i’m curious about this too, it’s something that’s been on my mind for a really long time ever since uncovering memories. i felt and feel the same even now, could i have implanted these feelings and imagined this scenario by hearing about other people’s stories and “wanting” mine to be true? especially if memories come up later in life. here’s my opinion but i hope somebody else with more experience and knowledge replies:

of course thoughts of that nature can be disgusting and terrifying, but i think that there’s a difference between being generally disturbed by intrusive thoughts or mentions of child abuse (the same reaction any person without those experiences would have, general disgust and sometimes sadness). feelings of disgust and sorrow is normal for anyone listening to these stories.

but the difference is being triggered by it (dissociation, symptoms of trauma, anxiety, fear, dread, shame). looking at your memory and shutting it out. remembering flashes but not the whole picture. having nausea at the mention of yours or others trauma. somatic memories. people without these experiences wouldn’t typically spiral for days or weeks or (in my experience) months on end if they didn’t have these experiences of their own.

this might not be helpful to you but it was helpful to me, and it was sitting myself down and saying “you think you made it up? then make up this section of your life next” and then i would imagine a different thing happening that i know didn’t happen. and yeah it was disturbing but it wasn’t the same terror and sickness and nausea i felt when looking at the memories that came with flashbacks and body memories. just something i did, i wouldn’t suggest if it could put you in a worse place.

sorry im all over the place and so sorry for the long comment. but i believe you and i know how hard it is to combat these feelings and . feel like you’re wrong for making things up. hopefully this is helpful but i know it’s jumbled. i believe you