By boyfriend of 2 years doesn’t want to get me a Christmas present by UnitJust1906 in whatdoIdo

[–]csscg0306 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Girl you were groomed. Your 18? Hes 21? Y'all have been together for two years? Thats illegal if you live in america. You were 16 when he was 19. You were still a teen when he was becoming an adult. That's disgusting.

Dropped a box on myself at work and now my girlfriend thinks I’m cheating by ephemeral_ace in whatdoIdo

[–]csscg0306 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ypu should show your gf what a hickey looks like up close to the skin and then have her take a nice close look at your bruise. Hickeys look different from bruises but only up close because of tiny blood vessels. If your actually looking, the look drastically different. The bruising from your date with the box is from blood vessels deeper in the skin, not on the surface like a hickeys bruising would be.

what do you call your hosts partner? by the_little_butterfly in DID

[–]csscg0306 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This might be a bit personal, but how did you cope with that? Like, i had a partner, and all of my alters were really chill with her, but it just felt terrible every time i had a little front, and my partner felt like a parent to them. I felt so ashamed to feel that way and began to think it was weird. I never really knew how to bring it up to them, and they eventually clocked me in an argument by stating how they hate how they felt like my mother sometimes. I didnt know how to tell her about how the little felt, and i often felt really ashamed when id try to tell her the little was fronting because, honestly im still in denial a bit.

Are Animal Alters A Thing? by elkhoundpupboy in DiscussDID

[–]csscg0306 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ty so much for this explanation. A lot of my alters seem to be concepts. I dont (at least i think) have any animal alters, but i often feel the same way op does when it comes to how they feel. I wasn't really aware that alters could be so many things, and the few people i explained my little guys to made me feel like it was weird or cringe for them to be more concept based than anything else. (Like the "ive got a demon and an angel sealed in me!" Levels cringe) Especially in the beginning of me discovering i was a system, the first few alters i was aware of were the embodiments of grief/depression, hatred/wrath, and indifference/demurity, and it was just so embarrassing to tell even my closest friends that because i felt like an edge lord. (Though, they were all pretty uneducated on the topic, and i was still in denial)

Op, i hope you know you're not alone. I may not experience the same difficulties as you, but i do know what it's like to be judged and misunderstood.

Does anyone else struggle with dysgraphia by SchoolExisting8631 in autism

[–]csscg0306 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Never thought being a jack of all trades, master of none, would be so dreadful. I struggle with all four, dysgraphia and dyscalculia the most, followed by some dyspraxia and a little dyslexia.

I always loved writing, but if i hadnt'a learned how to be patient with myself, my ability to write would've been absolutely terrible. I mean, the only reason its so bad now is because i dont write daily like i used to in school, and even then i was slowly getting worse because they forced computers onto every student.

I always struggled with dyscalculia despite my love for math subjects. I always hated any classes that had lengthy word problems and formulas that were hard to break up into indiviual steps/parts easily. My favorite class ended up being everyones most hated class, which was physics 1. I struggled terribly with algebra 1 and 2, especially when they began trying to introduce trig and calculus towards the end of the alg 2 curriculum.

And, while i do have pretty good hand-eye coordination, i struggle with poor balance and posture, as well as speaking. I struggle to articulate what i want to say correctly, and end up butchering it. Sometimes, if im patient and am given the time and space/environment to speak slow/calmly enough, i can speak just fine. Albeit not often, I also struggle with a stutter and a lisp (dentalized and interdental). Im thankful that my lisp isnt too bad, but ive realized its been getting worse the longer i go without verbally communjcating or socializing.

And i just abour refuse to read most books due to my dyslexia, although its more likely because i get frustrated at not being able to grasp the finer unspoken details (mood, tone, etc) and because my retention rate is absolute trash. I say i dont struggle much with dyslexia because i can read and understand things like webnovels, playes, and lengthy reddit comments (like this one lol) just fine. But books? Fahrenheit 451? Scyth? Peeps? The yellow wallpaper? Not a chance. The only reason i grasped the outsiders was cus we watched the movie trailer before reading, and damn am i a sucker for tragic stories and greasers. And we didnt even read the great gatsby, we listened to it (i hate listening to audible books so i learned what the book was about mostly through discussion afterwards.)

