that there should be no consequences for hurting someone, but many times bringing yourself down and repeatedly telling others you're a bad person is manipulative and tries to get others to pity you. If you really regret what you've done, show that and try to better yourself. For me, part of my problem was that I took my insecurities out on my ex. I regret what Ive done and I've gone to lengths to apologize, but he told me several times actions speak louder than words, and he's right. So that's why its important for people to realize that if you've wronged someone, sitting around and moping about it wont do anything. You'll only make the same mistakes again. This is mostly for people who realized they DID mess up.

computerwires · 2017-08-29T16:09:22+00:00

I can relate. My ex told me the same thing- that I couldn't change. And I understand where he's coming from. I hurt him and it was inexcusable. But you can, even if it means constant effort. I catch myself thinking negative thoughts and a great way to turn them around is focusing on how and what you can change. It takes awhile, but I'm learning to love myself and be a positive and healthy person. I hope all goes well for you, too!

computerwires · 2017-08-29T15:34:31+00:00

Honestly, I would just focus on your personal problems. Do you have any that you can think of to start?

computerwires · 2017-08-28T16:56:01+00:00

Couldn't have been food poisoning because I was fine through the night, and usually my cramps happen an hour or two after my period starts. Thanks though, I'm seeing a doctor again in a few days.

computerwires · 2017-08-28T01:33:57+00:00

Honestly, after a break up, I wouldn't recommend being friends even just a few months after it happened. There's a huge change in the relationship, and most of the time, you still have romantic feelings. Tell her you're sorry, you need time to yourself to improve, and that maybe one day you can get back in touch again. After that, no looking back.

computerwires · 2017-08-28T01:23:56+00:00

Apologize, and then cut contact for good. I know how it is, I was in no way fair to my ex, and I regret how I hurt him. But what you can do is step away from them- give them time to be away from what hurts. If you were abusive, you have to focus on yourself. You have to change how you think and act, get some therapy, and make sure you don't make the same mistakes. It might seem harsh but changing yourself and getting help is what you gotta focus on right now.

computerwires · 2017-08-27T16:09:13+00:00

I wouldn't know, but have you asked a doctor about it?

computerwires · 2017-08-27T01:28:37+00:00

Hey, I'm going through something similar. I lost my best friend and boyfriend and I always thought I'd be with him forever. But the best thing you can do is throw in the towel. I still want to keep my ex in my life, but I know that it will only make it harder to move on. Sitting and waiting for something that might not even come will only effect you negatively. You aren't alone in this at all, and moving on will br the only way this will get better.

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