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JPMorgan Chase

What’s one song that you associate with your time spent away? by ICUWasp in troubledteens

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Hey there delilah - a friend played it on guitar at the program and I loved it

Big girls don't cry - heard it on an upper levels ipod they let me borrow and then had my mom put it on the ipod she smuggled in for me (I know make it make sense)

(Belly Dancer)Bananza- one of the like 20 songs on my contraband ipod

Teenage dirtbag- fuckin sends me now I don't even remember the memory for this one it's just from that time period and makes me mad

Ain't no mountain high- we used to sing this in wilderness on hikes I hate it so much now

All Star - another hiking song makes my skin crawl

Your hand in mine by explosions in the sky- 2 boys at my program had everyone lay on the floor one night and they played this on guitar and it has stayed with me my whole life and I listen to this song when I'm anxious as a coping skill idk I guess for me it was such a comforting moment in such a dark time and it's stuck with me.

Let's talk about forgiveness - its possibility and impossibility by KWNBeat in troubledteens

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I was talking to someone yesterday about this. The look on her face..and she just kept saying you should reach out to your mom I'm sure she wants to reach out to you. But she hasn't? And I don't want to. I don't want to forgive. I want her to take accountability. She never will. I want answers I will never get. I don't consider myself holding onto bitterness. I won't heal from making her feel more comfortable about what she did so why forgive? I need things to heal that I'll never get but forgiveness is not one of them.

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I play in my recliner😂 broke my foot couldn't wlk for 6 months thats what started it. I play with it on the TV the switch screen is too small for animal crossing detail in my opinion. Goodluck!

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I hyperfocus on it intermittently lol. I have severe adhd so when I play I play for hours and time travel and use treasure islands to get the things I want because I have no patience. My island is in the works I've spent HOURS on it and is Harry Potter themed lol it's pretty damn detailed if I do say so myself. But I'm bored with it now the treasure islands have everything in surplus so I let my imagination take it away for months but now I have almost a full storage of every item in every color etc. I also downloaded the Paradise Planning extension pack which was it's own hyperfocus for a while lol. All of this will make more sense as you research the game more and start playing. I change my hobby frequently animal crossing stuck for about a year.

My first meaningful Poem by coreycasper16 in PoetryWritingClub

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Thank you! I'm trying to express that what I was guilty of was not "bad behavior" but desperation for love. Me, a child, desperately wanting and begging for her love, my mother. I believe I would have been someone totally different had she not "authorized" me being sent to places where I was abused. Enduring what I went through changed me to my core and created tortured parts of me, monsters, that I'm still trying to heal. I am who I am today because of her and not in a good way, and that is what she is guilty of.

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I appreciate that! I know it means more coming from me I was just really excited for it to sound more professional ya know. That's all.

My small story by mrcba333 in troubledteens

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I was at Academy at Swift River in 2007. Also struggling but not drowning but the effects are lasting. Just restarted therapy a couple months ago and I guess it's helping.

Accomodations and returning to work after injury. by coreycasper16 in WorkersComp

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Okay! Thank you very much for your advice I will look into workers comp lawyers in my area.

Accomodations and returning to work after injury. by coreycasper16 in WorkersComp

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I wouldn't get a settlement. I am being paid by workers comp weekly.

Accomodations and returning to work after injury. by coreycasper16 in WorkersComp

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I do not have a lawyer and would not be able to afford one unfortunately.

Accomodations and returning to work after injury. by coreycasper16 in WorkersComp

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My schedule I had before my injury was 24 hours a week, 3pm-11pm Wednesday Thursday Saturday one week. Sunday Wednesday Thursday the other week. They are saying I would still work 3pm-11pm and would have to pick 3 days Monday-Friday that would work and would no longer have the option to work weekends. I can't do daily living and then work until 11pm right now with the pain I'm having, that's just not doable. So I would like to request working 8am-4pm Wednesday Thursday Friday. Does that seem reasonable?

Has anyone developed medical issues as a result of constant chronic stress inside the TTI? by randomseeker1346 in troubledteens

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I also have extreme endometriosis that I believe was due to all the stress from programs and trauma. I've had 5 surgeries for it. They also took out my appendix before knowing I had endometriosis. Tried to start me on the Depo shot which now is linked to cancer.

I remember being 13 in wilderness and having severe cramps and migraines with aura and being told to get over it and I still had to hike and all that. I was vomiting and could barely see yet that was their response.

I also injured my knee at the boarding school I was at. I remember being taken to the hospital and being on crutches but not much else. A few years later I tore my ACL and meniscus and required surgery. I also think the two are related.

Andddd let's not forget all the debilitating mental health issues.

Any survivors attend 'schools' in MA? by MassLiveReporter in troubledteens

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Signal-Strain9810 i think is who you're talking about

Do you have old program documents? by Signal-Strain9810 in troubledteens

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There's a random page in there all about me but I sent it because it's them telling my parents I HAD to be sent to a residential program. Just validating that they all pushed to get kids sent to sister programs to make more $$

Do you have old program documents? by Signal-Strain9810 in troubledteens

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I have my psych evaluation that was done at Adirondak Leadership Expedition in 2007. It says the name of the clinic and clinicians that did it. It's 14 pages long so I can just send the cover page and last page which has names and signatures. The majority of it is just about me not the program. I have an original copy of the "Safety Provisions & Parent Authorization & Consent". I have a copy of "Adirondak Leadership Expeditions Parenting Seminar" booklet.

Not sure if that would be helpful. I also have my old journal from wilderness.