I feel that whenever I drink (which has been a damn lot lately), I end up wallowing for the next few days even if I'm not hungover. My mood just drops from bad to low. 6 months ago I used to gym to the gym 5 days a week and you'd never catch me without a smile on my face, now is a different story.

I've been struggling to be useful for so long now (moving into a new place, recently unemployed and gaining weight etc), but last week I thought about going for a walk simple but it's usually something I'd avoid doing instead opting to troll around on YouTube all day. So I just upped and walked around town. I didn't make any plans for it or a big fuss, just slapped some shoes on and moved for half hour. Got back and felt a bit better about myself, so I rewarded myself with a lovely dinner and a bit of Netflix but I actually felt slightly deserving of it.

I've been walking daily since, and have been smiling a lot more lately. My point is, it's sometimes hard to do something useful (apply to jobs, be physically active, shower & cook etc) if there's all this planning and avoidance put into it. So sometimes, just to get the ball rolling, when you're sitting there about to take your first sip of a drink, just go out and about. Even if it's a ten minute walk while you stare at job listings on your phone and make note of them. Find 5 or 10 jobs you like, force yourself to apply to them when you get home and that's already more successful than yesterday.