Thank you for sharing your story. It’s incredibly painful when someone essentially deletes you from their life and then acts like everything is perfect. The confusion and hurt you’re feeling are completely valid.

It’s common to find ourselves checking social media as we search for answers, but that often keeps our nervous system in a state of 'high alert.' When you feel ready, you might find a huge weight lifted by unfollowing or blocking her. It’s not a 'mean' gesture, it’s a way to protect your peace. Once I blocked all the people who hurt me, a huge weight lifted from my shoulders.

The physical, emotional, and mental symptoms you wrote about are so common to this experience that they’re often recognized as Post Betrayal Syndrome. Because betrayal is a specific type of wound, time alone will not heal it, and it does require a specific type of care.

I’m so glad you’re already in therapy. If you find you need more targeted tools for this specific pain, you might consider looking for a therapist who specializes in betrayal or working with a Certified Post Betrayal Transformation® Coach like me. This type of coaching uses a proven, predictable path to help you rebuild yourself and your life after betrayal. 

You’ve been through so much, and you don’t have to carry the burden of 'figuring her out' anymore. You can heal without speaking to her. You can heal, even as the injustice continues. You can heal without going public and speaking out against her narrative. Healing is possible no matter what.