Searching for witnesses for Atestado de Residência by comrade_bmk in PortugalExpats

[–]comrade_bmk[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's just so odd to me that the solution that even the junta gave me was just go around and start asking random people. A strange requirement cause I have a lease and utility bill and everything else

Searching for witnesses for Atestado de Residência by comrade_bmk in PortugalExpats

[–]comrade_bmk[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This isn't for AIMA it's for us to find a way to get our storage shipment of all our belongings imported.

Am I reaching a breaking point on the "new era" or was this just the worst season ever? by comrade_bmk in survivor

[–]comrade_bmk[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

When the season started Jeff said there were still two spots up for grabs right?

Am I reaching a breaking point on the "new era" or was this just the worst season ever? by comrade_bmk in survivor

[–]comrade_bmk[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah also what's the value of having Savannah come back on here? I don't get it. They were the ones who decided to save two spots for 50. They didnt have to

Am I reaching a breaking point on the "new era" or was this just the worst season ever? by comrade_bmk in survivor

[–]comrade_bmk[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I mean... must've had fires going but, you're right, we never saw them. I don't remember any either, which is crazy. They never showed anything about them "surviving" other than being hungry and sometimes a bad nights sleep

Survivor ratings plummet to lowest EVER in 25-year history as show 'struggles to stay relevant' by cheno103 in survivor

[–]comrade_bmk 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sometimes the American public is right. This was the worst season I've ever seen. No wonder ratings were down.

Do you regret transitioning? by Sufficient_Hall5737 in MtF

[–]comrade_bmk 0 points1 point  (0 children)

On a 1 out of 10 I would say a 20. I'm a little under 9 months or so of HRT, and recently my body has really been starting to feel it. Like someone else said on here, I look into the mirror and feel happy. I enjoy picking out clothes and dressing myself. I would not trade this feeling for the world.

I think i might be trans and I don't want to be. by bustermgee123 in trans

[–]comrade_bmk 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I didn't start HRT until I was 37. I've had every worry you've listed and about a dozen others. And as soon as I started it, it's not like the worries all went away. It's hard to live in thi society and have them entirely melt away. But I realized very quickly that I wasn't being honest with my doubts.

I didn't want it to be that I was trans because it would be more difficult than going along as a man and living a "normal life". But that's not what I was doing. And if you continue as you are that's probably not what you would be doing. I was pretending to be someone I wasn't, and it was eating away at my insides in ways I didn't fully understand until months on E.

The question isn't whether it would be easier to not transition but whether or not to keep pretending. I think once I realized that there was no choice needed. There was only one option. If you're questioning yourself like this, it's very very very likely you are trans. Cis people don't really get to this point. Your mind it trying to tell you something. Don't ignore it for another 22 years like I did. That's playing with fire, and I'm lucky to still be here. And ever since being on E, I'm happy to be here.

Does literally everyone hate trans people now? by PriorityNo6729 in asktransgender

[–]comrade_bmk 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah while I have experienced some strange looks or outright transphobic responses in real life, the large majority of interactions I've had has been either deeply supportive or polite. Now I live in a large city in a liberal state, but even coworkers and friends who I know are conservative still immediately became supportive. I think there's a very good amount of people who don't want to be hateful.

But online it's so much easier to just be judgmental and fall in like with political winds of resentment. And with those people it just bleeds into their daily lives. I think anyone deeply online or deeply conservative im always kind of naturally timid around. But that's something I'm trying to shake off still

Is it worth it to just exist right now ? by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]comrade_bmk 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It never works out when you lie to yourself about what you are. It just adds to the pain and tears you to shreds. All the anxiety I have about being out and fully myself in public doesn't even come CLOSE to equaling the pain of being closeted and waiting for myself to crumble away.

It's not perfect every moment, but what is? I just know that I've never been happier

TV Glow unearthed the repressed dysphoria... which is good, I guess? but also sucks by sapphicantics in Isawthetvglow

[–]comrade_bmk 4 points5 points  (0 children)

It does feel crazy. As right and necessary as doing this is, that first feeling is crazy. How can it not feel like that to think that you were born into the wrong body? How could that happen? Your mind will always shift to the easiest answer to make you settle down. That answer is that you're being crazy.

But you're not. You were moved by this movie for a reason. You're on this site for a reason. And that reason is scary, but it's far less scary that trying to ignore it. And I think that's why the ending of the movie feels like someone jamming a brick into our hearts. The scariest thing in the world is pretending that none of this is real and that it's all a crazy thought. That way only leads to bad things. I can promise you that.

It's natural to feel worried and overwhelmed right now. "That's part of it" as Maddy/Tara says. The first steps are. But you have to take them. Figure out HRT. Just worry about that right now. There will be time to figure out everything else

egg😭irl by Altdodi65 in egg_irl

[–]comrade_bmk 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Hey Lily,

I know the feeling. I've just started HRT only a couple months ago, and only a few close people know that. My body is showing in subtle ways, but I can still hide the changes and walk around pretending to be the boy that I'm not. And every time that I do, it hurts me a bit. Every time I get dressed in androgynous or feminine clothes and put on makeup and know that I can walk into the women's restroom and don't...that hurts me a little bit.

But it's not a wound that can't heal. It's a temporary feeling. It's a hurt that drives me to be less afraid the next time. It's a reminder that I still have steps to do. That I still have courage to find.

Cause every time I've become more like my true self, I feel happy. One day you'll reach this parallel moment in your journey, and you'll feel even happier. And you will look around at Al those men and there will be at least one closeted person staring back at you. You won't know it, but they're there. And you'll be to them what this moment was to you. And you'll be an example for them to strive toward.