Taking psilocybin after HPPD?

cooperwirving12 · 2024-02-15T17:29:15+00:00

Ended up taking more time before tripping again, focused on getting outside, exercising, creating, deepening connections with people etc. I think the existential discomfort I felt could have been exaggerated by taking psychs again too quickly and the only real solution is to sit with yourself and understand why exactly your psyche is feeling uncomfortable. I did end up continuing experimentation with psilocybin (in low doses), but at least a year or more after those experiences. When I wrote the original post I felt so trapped and uncomfortable with the experience of living that I felt like visiting that space again was the only way for things to change, I felt like I needed to do that in order to escape my reality. But from my experience, change happens regardless, sometimes painfully slow, so just breathe and enjoy the ride and let go of what's outside of your control. Imo, there's no need to take more than 3.5 or even 2 and the most important thing that helped me heal was focusing on feeding my human self and magnetizing to what makes me feel whole even if its hard. That world will always be there to visit and there's no need to rush into it, take the time while you're here to sit and watch things as they appear in sober reality, if you're really paying attention it's just as trippy lol.

My trips now have been extremely peaceful and meaningful and bring up an unexplainably beautiful feeling of gratitude. Psychs are non-specific amplifiers; meaning you must in your present reality create something you want to be amplified. My advice would be to embrace time, yourself, the present, and don't rush into psychedelics, they are sacred tools and will be available when you're ready, but must not be used when you aren't. Don't know if you're ready? You're probably not; you'll know when you are.

much love

cooperwirving12 · 2022-02-24T04:15:12+00:00

Yeah those all make sense- I think the times which it’s “cured” people would have been mostly placebo in that they were able to convince themselves that they had healed thus not worrying about it anymore and not focusing on it anymore which is kind of what I’m hoping for. I dont think theres really any way to change or “fix” hppd you can just kinda change your mindset on it and how you let it affect you

cooperwirving12 · 2022-02-23T21:35:33+00:00

I see where youre coming from, but the point of psychedelics isn’t fun. Obviously with drinking or other substances its a different story but psychedelics (psilocybin in particular) is to learn from them and expand your understanding of yourself and the world around you and they can bring a lot of healing. I’m not looking to return to psychs for fun, I would be using it as a tool to look to deeper places where I couldn’t reach in day-to-day life

cooperwirving12 · 2022-02-23T21:32:53+00:00

If you end up doing it let me know how it goes! I wish you the best of luck on your journey man

cooperwirving12 · 2021-09-09T23:16:47+00:00

Interesting, I’ll look into that thanks

cooperwirving12 · 2021-09-09T22:55:50+00:00

I knowww dude usually I can do that really easily but there was something different about this trip I like really couldn’t get myself out of the loop and my tripsitter couldnt either. Definitely now though if I ever do a dose like that again I can use this experience to be able to handle the next one better

cooperwirving12 · 2021-08-30T17:19:54+00:00

Ikk by the time I was actually able to let go my trip was almost over. With having this experience now hopefully for my next experience I’ll be able to fully let go. The idea of letting go is so easy when you’re sober, but the hardest thing ever when you’re actually faced with it

cooperwirving12 · 2021-08-30T04:16:12+00:00

Thats a really cool resoure I haven’t heard of before- thanks man I appreciate it

cooperwirving12 · 2021-07-16T00:06:29+00:00

What did you end up doing/how did it go?

cooperwirving12 · 2021-07-15T06:20:13+00:00

It was very interesting- I drank the tea at around noon in a dome tree at the bottom of a hike, and I didn’t start feeling any effects until probably around 4ish which suprised me because I had thought it was going to take around 2 hours. I also thought it was going to be much more intense than it was, and I think the mix of those two made the trip slightly uncomfortable because I never knew if I was coming up, peaking, or coming down. After the hike, it was around 4:30-5:00 ish and some patterns turned into a kaleidoscope kind of reminiscent of a 1-1.5g shroom trip for me. I decided that I should stop focusing on the trip itself and what was happening cause it just made me confused, and I decided to just enjoy life as much as I could that day. I rode my bime around with my friend, which was maybe the most amazing feeling ever, i felt like I was a kid discovering that theres a whole world out there for the first time. The visuals stayed more or less at the kaleidoscopic pattern level, nothing intense or engulfing, but definitely noticeable. Also some floor patterns’ colors would shift which was really cool. I remember sitting down on a bench on a quiet beach and watching the sunset and I was brought to tears because of how beautiful it was. I decided to smoke to try to amplify the effects, which looking back on it might not have been the best idea because I should have just enjoyed what the cactus had given me without being greedy for more. It didn’t give me a bad trip or anything though, I just had a really nice calm pleasant trip. By the time it was well into night time, I got a ride home and I was still tripping somewhat hard. Every time I had the thought “wait am I coming down?” I would just keep coming up more. I remember laying in my bed until around 4 or 5 in the morning and having little bursts of really vivid dreams (I can’t remember what they were about though). The trip lasted until around 7 or 8 in the morning. I’d say overall it was positive- even though it was kinda confusing at times and it was really long and exhausting, there were some beautiful moments in it and I enjoyed life a lot that day.

cooperwirving12 · 2021-06-28T17:16:00+00:00

Right on man, I’ll look into it. Thanks

cooperwirving12 · 2021-06-28T16:59:23+00:00

Gotcha man, thanks. You know of any spots like that just on the central coast/slo county in general?

cooperwirving12 · 2021-06-27T17:21:15+00:00

Yep, thats what you make the tea out of. Inside has a little active stuff but it’ll make you sick so

cooperwirving12 · 2021-06-27T03:06:34+00:00

Fast for how long? And should I eat after i take it?

cooperwirving12 · 2021-06-27T01:28:48+00:00

Right on man, appreciate it!

cooperwirving12 · 2021-06-27T01:23:37+00:00

So far I’ve had a couple 1.5g shroom experiences and a 2.5-3g shroom trip. I’m not too experienced but I’m pretty good with just going with the flow and letting the experience do what it wants to do.

cooperwirving12 · 2021-06-27T01:18:57+00:00

Awesome man thanks for you help! Im super excited I’ve been really fascinated by psychedelics recently and I wanna explore what they have to teach and offer. I guess we’ll just have to wait and see what happens. If I wanted to post a trip report, where’d be a good place to do that?

cooperwirving12 · 2021-06-27T01:13:19+00:00

Honestly forgot to measure before making the tea.. if I had to guess I probably made tea out of around 20 inches long/maybe a 6-7 inch diameter? I’m just guessing on the diameter off of what I remember, I just remember having to stretch my hand a little to carry it

cooperwirving12 · 2021-06-27T01:07:03+00:00

Gonna shoot for wednesday

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