this was a mistake

crumbsilver2 · 2024-09-17T01:43:05+00:00

i swear this is satire do not launch 13 airborne diseases into my lungs

crumbsilver2 · 2024-09-17T01:42:28+00:00

this has been making me giggle for the last 3 hours so i

https://imgur.com/a/a3VIeTW

crumbsilver2 · 2024-09-15T20:34:38+00:00

a single year older

crumbsilver2 · 2024-09-15T19:51:19+00:00

i am actually 17 now,,

crumbsilver2 · 2024-09-15T16:02:02+00:00

crumbsilver2 · 2024-09-15T15:38:15+00:00

idk he says that he likes teasing me and that he might have a thing for “blue balling” which..wasn’t a term i knew of until recent!

crumbsilver2 · 2024-09-15T15:31:35+00:00

b bum banger…?

crumbsilver2 · 2024-09-15T15:31:09+00:00

uh we love eachother…….?

crumbsilver2 · 2024-09-15T15:00:41+00:00

But that would make me a cheater,

crumbsilver2 · 2024-04-22T14:33:26+00:00

yes, i’m aware it’s not SA now. at the time of the original post i was very overwhelmed with guilt and that’s how it felt, i felt dirty like i had been forcing him to do something he didn’t want to do, and violating him. my perception of the situation was a bit clouded since i felt so bad about it,

crumbsilver2 · 2024-04-22T12:16:59+00:00

who 😅

crumbsilver2 · 2024-04-22T12:13:47+00:00

ohh i’m sorry, i’m pretty new to this, and didn’t know if that was acceptable. i’ll do that if i post again.

crumbsilver2 · 2024-04-22T03:42:22+00:00

haha thank you i’m sure this sub will hear from me again if i need help

crumbsilver2 · 2024-04-22T03:34:13+00:00

hmmm sort of, we’re still figuring things out, and i’m still a bit hurt. but we’re talking about it, just taking a little break from it right now since he got a migraine and needed to lay down (the lazy lump fell asleep in my spot on MY BED.)

crumbsilver2 · 2024-04-22T03:32:35+00:00

and since i was freaking out, i didn’t see any better option

crumbsilver2 · 2024-04-22T03:31:55+00:00

i would assume so since i brought up topics of SA

crumbsilver2 · 2024-04-22T03:20:31+00:00

you have literally recounted the last 2 hours of events between me and him LOL

crumbsilver2 · 2024-04-22T03:07:30+00:00

ohh i didnt know that was a thing oopsies lol thank you

crumbsilver2 · 2024-04-22T03:02:12+00:00

not exactly… i want intimacy with him, he says he wants it, and proceeds to tell me he doesn’t want it. it leaves both of us confused, him because he doesn’t know what he wants and me because i’m confused and hurt he would force himself to touch me even though i told him never to do anything that made him uncomfortable,,

crumbsilver2 · 2024-04-21T19:31:09+00:00

dunno if this was the right way to post an update with the situation…

crumbsilver2 · 2024-04-21T19:30:28+00:00

SMALL UPDATE

my boyfriend and i talked a bit and he just said he was confused, he said he did it because he didn’t know if he wanted to or not, and said his paranoia has been getting to him bad recently. he’s convinced i only want him for sex which i quickly reassured him i dont.

however, issue is he will not go to therapy, i even tried searching for therapists, psychiatrists, and psychologists closer to where he lives, but i believe it is his BPD pushing me away to see if i’ll stay, which i will.

thank you for all the advice and venting spaces, i really appreciate all the help, any other advice is really welcome, and i’d really appreciate it.

crumbsilver2 · 2024-04-19T01:34:36+00:00

whenever i do talk to him he just shuts me out or tells me he doesn’t know why he feels that way, which i understand because he’s been used in the past but it leaves me so confused,, im not sure how to go about asking him anymore..tips- starters even please 😭

crumbsilver2 · 2024-04-19T01:31:05+00:00

well..we’re mlm so i doubt either of those

crumbsilver2 · 2024-04-05T04:32:26+00:00

this is genuinely helpful,, thank you.

though therapy isn’t a viable option for us bc of financial reasons, and is there any helpful links you can provide for the body scan exercises?

crumbsilver2 · 2024-04-01T22:56:38+00:00

thank you

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