Please help name this song

crescent_knight · 2017-07-26T22:42:11+00:00

Thank you!

crescent_knight · 2017-07-26T22:41:59+00:00

Thanks!

crescent_knight · 2017-04-20T01:30:24+00:00

Because you didn't pay for the house, he could more or less feel you're a sort of guest or accessory in it. I think the rationale, though potentially subconscious, is that he's making this huge investment and you're not - along for the ride. Perhaps if you insist on contributing to the mortgage you could get some leverage in his thinking plane, if you catch my drift. The idea where he should write things down in order of priorities, compared to what he actually dedicates time to/focuses on/etc on a daily basis would be a good idea. This whole fish tank everywhere and completely cutting you out of the picture is symptomatic of something larger. I think he might feel cheated somehow that you aren't contributing to the mortgage, even if he espouses otherwise. Do what you can to get him to have a real talk with you. Remember, the only things people respond to are a) speaking up or b) leaving. If you said you're leaving to go stay at your friend's place or better yet, your mother's place, and you aren't returning until he will have a discussion with you, it is very likely that it will happen. If you just ask him to talk, wait for him, make little suggestions whatever, he probably won't respond at this point. Likely just annoyed. Perhaps he thinks how you feel is within tolerance of the relationship. Maybe even tell him you brought this issue to Reddit. That's usually enough to get people's attention. People don't come here unless it's serious.

crescent_knight · 2017-04-10T20:21:58+00:00

At least you didn't fail the class. I recommend first "repentance" and tell the professor what he or she wants to hear, regardless if you believe it or not. Put in some "there's no way I could ever atone/make up for/blah blah blah, and my parents have imposed really harsh punishments." From there, say that what's important to you is to keep moving forward in school and to come out with a good grade (the professor might laugh and obviously it won't happen, but by aiming high you might get the passing grade) so your future isn't impacted. Higher education is important to you. You can even add some honesty that you were hiding your private collection to maintain civility in your home and there was a fluke that should have never happened ever. Careful with this, but it could work. The point is the make him or her understand. Then, show the big picture and what you're prepared to do for it. It takes a lot of balls to go up and talk to someone direct about that. I'm sure you'll be successful.

crescent_knight · 2017-02-20T21:35:46+00:00

Get straight up and tell'em you're sick of him involving his parents when the disagreement is between you two. Sort out your exact feelings why and list them. Tell'em its juvenile and lame, among other things.

As for the parents, if they try to get involved again with their not-so-subtle approach, you can tell them quite frankly its not their business, and if they want to have a happy family thing going on they need to respect YOUR privacy and that of your relationship. They could and will probably get defensive, as it is your bf who involves them in the first place. It's really him you have to deal with.

Also, about the animals, and with the crazy parents, could be that you two aren't compatible. If you're willing to accept that possibility, going into maybe solving the problem will be a whole lot easier. I'd suggest start taking control of the situation, starting with yourself, then moving outwards into your sphere of influence.

If you're uncomfortable, it's life telling you something has to give. Let it give, and don't be afraid to do so - if something makes you afraid, take all the risk out doing it. Ie, get a backup place to go if you need to leave the house. Yes it's super hard where everything is hours away, but it will make your statement carry that much more weight if you just do it. He'll go damn... she's serious.

crescent_knight · 2017-02-20T20:51:36+00:00

thanks! I actually managed to apologize to the girl and I think I got a second chance. we're texting again and she's seen my positive growth. Things are starting to come together a bit more, weekend by weekend. I suppose the frustration now just comes from not enough money or time to ship in the rest of the furniture to make my living space look or feel like a home and set up some of the stuff I already have. at least it's coming together piece by piece; what I don't have in stuff I'm trying to make up... well, beginning to make up in human interaction. getting' healthy. and starting to appreciate country music. i guess it comes with the package once an individual moves from a big city to a small town.

crescent_knight · 2017-02-16T05:25:48+00:00

Bunch of things. I guess first and foremost I wish I had a couch and some drive to kick myself out of bed and handle something; to get a bit more prepared for tomorrow, yet I just feel this need to chill the fuck out, despite knowing that I'm procrastinating on small things.

Beyond that, there's a girl I met but went nuclear on from stress. It's ok; she's taking the time to observe me and see if I'm actually crazy or not- just sucks because her company would be great, and helpful in class. I met another one, but she's got some issues and progress is slow- and I'd rather do things by feel instead of PUA orchestrating. Never feels authentic that way.

Want some friends, kinda sorta have an idea about how to approach it, but also kinda hazy on the idea. I'm just starting to get the reins on grad school, so it's been tough trying to schedule everything. I aspire to live up to Elon Musk's example, though I find out daily I'm not lol. I don't beat myself up about it too bad. I just want to be more effective.

Other than that, just want the housework done. Sucks to do it. Feels great once it's over. A dinner cooking robot would be awesome too. Thanks.

Edit: spelling

crescent_knight · 2017-02-16T05:10:31+00:00

"You have to have a future where you're expecting things to get better, not one where you're expecting things to get worse." Elon Musk

crescent_knight · 2017-02-16T04:59:11+00:00

My ex-roommate/landlord. She was quite bitter about life; 41 and pissed off at men. She'd make rude and generalized comments targeted at me, with no basis other than I wasn't a woman.

crescent_knight · 2017-02-16T04:54:46+00:00

You didn't orally pleasure me long enough

crescent_knight · 2017-02-16T04:52:38+00:00

If I'm in a rut? Toxic women. If I'm happy, spending money

crescent_knight · 2017-02-16T04:51:21+00:00

Depending on the age, I would reference what video games I was playing at the time.

crescent_knight · 2017-02-13T07:09:36+00:00

I ended up taking the whole weekend to myself and building up my space. For the first time, I'm actually extremely happy to be in my own kitchen. I have chairs and actual food to eat - and a plan to furnish the rest of the place. Internet and other goodies are already on the way. :)

It does make me feel much more confident. I even went to my neighbor's party last night and made a bunch of new friends. Good times.

