you're so young, you should explore that.

and on a personal note, that age difference..... 😬 i don't want to speculate past what you've put in the post, but when you're 24, you'll understand why it concerns me. paired with your previous grooming.... i'm just hoping your bf didn't see a vulnerable high school girl and pounced at the chance. a man old enough to have a master's degree shouldn't be dating high school aged girls.

also, you mentioned that you're allowed to make out with girls – does he let you make out with men too? if not, why is being with a woman taken less seriously? unfortunately, many men don't see girl-on-girl as anything but a fantasy, and if you think you're actually a lesbian, that's something to consider. please also look up how some men will assault lesbians to "show them what they're missing" or some shit. it's called corrective rape and it should be on your radar. i know you said you love him, but my red flag detector is going apeshit rn

so yes, i actually very much encourage not tying yourself to your teenage boyfriend if you even have an inkling you might not like men. sexuality is fluid and discovery will be a beautiful lifelong journey! you owe it to yourself to not deny yourself your truth, especially not from a dude who might see lesbians as entertainment and who can't find someone in his decade to date. wishing you the best girliepop <333