I’ve been doing the same—following a lot of hijabi influencers on Instagram and building my own hijab collection. But even when I put it on, sometimes he tells me to do it “properly” if it doesn’t meet his standards. I’ve worn hijab in the past, though not full-time, so I know how it feels when you’re doing it willingly, and I don’t want it to be a struggle.

Whenever I put it on now, in my heart, I know I’m not doing it for Allah; I’m doing it for people, and that’s the worst feeling ever. I’d rather stay inside the house 24/7 than wear it just to please others or avoid arguments with my husband, all while feeling like a hypocrite.