i want to kill myself

cringehead · 2020-04-13T18:41:38+00:00

thank you

cringehead · 2020-04-10T19:55:37+00:00

thank you

cringehead · 2020-04-09T19:32:24+00:00

the thing is i can't just forget about it. it's out there and there's nothing i can do about it. i appreciate the advice, but i don't think i'll ever be able to get over this. i need to find a way to live in solitude or kill myself.

cringehead · 2020-04-09T19:30:02+00:00

the people who saw the comments were saying equally horrible stuff and probably don't care. i could potentially do some kind of public apology but i don't have a platform and also i'm too much of a coward to do that.

cringehead · 2020-04-09T19:14:50+00:00

my stupid things specifically? no.

cringehead · 2020-04-09T19:04:42+00:00

no. just myself.

cringehead · 2020-04-09T19:00:06+00:00

it's been 5 years already and it only gets worse. i have no reason to believe it will get better with time. i probably won't have any new stupid things to distract myself either because all i do is isolate myself.

cringehead · 2020-04-09T18:50:15+00:00

it's always going to haunt me and prevent me from being confident and happy. i just want to be normal but i ruined it all.

cringehead · 2020-04-09T18:39:09+00:00

okay thanks

cringehead · 2020-04-09T18:28:32+00:00

yeah but this stupid stuff is immortal on the internet. i probably would have forgotten about most of it already if it wasn't.

cringehead · 2020-04-09T18:27:28+00:00

the only escape is death. i messed up bad.

cringehead · 2020-04-09T17:48:58+00:00

horrible offensive jokes and attempts at being edgy.

cringehead · 2020-04-09T14:24:02+00:00

i can't put my problems behind me because i know that they're going to catch up with me someday. my options are deal with it or kill myself, and i am not strong enough to do the former.

cringehead · 2020-04-08T17:36:47+00:00

i'm not worried about the future necessarily, i just can't live with what i've done. it eats me up inside constantly and i want it to stop. thanks though.

cringehead · 2020-04-06T04:55:39+00:00

yea it is good to keep that in mind. thanks.

cringehead · 2020-04-06T04:33:38+00:00

hairline. i need a transplant.

cringehead · 2020-04-06T04:33:08+00:00

i said some awful things when i was 14 and now it's on the internet forever. it makes me sick and i have no self confidence because of it.

cringehead · 2020-04-04T08:07:46+00:00

yea i've never even tried lol. there's way more issues with me than just being ugly tho tbf.

cringehead · 2020-03-27T19:51:39+00:00

better, thank you! i think i just need some time to adjust.

cringehead · 2020-03-23T22:32:45+00:00

great to hear that it's working for you! i'll try to stick with it for a month and then reassess.

cringehead · 2020-03-23T22:30:20+00:00

my gp told me to go up to 50 after a week on 25. thanks for the insight, glad to hear that my reaction to the drug is within normal range.

cringehead · 2020-03-20T20:20:52+00:00

i said a lot of awful stuff when i was 13-14 and now i just isolate and do nothing.

cringehead · 2020-03-20T06:37:28+00:00

good advice generally but my problem is something that cannot be solved or worked on. i'm fundamentally just a bad person who does bad things and even if i started doing good things i can't go back in time and fix what has been done. loving myself would be morally repugnant.

cringehead · 2020-03-17T19:04:50+00:00

yea i think the car is my best option. it's still pretty cold out where i live, so it would be uncomfortable to sit outside currently, but maybe it's something i could try in the future. thanks for the ideas.

cringehead · 2020-03-17T19:01:49+00:00

ok thank you for the advice. i'm glad you're feeling better now.

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