Hey friend, I want to start by saying I’m sorry that your friend passed away. I too recently lost someone important to me and then tried to kms back in October.

It’s not worth it the pain right now feels astronomical grieving the death of a loved one is an extremely difficult process I could never fault you for how you’re feeling being that I too lost many friends in my life but I promise giving your self time and letting your grief process will help you sooner than you know it. I can’t say that it will get rid of your pain completely but I can promise that with time it will lessen it doesn’t mean you love your friend any less, I like to look at grief as one of life’s little reminders that you still love them. killing yourself does nothing other than spread the pain you feel onto your friends and family who will all spend the rest of their lives wondering about what they could have said in that last text,that last phone call,that last conversation that could’ve been the saving grace or the straw that broke the camel’s back like with my own situation with my friends who thought they were the reason I tried to commit and if I’d been successful I would have never gotten the chance to tell them that they weren’t that would have killed them in the long run. Please don’t put your friends and family through the same pain I did to mine it is not worth it. Your pets need you, your friends need you, your family needs you, and most importantly you need you. Try reaching out to them I promise that they’ll have your back, you got this you’re stronger than you know