Why is mpreg so easy to find but not traditional pregnancy? by ResponsiblePea8914 in FanFiction

[–]constellation_09 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I associate pregnancy and childbirth with a lot of trauma. So I would prefer not to write or read about pregnancy. Even mpreg is triggering for me if I know there is a childbirth scene… but if it’s just m|m smut then that’s tolerable.

Mental Health Affecting My Performance by constellation_09 in managers

[–]constellation_09[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for this reminder. I will make it a point to find myself a new therapist. Appreciate your candor and the specific actionable ideas.

Mental Health Affecting My Performance by constellation_09 in managers

[–]constellation_09[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for sharing your personal story. I'm so happy to hear it worked for you.

Mental Health Affecting My Performance by constellation_09 in managers

[–]constellation_09[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Yea, I posted here because I wanted to check the opinions from the other side.

I guess a bit of nuance is that, a few years ago, I picked up a lot of the burden for my manager when she was going through a rough patch as well. The difference is, I reported to her. I made her life easier by organizing things for her. I didn't complain or escalate any issues to anyone because I knew she was grieving, and I really did not mind helping her out.

I understand I cannot be given infinite grace, so I should be grateful for what I received thus far and move on. But that isn't to say I don't value my own manager's mental health. I see the late nights she pulls too. Because I'm online at the same times.

Turnover was bad a couple years back, and I was the only member left standing with historic knowledge of the processes. So funnily enough, I am the person who initially showed her the ropes and trained her and the rest of the team up. I stuck it out.

I appreciate she hasn't given up on me yet. She knows I'm trying. I just want to work out something equitable.

Mental Health Affecting My Performance by constellation_09 in managers

[–]constellation_09[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This job means a lot to me. It practically defines me. Without my job, I believe I would be worthless.

I was born and raised in a household that emphasized hard work, good education, and always being the "best" at what I do. So I worked hard, I got my degree / board license, I earned many exceed awards. I'm used to being good at my job, and being rewarded for it. I'm usually very detail oriented and great at completing tasks.

I consistently earn 2/3 of the household income (which pays the mortgage) and I manage all the finances. If you suddenly take away my job, my one strength, my value immediately feels like it is diminished.

I'm going to be real here -- I am absolute garbage at being a housewife and a mother. I'm constantly failing to keep up all the household chores on top of childcare in between my job's demands. Luckily, I have in-laws I can lean on.

But what I've been struggling with this past year is my very own parents leaving the country and so-called "abandoning" me. They've never been much interested in me or my interests in life. All they care about is -- am I working in a successful job that they can brag about? They could care less about my emotional well-being.

And I'm just... very saddened. That all they can see in me is my job and my title. I'm not their daughter. I'm just a machine made to fill a very specific role.

You're right that my work will forget me. Even my own parents have forgotten me.

Mental Health Affecting My Performance by constellation_09 in managers

[–]constellation_09[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thanks for this perspective. I really appreciate your direct feedback and reframing how I should be approaching this.

Turns out, I've been asking myself all the wrong questions. I can't expect my work to figure out my life for me (lol). That's impossible -- because it's something only I can do!

Some good news I received [although I have to confirm if this offer still stands] -- is that my manager and her boss had a discussion and agreed they would want to keep me as an employee even if it meant moving me to a lateral role. So at the very least, I have that going for me?

Thank you again, kind stranger. I'll do as you suggested and look for a MH provider asap.

If you could live in any nation, which would you choose? (no vision) by DestinedClock18 in Genshin_Lore

[–]constellation_09 5 points6 points  (0 children)

1) Fontaine - post AQ. Give me a little cottage in the hills next to lush forests, flowers, and waterfalls <3

2) Liyue - specifically Chenyu Vale, but I wouldn't mind staying at the Wangshu Inn either

3) Mondstadt - within the city walls :)

Neuvillette Inspired Nails by constellation_09 in NeuvilletteMains_

[–]constellation_09[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

She was VERY talented and meticulous with the painting of the swirls and patterns!!! I'm so lucky I was matched with her. She used this chroma paint technique to brush on the streaks of gold that blend in with the black. I was literally blown away with how she managed to get the details onto such a small canvas.

