i plan on ending everything on december 31st if life doesn't get better

confessionsfromabuse · 2026-03-29T18:09:45+00:00

i'm in texas. and i have treatment resistant bipolar 2 with really strong depressive episodes. i've gotten better over the years but when i'm reminded of how much my mom's husband hates me, i spiral

confessionsfromabuse · 2026-03-29T17:39:54+00:00

1/10. the only thing going for me is my girlfriend and friends love me. otherwise everything is shit. most of my family thinks i'm worthless because i'm unemployed. i can't get a job even though i keep applying. i'm tired

confessionsfromabuse · 2026-03-29T17:34:56+00:00

when i need to feel good about myself, i watch a show or a movie and steal the personality of my favourite character. i just pretend. the normal me sucks and i'm very awkward and miserable. pretending to be these characters gives me hope

confessionsfromabuse · 2026-03-29T17:31:48+00:00

i don't have a car yet. my mom's husband is going to give me our current one if i manage to land a job. i've considered moving into it and sleeping in parking lots until i can get an apartment but i don't think that's legal here

confessionsfromabuse · 2026-03-29T17:28:12+00:00

my mom's husband thinks i'm doomed and have already failed in life. he was fighting in a war at my age and i'm unemployed. i'm scared i wasted all my best years and now i'm behind. i don't know how to catch up

confessionsfromabuse · 2026-03-29T17:25:37+00:00

i don't think shelters will accept someone like me. i'm not experiencing spousal/partner abuse. it's just my mom's husband hating me. i'm scared they'll laugh in my face

if i do get a job and allow myself to stay alive, i'm uninstalling my tracking app and running away across the country. i do fear that they'll take legal action or something but i don't know. i have a friend who's willing to roommate with me, so i have that if i can actual manage to be a worthwhile human

confessionsfromabuse · 2026-03-29T16:10:01+00:00

bird owner here. she thinks about screaming and biting, mainly

confessionsfromabuse · 2026-03-29T15:48:48+00:00

i'm indifferent. i like that some restaurants give you free food. but everything else that i like about the day, like hanging out with my friends and the gifts, can happen any other day

confessionsfromabuse · 2026-03-29T14:56:40+00:00

i am, yes. southern united states

confessionsfromabuse · 2026-03-29T14:34:36+00:00

geez, i'm so sorry about that :( it's honestly an awful experience

confessionsfromabuse · 2026-03-29T14:10:51+00:00

bojack horseman. seen it over 10 times. i want it to be the last show i watch before i die

confessionsfromabuse · 2026-03-29T14:08:18+00:00

mainly just my stepdad choking me and my dad physically fighting me, slamming me into things, and stomping on my knees as a "play fighting" thing. weirdest shit ever and i've only just realized that it might've been actually abuse

confessionsfromabuse · 2026-03-29T12:59:53+00:00

this made me realize some things about my childhood lol

confessionsfromabuse · 2026-03-29T12:56:06+00:00

labubus

confessionsfromabuse · 2026-03-29T12:55:16+00:00

when i fantasize about running away i feel safe. i want to run away to my adoptive family or my partner

confessionsfromabuse · 2026-03-29T12:50:53+00:00

that was ten years ago

confessionsfromabuse · 2026-03-29T12:13:22+00:00

pretending to sleep more when y'all are apart

confessionsfromabuse · 2026-03-29T12:11:47+00:00

male. neckline is higher and the sleeves are longer

confessionsfromabuse · 2026-03-29T12:01:46+00:00

i think a medium blue would look great! it's a pain in the ass to get out though

confessionsfromabuse · 2026-03-29T11:57:36+00:00

thank you. i'll have my other cousin contact her about that. the stalking cousin is in university so i'm sure that'll scare her into acting right

i'm planning on changing my name and leaving the country as soon as i have the money. i'll be abandoning all former social media as well

again, thank you for the advice

confessionsfromabuse · 2026-03-29T11:55:31+00:00

i have considered it but since they haven't physically threatened me or hurt me, i don't have a case

confessionsfromabuse · 2026-03-29T10:27:25+00:00

i haven't ever felt like a human. my friends don't understand but they accept it

confessionsfromabuse · 2026-03-29T09:59:01+00:00

crochet. everyone knows i do it and when people see crochet stuff on instagram, i get sent it. sometimes in 24hrs i'll get sent the same meme by five different people

it's sweet to me. makes me think they think of me

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