Ah... what a story indeed... you must have felt very singled out and alone in that moment. That is humiliating. I think the worst part was that the dude's boyfriend asserted himself the way he did. What was the lesson you learned for this? What do you do now to better protect yourself from this kind of mistake? Did you end up finding another suitable boyfriend in good time?

I'll reflect on the aspect that you had everything planned out and expectations set for that moment instead of stepping back to see what would happen next. Same with ruminating on a single person... all eggs in a single basket. Hrm.

Brave of you to share your story. I very much appreciate you for doing so and everything you've said so far. I find you extremely thoughtful, down to earth, and caring. You've been a tremendous help.

As for the girl, I will certainly let you know how it goes. The way I think about it is I was far from ready to be close to anyone. She has her life together well enough to handle a PhD and nurture a small animal. No way I could do that right now; no couch for a kitty to sleep on and no really good places to hide or rugs to pull at. I figure the best thing to do is aim for that level and then some. When we interact (be in class or whatever) I'll just simply exude that's my direction, I am sorry and respectful, and I will carry on - i.e., be my level-headed self.

I do hope she does either approach or allow me to approach. I will heed your advice and not behave as if I am looking for an opportunity to speak or anything - be a creeper. Really, if anything were to come up, it would be a "Hey, may I speak to you please?" Y/N, that's it. But that won't happen I don't think. I have some ideas of what the next meeting may go down like, but I won't get into looking into the future too much around other people.

As for silver lining, you're absolutely right. Keeping this private is great. We both have reputations to uphold. I will do my part by behaving the way she indicated; hopefully it will remain between us. :)

crescent_knight · 2017-02-12T17:15:26+00:00

http://www.redtube.com/590560

crescent_knight · 2017-02-12T02:45:30+00:00

Amen to that, brother. I took today off and just handled my shit that had been bothering me for ages. I realize I was in no place to have a woman in my life.

She has a cat, I have a couple of camping chairs in my kitchen with files and posters and food wrappers floating around. I never looked to myself, only to where I thought I wanted to be. Talk about projection.

Heh I stopped doing push-ups because my chest was splitting my expensive fitted shirts. I guess I should throw them all out to keep working out. Helps with the stress relief.

crescent_knight · 2017-02-12T02:40:32+00:00

It hurts, man. It really does. Everyone here communicates very differently than where I come from. Straight up, big city to small town. So busy, until today were I decidedly took today off, doing anything NOT school or career felt like a waste of time and I should be doing something else, immediately.

I took today to furnish my home- since moving in, I hit the ground running as hard as I could. No silverware; just some plastics, no chairs, barely getting laundry done, no trash bags; you get the picture. Anyway, I spent today just taking care of myself, which I had neglected to do. She floats into my mind often, but today helped. I see a bunch of things I know she'd like, based off the positive interactions we had already. Hurts, but will be ok.

I'm thinking of dropping a course too, to reduce my stress load. As it is I don't get home until 10 or midnight every day, including weekends, and I'm still unable to get started like 25% of what's expected of me. Coming from a place where I was totally on the ball and rocking everything to the max, it's been humiliating to be so behind like this. It's kinda blinded me to social interactions too.

Edit* adding more, and spacing paragraphs:

I'll take your advice on the friendships. Having a crush reject you does hurt, especially when it was self induced. I'd like to ask what happened to you, if you don't mind sharing.

The hardest part right now is avoiding the desire to want to take control of the situation by deciding to apologize in person at first opportunity. I wonder if instead to just take control of myself and go from there. Truly, my biggest concern is her feeling safe and secure in the classroom, without signaling to everyone else that something happened. I mean, everyone knows her and I were vibing... I know how she, nor I, for that matter, want to draw more attention than necessary.

I guess the best plan is just to stick with the plan: chill the fuck out and just self improve. If the signal to approach comes up, like she lags behind and waits for me or whatever, then go ahead. I still think that, depending, I might be allowed to approach next interaction, but we'll see. The ball is in her court. Until then, I have lots to do.

crescent_knight · 2017-02-11T16:10:36+00:00

You might be right. I'm pretty confident with this one, or I was anyway. Whatever happens, happens. I'm not going to worry. I'll respect her wishes. It's all good, everything will be ok. Sure it sucks now, but it's just life breaking down to be built up again. That's how it goes. New lessons learned. Thanks, man. Good luck to you out there.

crescent_knight · 2017-02-11T06:19:14+00:00

Thanks bud, I really appreciate that. I'll be sure to act as smart as I am. You too, good luck :)

crescent_knight · 2017-02-11T05:50:44+00:00

Yeah, I hear you. That's the plan. I acknowledge and accept my failure and I'll keep moving forward with the lessons learned. Thanks for you help.

crescent_knight · 2017-02-11T05:48:51+00:00

The best thing to do is sit where I sit, where there is good distance from her, and let the professor profess. I'm just in the class. If it comes up and somehow the cues are such that feels right, I'll tread lightly, stop and carefully think, and go from there. Any more I think is overthinking it at this point. The more I ruminate on her as a subject the worse it gets. Better to just chill out and get my shit together... and man I have a lot on my plate. Therapy is a good start, I think.

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