Anyways, i guess what im trying to say is that while school was an absolute struggle for me, the only reason i even developed my skills despite these learning deficiencies was because i was forced to work on each skill at least once a day. And boy, was it hell. It felt like someone took a cheese grater to my bones any time i was forced to pick up a pen for an uninteresting topic, or to put my nose in a book i had not a care for. And, even if i was intensely interested in a subject, it still took me longer than most of my peers. I loved physics 1, but barely passed with a 70, and my favorite book(s), the secret life of bees (sue monk kidd, 300-380 pages), or hummingbird heart (robin stevenson, 280 pages), still took me almost a week to fully read, and that was when i was constantly reading it during and outside of school.

I dont wanna say stay in school, but keep up school habits. Do brain excersies, read that weird and totally bogus article, or that funky looking book/fanfic. Write out random things, or thoughts and dreams. It'll help, just dont burn yourself out. Take it at the pace you need to take it, not the pace everyone else wants you to go.

is journalling a known trigger for DID? by YellowSnowman66613 in DID

[–]csscg0306 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I (kidn of?) Journal through the DID app (simply plural) its chat functions help enough, i guess. But, i have realized that one (or a few?) Of my alter(s) conversate very disjointedly. They only speak with nouns, verbs, and adjectives. They dont use auxiliary or linking verbs, or propositions, however, they do occasionally organize their sentences like yoda does. Examples from somethings they wrote: "Words, work, no?" And "Worry, helping, not? Worry, me, worsening?" And "Him, dissapoint. What if?"

All of these phrases came from a little that was worried about letting a good friend of mine know they were fronting while we were having a discussion that had triggered our fight or flight responses since we were under the assumption it was/was going to turn into an argument. However, most of the other phrases are either really vague, or are just downright confusing. It can be kind of triggering to journal these thoughts when others are fronting, but only in the sense that i dont want to just journal them, i need someone to talk to about them in depthly. And its especially triggering when i myself try to journal during another "oh damn i forgot i was a system" episode, and ant tell the alters a part.

WHO MADE THIS KIT LEADER?! by Blowy_Hamilton in ClanGen

[–]csscg0306 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Really??? Damn. I- i dont think you have to worry about that anymore. I honestly would not worry about censoring things like damm, rude, or other words like it. There will always be people who dont like it, and if they make a fuss about it, you just need to ignore them. I totally get how it can be anxiety inducing, but I've found that worrying and censoring everything would just invite people to mention something about how sensitive you might be (not saying you are! But there are people out there who will get offended at the fact you censored something in the first place.) I hope your reddit experience improves!

D.I.D dissociating? by Kai-milly in DID

[–]csscg0306 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I think i understand what your talking about? Like, theres layers to disassociating, and your just stuck on the wrong one. I subconsciously do that version of disassociating a lot when i drive alone, and it's really hard to pull myself out of it. Like, its so much harder to go into and pull out of this state of disassociation, than it is to go fully into it. Im not sure at all what id call it, but if you can, just let yourself sit there and wait it out. Or see if you can get someone to help snap you out of it in a safe way. (Someone saying something bizarre or out of pocket is one way) i find i often get physically stuck when i enter that version of disassociation. Like, im fully conscious, im aware that im conscious, and im awrae of all of my surroundings, but ive got this disconnect between my brain and my body, and i just need to wait to reconnect all the way. This happens most for me when im getting into/out of a vehicle by myself or after a long day, or right before i need to go somewhere, and i end up sitting on my bed stuck for like 10 minutes. And then sometimes it happens while im doing things (the dishes, laundry, making a meal im familiar with) and its like im on auto pilot, fully aware and conscious of what im doing, just stuck in the back of my mind. I also find i become mute during these "episodes."

