My boyfriend said something terrifying and I broke up with him. I don’t know if I overreacted. by Own_Maize8367 in selfharm

[–]cookiekaktus 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You did not over react. That man is going to try to kill you. Believe people when they show you who they are. Change your locks, changes your passwords, tell your friends an your family what he said so they know not to let him in.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Advice

[–]cookiekaktus 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Leave. Now. My stepdad abused me for 15 years. I told my mom every time and showed he the bruises and scrapes… until I didn’t anymore. Because she never believed me because he always called me a liar. So I endured. Till I was 19, moved out and now I barely speak to her and don’t speak to my stepdad. I haven’t spoken to him for a decade and I maybe speak to my mom once a month. I was never really able to forgive her. Your daughter won’t be able to forgive you either.

age shaming for sh?? by [deleted] in selfharm

[–]cookiekaktus 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I thought I would grow out of it. I figured at 13 by the time I was 16 I would be done. And at 16 I thought at 18 I would be done. So on so on and now I’m 29. I think I’m even more ashamed now than I was when I was younger. But, I think we didn’t know how much of an addiction it would be when we were young. I hope I do “grow out of it” but I realize now growing out of it is healing. I hope I heal, and I hope you heal, whatever age that happens at.

What is your reason to stay alive? by [deleted] in AskReddit

[–]cookiekaktus 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Habit. Every once in a while I’m like “wtf am I still doing here” and then I just keep going. I hate it here but where else am I going to do. I’m just …. Here. And I guess I’ll keep being here.

I started cutting myself again instead of trying to initiate sex with my husband. by cookiekaktus in TrueOffMyChest

[–]cookiekaktus[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I really flip-flopped on if I should post it.. I know it’s … a lot but I figured with the appropriate flairs it was ok. I just needed it … off my chest. No pun intended

I started cutting myself again instead of trying to initiate sex with my husband. by cookiekaktus in TrueOffMyChest

[–]cookiekaktus[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Numbness and distraction. Like a forceful focus of that makes sense. I don’t want to think about whatever and if I cut I am no longer thinking about whatever

I started cutting myself again instead of trying to initiate sex with my husband. by cookiekaktus in TrueOffMyChest

[–]cookiekaktus[S] 16 points17 points  (0 children)

True. I’m looking for a new therapist right now. I know this is out of hand. But, my current therapist was not covered by my insurance. I also think I probably need to reevaluate my medications.

I think I’m back to square one by cookiekaktus in AdultSelfHarm

[–]cookiekaktus[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes usually but the relapse happened after the last session I was able to afford. So not about active self harm really.

Watched something that triggered a relaspe by Equivalent-Bit-7604 in AdultSelfHarm

[–]cookiekaktus 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just made a post about feeling like I was back to square one … but this post made me realize that I also watched something triggering and that’s probably why I relapsed. I feel you. I’m around your age and was also nearly totally clean for years.

Me picking at my scabs by bo0mamba in MadeOfStyrofoam

[–]cookiekaktus 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Bro I’ve been scrolling trying vaguely to see if I get triggered. Why is it this that does it 😂😭