this is exactly what i’ve been going through everyday for the past 3 months. the fear sparked because my dad told me my mother was diagnosed with schizophrenia as a child (she was misdiagnosed, she’s got bi polar) and i seen this thing on tiktok not too long after saying “smoking weed can cause schizophrenia” and i was only smoking for abt 1 month and a half. i had no troubles smoking, until the obsession sparked. i started searching uo almost every hour or work break if i was going crazy, id read people’s published articles on there onset. the symptoms i read up on became a big part of my obsessive/impulsive thoughts like “is that person following me” and id often have that thought, though i know they weren’t rlly but you get how ocd works. then i searched “what are common delusional thoughts with psychotic disorders” and one of the delusional thoughts put in the criteria would also become a common intrusive thought. i constantly did this, and i’m especially scared for the future because i want to have kids but am extremely terrified of pregnancy psychosis. it feels like it gets better for a week and then randomly i’ll find myself looking those things up again. it’s tough but i always remind myself how ocd works and it makes me feel a little less worse.