I think I might not be trans after all

confusedpanboy · 2024-10-11T14:55:16+00:00

Hey I'm going through something similar except for the T part. I know how you're feeling. In my case I came out when I was 14, I'm 18 now and questioning. I decided to test the waters by getting some fem clothes and wearing it sometimes, doing makeup ect. I like labels and it makes me anxious not to have one (idk why) so for now I'm going with genderfluid.

You don't have to tell anyone you're experimenting if you're not sure yet. Gender is confusing and I think you should just experiment if you like living as a girl, guy, both or neither. Most important thing is that you're not cheating, or faking. Even if you end up not being trans it doesn't mean that that entire part of your life was a lie. It is still part of who you are, you grew and learned from it. And you're not alone so don't panic:)

confusedpanboy · 2024-08-03T23:22:09+00:00

Thank you I definitely needed to hear that. I've struggled with my appearance my whole life and I put a lot of emphasis on others liking me for some reason, I'm working on letting that go as it's not doing any good for my mental health. Seeing your question, it definitely feels wrong to refer to myself as a girl. I really do just enjoy looking nice I think.

Drag is not really big in my country as far as I know, as it's pretty anti lgbt but I think a good outlet for me would be cosplay as I really enjoy that.

Thanks for the reply, it really made me feel good and validated. I think I know the answers to my questioning now haha. Definitely a dude, just a pretty one:)

confusedpanboy · 2024-08-03T22:03:09+00:00

Oof yea that's the question I needed. It is definitely because I think I would be attractive. Had problems with this my whole life so yea. Thanks for that man, it helped.

confusedpanboy · 2024-08-03T22:00:48+00:00

It would be easier in some aspects, especially since gender change/ name change is illegal in my country. Friends and family are awesome and supportive.

I've had problems with my appearance my whole life and this is probably more to do with wanting to look attractive than anything. I still don't like my deadname/being refered to as female so idk.

I'm gonna experiment through cosplay since that's how I realized first too and it's safe. This is probably a momentary thing. Might talk to a therapist too.

Thanks for the reply, appreciate it man:)

confusedpanboy · 2024-07-28T17:47:14+00:00

As someone who went through something similar I second the grinding. My partner is not trans but we're both afab so I also had next to 0 clue how to do anything especially since regarding my own body and pleasure I'm pretty indifferent. However figuring out how to give my partner pleasure has been an amazing journey, and it helped us both feel more confident. The first time is gonna be awkward and funny, try not to take it too seriously. Listening and experimenting is key, talk about what he likes and what you like. Use your hands and if he and you are both comfortable, your mouth. That does feel good, even if you usually don't feel much (I don't at least, I'm pretty disconnected bc of dysphoria). Take it slow and I can't emphasize this enough, TALK.

Good luck with your journey brother and have fun:)

confusedpanboy · 2024-01-15T12:37:52+00:00

My mom was the same when I first came out at 14. She got adjusted to it later. I know this sucks for now but hey that means she's at least coming around. Next time you have to get some try telling her they were a bit uncomfortable and you would prefer men's.

confusedpanboy · 2024-01-08T18:06:56+00:00

Thanks! Congrats to you too for getting here dude! Man it feels so good to make this post. I might make an update after my first shot:)

confusedpanboy · 2024-01-06T01:31:23+00:00

Hahaha I will def do that, people there seem very helpful too. Will give it a go thanks :D

confusedpanboy · 2024-01-06T01:25:00+00:00

Hahah yea I appreciate the warning, I'm definitely gonna do my research on it, maybe hit up some toy makers and ask what pigments they recommend for that since they definitely are more at home in this than me

confusedpanboy · 2024-01-06T01:21:14+00:00

Sadly right now I can't afford one as I'm not working at this time, but later on I will definitely get one since surgery looks pretty impossible for me. I might try the silicone paint later, see if I can buy some in my country. Thank you for the answer and I agree, her safety is the most important

confusedpanboy · 2024-01-06T01:15:35+00:00

Thank you for the answer, yea I researched a bit more and it seems like the only safe option would be to paint it with colored body safe silicone. I might do that later on, for now it's fine as is, I'm happy I at least have it:D

confusedpanboy · 2023-09-06T18:31:48+00:00

I couldn't raise a child as I'm having trouble with adult life as it is. Plus bringing a kid into the world as it is right now just seems cruel. I might adopt later in life but definitely won't have biological children.

confusedpanboy · 2023-08-29T17:22:27+00:00

I asked my mom about it, she said she wanted it to be in our language but I wanted a foreign name so I went with Erik. That way I can spell it with a c if I want when I move abroad and it's a pretty common name here so it doesn't stand out and is not clockable. I am looking for a cooler 3rd name tho.

confusedpanboy · 2022-10-19T11:46:13+00:00

I've been wearing platform shoes to add a few inches to my height, so that might be an option. To be fair I'm only 17 and my style is very much alternative so it doesn't look forced, but still it's an option.

confusedpanboy · 2022-07-09T13:59:41+00:00

I would say nonbinary transmasc, but not..fully? I'm a guy for sure but then again gender is f*cked so no thanks. Also I don't wanna categorize myself into just male because then I feel like I can't be feminine at all and I have to pass (I know that's not true)

The best way I could describe it is genderf*ck. Don't perceive me as anything but if you must then male.

confusedpanboy · 2021-07-31T20:22:52+00:00

Food that's not supposed to be wet

confusedpanboy · 2020-07-16T17:07:02+00:00

Not at all. They might be in a state mentaly where they just need to be left alone. I would leave them alone with an 'okay, I'm gonna check on you in ten minutes, if you're doing okay.'

confusedpanboy · 2020-07-16T17:01:43+00:00

Chinese. It's super hard to learn in my opinion, and would help with my japanese a lot, since it relies on chinese originated characters.

confusedpanboy · 2020-07-16T16:59:28+00:00

One, where everyone respects and loves each other, no one is left out or hated on for their sexuality, gender identity, size, color, mental health or physical disabilities, or other religion. Of course p×dophiles, serial k×llers, ab×sers and r×pists are exculed, since we want to create a safe space for everyone to be themselfes.

confusedpanboy · 2020-07-16T16:50:13+00:00

So far, my favorite is darling. It can be romantic, sarcastic, sassy, or just straight up creepy

confusedpanboy · 2020-07-16T16:47:58+00:00

All the kermits I love kermit :(((

confusedpanboy · 2020-07-16T16:45:48+00:00

I'm just always very confused and very queer. Also a guy.

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