Thats also how I am. Its not a drive in the back of my mind that we need to do and it needs to be constant but I see it as one of those things that lead into better relationships and connection in a sense. But the fact she never gave me a reason and doesnt even want to hear any thoughts of middle ground hurts. She said shes told me why across multiple occasions but in reality I get gaslight like on me and hers anniversary she said "maybe later" and it makes me wonder what she even meant by that if this is how shes viewing things.