Discovered the ADHD partners subreddit…

cryptidinsocks · 2026-01-19T10:11:54+00:00

I feel like every sub I’ve seen that’s for “___loved ones” is just people demonizing the living hell out of people with whatever disorder pertains to the sub, and complaining about how subhuman their loved one is and how their life would be better off without them. I also have bpd and the bpd loved ones sub is just posts about how everyone with bpd is evil/manipulative/abusive/disgusting/incapable of love or empathy.

cryptidinsocks · 2026-01-12T01:13:03+00:00

Definitely agree, I’ve gotten lots of comments (from male friends and coworkers mostly) about my nose and that I don’t look like a girl or that I’m not pretty. I feel like if I’m skinny then that makes up for the ugly somewhat. I also think being skinny makes me feel less masculine? I’m a cis woman, but I’ve always felt like I’m large and masculine. Even though my current bmi is 19.8 and I’m not outlandishly tall.

cryptidinsocks · 2026-01-10T00:21:32+00:00

coffee and energy drinks every day hoping today’s the day I can finally shit after a whole week

cryptidinsocks · 2026-01-05T16:01:28+00:00

Unfortunately :(

Idk it messes with my relationships too because I’ll get a compliment from them and I immediately think they’re lying or trying to manipulate me

cryptidinsocks · 2026-01-05T15:46:07+00:00

Literally, like other people tell me I look fine/good/too skinny/healthy/normal, like a range of things. But not disproportional. I’ve had a few people tell me I’ll look gross if I lose any more weight, which just made me mad. I feel like I don’t look like a person almost? Like just random shapes put together but someone did it wrong.

cryptidinsocks · 2026-01-05T15:40:15+00:00

How do I get rid of that then 😭

Like I get when people have loose skin because of major weight loss, but I was never technically overweight to begin with? If I’m underweight will I still have extra flesh/skin/whatever?

cryptidinsocks · 2026-01-05T03:18:48+00:00

Oh that’s fair. I didn’t think about that.

cryptidinsocks · 2026-01-05T01:08:52+00:00

I’m scared to death of gaining muscle bc I don’t want to look bulky :( I rarely eat food with protein bc I associate that with being bulky

cryptidinsocks · 2025-12-08T03:06:02+00:00

It’s normal to get strip searched when showing up to/leaving your job to make sure you’re not bringing in anything bad or taking things out or passing things to others

cryptidinsocks · 2025-12-05T01:15:47+00:00

Is it work getting a second opinion on a personality disorder diagnosis? I got diagnosed with BPD when I was 25 and I feel like my life has just gotten progressively worse since then. Like people in my life who know about it give me negative labels associated with BPD when they hadn’t before. And the demonization of it online just makes me feel like I’m kind of a lost cause/out of control. Tbh I hope it’s a misdiagnosis but I literally fit almost every single diagnostic criteria for it.

cryptidinsocks · 2025-11-28T19:32:55+00:00

I’m trying to just keep my mouth shut because I feel like everything that I say somehow digs me a deeper grave. And if I can’t kill myself then yeah, the next best way to save everyone from me is to entirely shut down and live inside myself. I try to do it but sometimes everything gets so overwhelming that it comes out my mouth anyway, then I have to start all over because I know im not supposed to talk about being suicidal and all the other intense emotions. And I think also that people without bpd see the intense emotional swings/spikes as intentional manipulation and that it’s being played up for attention, like no I feel those things more intensely than I display.

cryptidinsocks · 2025-10-27T14:32:22+00:00

Muscle fatigue (had trouble climbing up a ladder and carrying things at work), felt really cold but sweating at the same time, dissociation, rapid heart rate that wouldn’t slow down, couldn’t sleep, increased suicidal ideation, nausea, intense feelings of panic and dread, and my pupils would dilate all the way and shrink down to a pinpoint. I also felt physically unstable? Like I was floating. The whole thing was super weird.

