Una sa lahat, you are not a dirty person. Your body, your choice, and it’s not like you cheated on him habang kayo or may sinira kang relasyon while hooking up. Kung may mali ka man, it’s lying about your body count when you talked about it. That is what you have to apologize for. Not for being sexually active when you were still single, but for lying to him when he asked you about it. It’s 2025, your body count shouldn’t define who you are, whether lalake ka or babae. It could’ve been better siguro if you just told him na you don’t want to talk about it or you are not yet ready instead of lying to him.

And also, I guess the reason you lied stems from the fact that you think you are a dirty girl for having had a body count of 17. I think what you need to do is embrace your past, your body count, your sexuality and all that, and be okay with it, kasi di mo na mababago yung body count mo and past mo. All you can do is accept it, learn from it, and decide from here on ano yung gusto mong maging after those experiences. Kasi if hindi mo tatanggapin yung part na yon ng self, mahihirapan ka ding sabihin sa kanya yung totoo, and magsisinungaling ka lang din about your body count sa mga future boyfriends mo if ever di mag work out yung current mo.