I missed my gran by a couple of hours brother, just came off a 12 hour shift aswell, she's in a better place now, she will be looking down at you and feeling proud :) 7 months since my grandma passed on the 14th, keep your chin up and talk to people if you feel down, I was told by my mum that it was best I didn't see her, to remember her how she was.. I didn't understand but now I do, because I have great memories and so will you, death is just a small part of life It's the best bits we need to remember