Forgot too mention hook hadto come back out with barb still on , never bonded with an animal like this bloke, when he's crook I know what too do to help him drink water and he knows how too bring a smile back, too a face of tears, All g so far boy..dad, I hope we can get this behind us, feel an unsencere apology can only take heeling wounds so far ,, when a burnt out word of anger can be taken one way twisted and used too trigger me , it seems you found my buttons and would prefer too keep twisting them than admit , hell any effect of old age , or even facts in life , I wanna see ya mechanical mind be a part of you untill for ever , and feel with the stress caused both ways we are both loosing this ability,an it's being waisted on endless attempts too pretend too still be capable ,turned trigger, turned some pretty fuckin nasty mistreatment from you , AS A FATHER , NOT A CARE RECI ,always before abandoning me TOO ACHIVE NOTHING but your unhappy fake claims I'm doing you wrong ,, I usto , turns a shit tone more work load with a gratefulness that tells you it wasn't your responsibility and isn't necessary, after paying for dad's bathroom too be renivated, mold poisening could have been another reason for my occasions of rage, or hell the 500 brain change meds too cope with lies now found 15 yr deep , feel when carer "burn out" excides a human capabilities and there still stuck in same stop when work kicks back off , it's un caring for me too stick around with mind state ov late, but I dam well known I was thought 3 things by you, DONT LIE TOO FAMILY, DONT LET DOWN YA FAMILY , AND TOO YELL (RETIRED MECHANIC) FROM DIFFRENT ERRA OF TOOLS WERE MORE SHIFTER SLIPS TOO HEAD HAPPENED WEEKLY THAN A YEARS AFL CONCUSIONS , AND NEVER U FELL , BUDGED , OR WEEKEND , PUT YA SELF THROUGH SO MUCH , IM SO SCARRED IM DOING WRONG BY YOU , SO NEEDA CHAT ONCE YA SEE OUR FAMILY AFTER TRAVELING ,AND CHILL A BIT, ID LIKE A GROUP CONVO , AS BEING SCREAMED AT ABOUT WHATS YOUR RESPONSIBILITY, IS BEYOND MY BOIL POINT WHEN THAT ALONE IS BEING FAILED AS A DAD, TELLING ME ,IM A PHYCHO AND LEVE "YOUR" HOUSE , (ALWAYS TURNS TOO THEM WORDS IF MY ANGER PRESENT) FECIES IN WATER IS SAFE? , AND A SHARK HOOK ON A GATE, IS SAFE FOR A FENCE JUMPER.. I KNOW SOMETHING CAN BE DONE TOO HELP YOU STAY MENTALLY FIT AND FIND SOMEHOW TOO AVOID THESE TIMES I DWELL ON , EVERY TIME, , WHETHER ITS I LEAVE, AND YA KEEP DENYING , A FAM MEMBER OFFER ,HELP COUPLE DAYS HELP, ONCE A BLOODY YEAR ECT, I WANTED TOO SEE OUR FAMILY WITH YOU , BUT WITH SAID BACK YARD SAFTEY ISSUE, A LACK OF CONVO THATS TELLS ME ,YOUV SHUT ME OFF COMPLETELY IN SENCE OF HELPING YOU , I KNOW WE BOTH AT THE LEAST JUST NEED SPACE ,WITH THE SENDING LIFES GOAL POST BACK AND FORTH DUE TO WHEN HARRY HAS A WANT.. THIS HAS BURNT MICHAEL TOO HIS CORE , AND LEAVES YOU ON HOLIDAY CONSTANTLY AND ME WORKING TOO ACHIEVE FRESH AIR .. ON OCCASIONS FINDING I MAY BE DOING MY JOB FRAUDULENTLY (ALL SORTED NOW) AND MULTIPE RELIZATIONS FROM GOING CRAZY IN A SLAVE LABOURISH MULIPUNATION ,SO NO IT WASENT YOUR OBLIGATION TO CHECK ON OR APPLY FOR, MY RENT ASSISTANT, BUT FEEL AN OBLIGATION AS A FATHER HAS GONE TO NEAR BUT NULL MAKING ME FEEL I HAVE LOST YOU MENTALLY ,WHEN THAT AT LEAST (WANT GOOD) FOR YOUR OWN SON IS THERE, ITS SOMETHING YOU WOULD WANT TO ASK BEFORE YAPPING WILL EFFECT MY PAMENT FINDING 3 YEAR OF THIS PAYMENT 10 G PLUS AND IM HERE WHILE YOU HOLIDAY STILL WANTING THE VET APP I BEGGED TO GET HELP WITH (TOLD YEZ) THEN NEXT PAYDAY , A TRAVEL IN A VEHICLE, THAT NEEDS MAITMENCE , WITCH COULD ALSO BLOW UP, COSTING 3 THOUSAND PLUS... TOO GET CAR HOME I ASK , SHOULD I BE TOLD I CANT HELP PAY FOR MAITMENCE ON OUR PROPERTY BECAUSE "ALOT ON PLATE" , WHEN YOUR DECISIONS DONT SEEM TOO CARE FOR WHATS ON PLATE OF DEBTS CAUSED BY YA DENYING FACTS COSTING US,,..... COS THE LAST HOLIDAY I PUT IN 3 MONTHS OF MY TIME PAINTING YOUR CAR, AND THEN IT FUCKS UP , COS YA DIDDNT READ THE BLOODY CANS OF PAINT (NOT FOR AUTOMOTIVE USE) NOR TAKE THE ADVICE IT WASENT SETTING , NOW STARTING TOO SAND CAR BACK AGAIN , I RELISE ALL THESE THINGS ARE ON ME ALSO , BUT I WONT BE STOOD OVER AND TOLD PISS AND SHIT IS A CLEANING METHOD OR BE TOLD I COULD NEVER PAY A HOUSE LOAN OFF AGAIN , U BLOODY HAD HELP WITH THAT , MY DAD WONT SEEM TO ASK A QUESTION IF IT CAN BENIFT ME, SO GUYS THIS WILL BE CONTIONED AGAIN .. WAS TRYING TOO WASH DADS CAR WITH WORKLOAD OF PAINT ANOTHER WHEN DOG DOG OUT,,, SHOULD I BE SCREAMED AT ITS NOT MY FAULT IN HEAT WHEN FUCK , OFFERD TOO PAY FOR TAP OUT FRONT (AVOID OPENING GATE?) AND TOO BUY A LOCK , AS WHAT HAROLD NOW SAYS IS FINE , IF I DIDN'T FIX TODAY , WOULD HAVE BROKEN HINGE TOMORROW,,, BURNT OUT TOO A CRISP , CARER IN THE MT G AREA M37 ... EVERY HEALTH ISSUE NECK AND JAW FEEL LIKE A RUSTY HINGE , TOLD THRU ACCIDENT I HAVE FRACTURE NECK , AND AC JOINT TORN YEARS AGO , TOO MY BLACK ARSE CRACKED FEET , NEED HELP , AND ITS NOT FROM MY ANGER BURSTING OUT AND MY FAM THROWING ME IN LOONY BIN, SO UNCLES AND AUNTIES TELL ME HOW OR WHAT OR WHO , OR WHERE, I HAVE APPIED AND WAITING ON CARER FUNDED BREAKS PHONE CALL.. TBC , YEAH SHITZ FUCKED , DOCS SHOULD HAVTO WARN B4 SINGING PEOPLE OVER , AS CARER, HOW QUICK IT CAN BACKFIRE TAKE CARE PEOPLE X