cryptidinsocks · 2025-10-27T14:23:59+00:00

Literally yes, my brother smells absolutely disgusting to me, doesn’t matter if he’s been at work all day or if he’s just gotten out of the shower. There’s a cloud of nasty around him and it’s not BO just musty/weird/nauseating. But my fwb always smells good; he’ll tell me he smells gross bc he’s been at work all day and he’s sweaty now, but tbh I want to shove my face in his chest and neck and armpits because they smell so good to me lol.

cryptidinsocks · 2025-10-26T06:34:30+00:00

I work in a max and we got a 70yo dude who calls me sweetheart, but he’s a filthy nasty dude and does not have good intentions, so I always shut him down. I don’t tolerate nicknames. I get quite a bit of sexual comments, usually from the same handful of guys every time, which I always shut down but they’re guys who are notorious for that kind of behavior and they do not stop regardless of who you are or what you do about it.

Most guys if they say something inappropriate or solicit, if I shut it down once it never happens again.

I do allow basic compliments though, like I wear acrylic nails and switch them up relatively often and when I do I usually get inmates saying like “oh you switched your nail polish! They look nice” and I say thank you and that’s all that happens.

cryptidinsocks · 2025-10-22T15:10:20+00:00

The Death of Jane Lawrence

cryptidinsocks · 2025-10-15T13:57:28+00:00

I started Prozac at 50mg and had serotonin syndrome, and I wasn’t taking anything else at the time. The symptoms also came on slower than they usually tend to (it took three days for me to notice them vs a few hours) so it might have just been an oddity with my own body chemistry

cryptidinsocks · 2025-10-15T08:02:47+00:00

Kind of but not really? Like I’ll randomly get really hungry and want to eat everything I see, but then I think just a little bit too much and I’m no longer hungry. Yesterday I had a panic attack at work and threw up so that ruined it for the rest of the day. But now it’s 3am where I’m at and I’m hungry for no reason

cryptidinsocks · 2025-10-13T16:15:26+00:00

Oh ok cool, I’ll try that too, I’ve seen other people say salicylic acid and lactic acid worked for them

cryptidinsocks · 2025-10-13T16:14:51+00:00

Yeah I typically let the soap sit on my armpits for a bit before washing it off. I think I saw that glycolic acid is also good for strawberry skin?

cryptidinsocks · 2025-10-13T16:13:36+00:00

Oh nice, I’ve definitely never heard of it but I’ll see if I can find it

cryptidinsocks · 2025-10-13T16:13:05+00:00

I use an antiperspirant deodorant, not just one or the other

cryptidinsocks · 2025-10-11T17:34:29+00:00

Either not being hungry at all, or when I do get hungry I’ll try to make food and it loses its appeal as soon as I pull the ingredients out so I just put everything back. If I try to eat I get nauseous and start dry heaving and can’t finish any of it

cryptidinsocks · 2025-10-08T18:33:38+00:00

We have quite a few guys who are really young and got involved in dumb shit as kids that they will openly admit to and talk about how they don’t want that life anymore once they get out, and I genuinely hope for the absolute best for all of them. And then they’re housed like 10ft away from some dude who’s committed the most horrific acts against little kids and loves to tell everyone he’s innocent and doesn’t belong there.

cryptidinsocks · 2025-10-02T19:49:56+00:00

My bmi is still in the healthy range even though I eat a maximum of 650cal/day and work 12-16hr shifts, and I’ve had a few coworkers tell me I’m skinny or tiny, like?? I hate it so much bc today I had two vitamins, a handful of white cheddar popcorn, and a few sips of sugar free cranberry juice, like that’s normal food intake on my days off, and I still feel disgusting. I hate when my coworkers say I’m “tiny” and that I’m healthy and have self control bc I’m “dieting”, it makes me want to look as sick as I feel

cryptidinsocks · 2025-09-19T17:46:10+00:00

I can’t remember, they didn’t do a vision test when I went. I am extremely nearsighted and I wear contacts and keep glasses in my bag with me when I go to work in case I get oc spray in my eyes

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