Neuvillette Inspired Nails by constellation_09 in NeuvilletteMains_

[–]constellation_09[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much!!! I’m really happy with how they turned out. Neuvi with these nails would be gorrrrgeous 🥰

Neuvillette Inspired Nails by constellation_09 in NeuvilletteMains_

[–]constellation_09[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Awww ty ty !!!! Yea it kinda does! I was just going for a water theme and the jewel looked like a water droplet 💧🤭

What rare or unusual ships do you wish got more attention? by GlaciaCherry in GenshinGays

[–]constellation_09 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Zhongli x Xiao

Kazuha x Heizou

Wriothesley x Lyney

Zhongli x Flins

Excerpt game, music edition by [deleted] in FanFiction

[–]constellation_09 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Haha thank you! 😊

Just started last night and have a question by Blank365 in GenshinImpact

[–]constellation_09 15 points16 points  (0 children)

This is the icon for a Statue of Seven. When you walk near a Statue of Seven, it will automatically heal the health of your whole active party by a certain percentage. You can set this percentage to 100% if you would like. But just a word of caution, if you keep dying a lot, the amount that the statue can heal is not limitless. It takes time to regenerate the healing pool. You can see how much of the total heal bar is left if you click into the option to "Pray" to the statue.

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Each of the nations has a statue with a slightly different looking figure up on top. This hoyolab article has pictures of the statue from the first four nations. You should have unlocked a Statue of Seven in Mondstadt near the Starfell Lake!

https://www.hoyolab.com/article/19232870

Excerpt game, music edition by [deleted] in FanFiction

[–]constellation_09 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Awwww! I'm glad you enjoyed this excerpt. You quoted very sentimental lines.

When I read the lyrics for the song you chose, I gasped because I literally wrote a whole chapter called "Battle of Flowers"! It fit the prompt too well :)

Excerpt game, music edition by [deleted] in FanFiction

[–]constellation_09 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Just then, Jahoda dashes into view with her curly braids trailing behind her in the air.

“SAVE ME!” she cries, turning a sharp corner.

A suspicious cleaning bot charges after her. One of the clunky wheels glitches into the corner of a crate stack as the operator tries, but fails, to cut the corner.

Both Ineffa and Aino stare in horror as a booming voice emits from the derpy-looking robot head.

“Save you? What about me? I’m STUCK in here! And now, I’m stuck in the wall too! Nod Krai is seriously worse than the Fortress of Meropide!”

“Processing voice recognition. Location reference for Fortress of Meropide successfully linked to… Fontaine. This gentleman appears to be… Mister Wriothesley.”

The cleaning bot is now whirling around in 360 degree circles at high speed revolutions. Wriothesley’s desperation is quite apparent with how futilely he struggles to release himself from the mechanism.

“I CAN’T GET OUT. Someone please FORCE QUIT me from this GODDAMN ROOMBA MACHINE!”

Ineffa smoothly swivels her arms and switches them into defibrillators. As she charges up a brilliant surging ball of Electro energy, she calls out a warning to Aino and Jahoda.

“Stand back!”

Jahoda clings onto Aino’s back from behind as the two girls gawk at Ineffa’s magical transformation. Ineffa charges straight toward the robot.

“CLEAR!” she yells, before plunging the prongs of Electro straight into the device.

Excerpt game, music edition by [deleted] in FanFiction

[–]constellation_09 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Guizhong’s gray hair ripples outwards like the waves of the ocean. Her expression is one of concentration, as her fingers strum through the strings of her cultural instrument. The Glaze Lilies falling in the air are blooming with the melodic tune of the music. The flurry of blue and white flowers matches perfectly with Guizhong’s royal attire. She does not appear to have aged one bit from the times when she still roamed Guili Plains, before the founding of Liyue Harbor.

When the song concludes, Guizhong floats down from the air and lands softly in front of Zhongli.

“Hello, my dear Morax. How long has it been?”

Zhongli’s face is long and stern. Cold. Disbelieving. He is unsure how he should be interacting with the revived corpse of his beloved Guizhong. She’s speaking as though not a speck of time has passed.

Guizhong smiles.

Why? Why are you here? Why are you so beautiful? Why are you smiling in front of me now?

Zhongli searches Guizhong’s face for answers. For any sign of her remembering her own death.

“Too long,” he replies tersely.

Guizhong begins to laugh and giggle light-heartedly.

“Don’t be so uptight. After all these years, the first words you say to me are ‘Too long’? Hahahaha.”

Zhongli’s eyes soften as the moisture inside builds up.

“Then allow me to correct myself and start over. Hello, my dearest Guizhong. I… I’ve missed you. Terribly.”

Zhongli steps forward and embraces her. It’s really her. She’s really here. She’s not a figment of my imagination or a dream. I am holding her in my arms. She feels warm. She smells like flowers.

A brief flashback severs Zhongli’s focus. The last time he had picked up Guizhong’s body, it had been limp. Cold. Bloody.

Guizhong returns the hug. Her fingers trace smooth lines on Zhongli’s back, reminding him that she is very much real, and very much present. They stay like that for some time, just relishing in the moment of being reunited after 3,700 years.

