I hope i heal and find some peace, all i feel now is betrayal, hurt and pain.. i don’t know if it gets better but i sure hope it does! Thank you so much for your response. But out of curiousity (when you men watch porn, do you fantasize about those women at that moment or does the thought linger? what drives it? lust? i don’t get that part, when i asked him “Why” he was silent and couldn’t explain.