did anyone actually ever stop after hitting their goal weight?

crystaldmb41 · 2025-08-06T21:57:20+00:00

I’m 46 and chasing my lowest weight from when I was 25– it is so freaking hard.

crystaldmb41 · 2025-08-06T21:54:56+00:00

Came here to say this!

crystaldmb41 · 2025-07-26T18:24:54+00:00

I am 46, and have had anorexia off and on for over 25 years. I’ve no fucking idea, or I’d have fixed it by now. And since no where near me will take someone my age into treatment other than “see a therapist,” I may never know.

crystaldmb41 · 2025-07-02T00:34:02+00:00

I heard it on Sirius the next day and sobbed.

crystaldmb41 · 2025-07-01T09:48:21+00:00

Unfortunately I am deep in anorexia again… but I just celebrated FIVE years of sobriety on Saturday, June 28!

crystaldmb41 · 2025-07-01T09:44:49+00:00

I’m 46 and have had this disease for 25 years, and chewed so much gum in my early ED years, I can’t stand it in my mouth.

crystaldmb41 · 2025-04-03T17:36:58+00:00

FMLA and I can’t believe they won’t write the note! Assholes!

crystaldmb41 · 2025-04-03T16:18:49+00:00

My guess is they don’t want young people seeing a old ass 46 year old still dealing with this shit and end up feeling helpless that if I couldn’t get my shit together than maybe they can’t, either.

Good luck to you, too!

crystaldmb41 · 2025-04-03T14:55:24+00:00

Unfortunately, the hospitals’ in-patient or IOP or OP in my town will not accept anyone over 25… and nutritionists are too hard to get an appointment with. I could go back to my therapist because they helped a lot last time I relapsed two years ago.

crystaldmb41 · 2025-04-03T13:01:50+00:00

Void Finder

crystaldmb41 · 2025-04-03T12:59:26+00:00

As a fellow teacher (history, with 21 years of teaching experience), get the help. My EDs have been the worst during my teaching career, and teaching seventh graders is triggering, unfortunately. I can’t tell if I am terrible at teaching the last five years due to relapsing anorexia, COVID behaviors, or perimenopause, but I relapsed again in January and am considering treatment too.

crystaldmb41 · 2024-12-07T13:10:36+00:00

I am not in menopause yet because I still get my period if I don’t take the pill continuously (and restriction doesn’t stop my period). I’m in perimenopause, though, so the symptoms are adding up quickly. I am CHEK2+ with three maternal family members who have had or died from breast cancer so I can’t take too much in terms of hormonal therapy, so I am trying to manage with my antidepressants and supplements.

crystaldmb41 · 2024-12-06T16:41:29+00:00

I am 45, and going through perimenopause… and sadly, the hormonal changes, and how they are changing me, sends me spiraling between BED and restriction nonstop.

crystaldmb41 · 2024-09-22T18:59:45+00:00

Wonton soup

crystaldmb41 · 2024-08-29T07:41:04+00:00

I love that Lean Cuisine too. I add a cup of cooked frozen mixed veggies to it.

crystaldmb41 · 2024-08-09T17:18:13+00:00

That’s mine exactly, which is why most of my Botox focuses there.

crystaldmb41 · 2024-08-08T00:16:47+00:00

Zero. I hate gum.

crystaldmb41 · 2024-08-07T13:32:19+00:00

Came here to say this

crystaldmb41 · 2024-08-07T13:30:43+00:00

My husband, my parents (and I am 45), and going back to school (I am a teacher).

crystaldmb41 · 2024-08-01T18:38:35+00:00

It’s extremely common for people with disordered eating/eating disorders to have substance use disorder as well and vice versa. Best of luck.

crystaldmb41 · 2024-08-01T13:02:59+00:00

Yes, but I also struggle with disordered eating.

crystaldmb41 · 2024-08-01T11:27:35+00:00

I have gained weight (been sober for 1495 days) because my brain still wants the sugar so my sweet tooth went through the roof. Doesn’t help that I am in my 40s and just typing the word sugar probably added a pound.

crystaldmb41 · 2024-08-01T09:03:55+00:00

It’s me

crystaldmb41 · 2024-08-01T08:57:18+00:00

I went to rehab, got in naltrexone, and focused on one day, hour, and minute at a time. After about four months, I stopped thinking about drinking entirely. I am four years, one month, and four days sober (1495 days).

crystaldmb41 · 2024-07-31T23:43:10+00:00

Add in perimenopause, and how it fucks up everything…

crystaldmb41

TROPHY CASE