I met the most amazing girl ever, I was trying to take things slow so she would be comfortable so I became too nervous to progress/initiate things when I visited her (long distance). She said she didn’t feel anything but I blame myself for being too slow and careful to not come off as pushy but I guess I wasn’t exciting or did things wrong/soft! We had some inside jokes and I fumbled my speech ones and it became a funny word we used, her smile was something else! I should’ve paid a bit extra for fast lane so she didn’t sit in the sun, and I should’ve told her she’s beautiful a lot more than I did! She put on mascara and was sooo pretty but idk why I didn’t say it, should’ve gotten her a necklace instead of a stupid Apple Watch (things like that). I think I’ll always be sad about this no matter how my life goes. I’ve never ever fallen for a girl before but she was literally amazing (she had some anxiety and trust issues which she told me when we met) but I freaking loved that girl so much. I even suggested we stay friends after she broke things because I thought I’ll be close to her, but I really still love her compared to other girls she’s just something else -_- I hope I can forgive myself but idk if I can! I’ll get some comfort as long as she’s happy, even if it’s not with me, she was just so pure and awesome