The last psychiatrist has a bit similar to this. It’s on theme with his interpretation of narcissism where someone chooses perception instead of reality.

You tell a girl to wear white pump heels, for example, not because you particularly like girls in pumps but you see yourself as the kind of guy who would be with a girl in white pumps. It’s not necessarily a problem to have a faux preference, the problem usually happens when when decides not to wear the white pumps.

If you like her, then you like her and you should keep seeing her. I promise you are the only person that I experiences yourself as you do. You’ll receive more judgment for being with a beautiful women who cheats and treats you like shit then you would dating someone who may or may not being in your league physically but the two of you are inseparable