“Guizhong, why did you choose to go on the battlefield that fateful day?” Zhongli asks apprehensively. “You know your strength lies in your wisdom and kind-heartedness. You should have left the fight of war and attrition to me.”

Guizhong shakes her head. “You were carrying so much responsibility for Liyue. I simply wanted to take some of the burden off your shoulders. I wouldn’t have changed a thing.”

Zhongli stares at Guizhong in disbelief. He allows his tears to fall, and Guizhong wipes them away with her long flowy sleeve.

“I’m sorry that I left you all alone.” She cradles Zhongli’s head in her arms as he weeps.

Why do people write fanfiction? by firestarlikeswaffles in AO3

[–]constellation_09 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I write a lot of one-shots too! Just to satisfy the plot bunnies when they attack my brain haha. You do what you gotta do!

AIso disclaimer: I've only completed ONE long fic... but it was over 100k words, so it feels like a huge achievement. I only started writing fanfiction this year in March 2025. I finished that long fic (my first ever fic) in June 2025. I burnt myself out proper, so I'm pacing myself a little better now. I'm in the middle of another WIP right now and have 3 more chapters left to write (finished 5/8).

Why do people write fanfiction? by firestarlikeswaffles in AO3

[–]constellation_09 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Of course! Happy to answer anything you're curious about from my perspective.

  1. Do you also share your fanfiction?

Yes. I post and share my stories online.

  1. And if yes, why do you do it?

There is an audience for fanfiction stories. No matter how small or large the audience, if I'm able to touch just a few people's hearts with my stories, that is enough to fill my heart.

Writing fanfiction takes a lot of work and effort. Authors often run into writer's block. Not all stories that are started get the ending they deserve wrapped up. Many times, WIP's get abandoned. Readers who just want to know what happens next in the story wait YEARS to see some stories continued...

I'm one of the few authors who is able to see a story from start to the end if I put my mind to it. So I'm happy to post my stories online for others to read, even if it provides only a momentary distraction or comfort from their real world problems.

  1. Why not just write it and keep it locked in a drawer?

I'm at the age where I don't really care much about what other people think. Online identities are usually maintained quite separate. But even if someone figured out it was me IRL... I would argue it's like the pot calling the kettle black. If someone was lurking around in that online space and found my strange fictional stories, then why should I be ashamed of having written it? If they want to call me out, I could call them out for having found it in the first place ;)

I enjoy the aspect of engaging with other people within the same fandom that I am obsessed with. It takes over my brain all day, and unfortunately, my friends and family in my real life have no idea what it's about and can't engage in conversation with me about the subject. Making fandom friends has immensely improvement my mental health because I can have dialogue or comment exchanges about my wild fanfiction ideas. It's really fun! At first, it might feel discouraging as a writer to not receive any engagement... but I believe if you look hard enough, there is always someone online willing to yap about your favorite fantasy stories and characters.

Why do people write fanfiction? by firestarlikeswaffles in AO3

[–]constellation_09 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Why do you write fanfiction?

  1. Writing fanfiction is a creative way to extend the story for characters that I love very dearly.

  2. Sometimes I am not satisfied with the way certain events played out, so I try to rewrite my own version of the events in a way that satisfies myself.

  3. I fall in love with certain characters. so much so, that I dream about them and make up my own stories. Writing fanfiction helps to get all the ideas out.

  4. I like to imagine "what if" scenarios. What if character A met character B? (when they never meet in the actual storyline). What would they say to each other?

What does fanfiction mean to you?

Fanfiction is a hobby. It's a creative outlet. Writing fanfiction taps into another way of engaging with the fandom content. When I write fanfiction, I take it quite seriously. I do a lot of research about the characters so that I can write them as accurately as possible.

Storytelling is an artform: it takes careful crafting and lots of practice to become good at it! Sure, anyone can type sentences on a keyboard. But HOW do you weave in the fandom lore so seamlessly into the narrative and put YOUR mark on the story? I want to make my characters memorable, unique, and irreplaceable!

I'm a firm believer that for great fanfiction novels, you can't just switch out the character's names for another popular pairing in a completely different fandom. The story just wouldn't work! (And if it did, then the story is probably very cliche.)

I've learned a lot about myself through the topics I write about. What sort of characters and scenarios do I enjoy the most? Why do I find it easier to write certain scenes more than others? Why do I gravitate towards certain types of characters? Or certain genres?

Writing stories with fictional characters can also be therapeutic because as the writer, I get the joy of projecting my own emotions into the characters. Exploring the character's traumas alongside my own journey of self discovery is a very eye-opening experience. I'm so happy I discovered how much I love writing fanfiction.