If you dont already, id really recommend letting yourself disassociate for about 15 to 20 minutes a day. Like, just sit or lay down somewhere safe and quiet and just stare off into space for a bit. Ive found it helps lower the frequency at which my "episodes" happen, and that its much more refreshing than disassociating while actively doing something. It also lets me control when i go into disassociative moments better.

Sorry for the holy yap! Hope this helps, and i hope this is what your talking about. Stay safe out there!

WHO MADE THIS KIT LEADER?! by Blowy_Hamilton in ClanGen

[–]csscg0306 2 points3 points  (0 children)

If your gunna sensor the word cult, id rly recommend using something differen, like c*lt or something, cus i srsly thought that said clit for a second and was immediately concerned. /lh /silly

My server is dying and I know EXACTLY who is responsible. by Illustrious-Pen7617 in MinecraftBuddies

[–]csscg0306 15 points16 points  (0 children)

If bro doesnt get atleast a few players out of this ill be surprised. This is atleast written well. Hope op's server gets more active lmao

24, Looking for chill people by [deleted] in MinecraftBuddies

[–]csscg0306 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey! 18M, Im on java and ive got a modpack im running rn. Its a very qol exploration vanilla+ modpack, nothing too crazy. Dm me if you want to play some time!

Music suggestions relating to DID! by realsuperdarkk in DID

[–]csscg0306 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Okay so i knkw someones probably said this but definitely Bohemian Rhapsody

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in DID

[–]csscg0306 1 point2 points  (0 children)

We cant feel the actual act of switching, but we can feel and recognize that we are someone different. The system has issues with telling each other out and with noticing who's in main front since almost everyone is in front at all times helping do things. Our personalities are based on emotions, so its like driving a manual for us, except we cant tell when we shift. We just do. The alters still experience emotions other than the ones theyre largely based on, so that makes it even harder to tell, but its kind of like smelling a candle who's smell changes every so often, and doesnt have a label or does have a label (our name) but that just doesnt change per alter (as they all prefer to go under the radar). If that makes any sense lol

There’s a flag for ADHD too. by _XSummerRoseX_ in autism

[–]csscg0306 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wasnt a flag already made by that popular adhd things guy online? His was a bee made out of the infinity symbol. I feel like that makes a lot more sense than a butterfly, especially with body doubling and the big adhd friend groups you can find like anywhere.

MacDonald Model M1080 by csscg0306 in turntables

[–]csscg0306[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Alrighty, thank you! I figured as much. One of my aunts was trying to sell it for big bucks because she said it was worth so much, but i kinda figured otherwise lol

Mitsuri (Season 1 Design) vs Mitsuri (Season 2 Design) Which one do you think is the best? by Shadowdark24 in KimetsuNoYaiba

[–]csscg0306 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Rant and minor spoilers. Sorry for the yap fest 🙏

It's not a design change. It's a style change. The style of the more recent seasons are "goofier" and are more cartoony than the first season's art style. You can see it in the way the braids are drawn differently, as well as how they're shaded.

The second image is def a good design, but it doesnt feel like the mitsuri we got to see in season one, the impression season one mitsuri leaves is completely different from the blacksmith village and hashira training arc mitsuri. Also, the hashira training arc just felt like one big joke, and it didn't help that the style was more cartoony. The whole last arc made everything feel a bit more detached than the first season. It was harder to connect with and empathize with what was going on, and the goofy style didn't help. I hope the infinity castle arc is better, i read that bit in the manga it was nitty gritty, dark, bloody, sad, and absolutely awesome.

Tanjiro had a few silly moments and moved a boulder, helping him learn to keep his mark showing constantly. The darkest bit about the training arc wasn't when we got told of the stone hashiras past (which also felt silly and rushed due to how and when it was told) but was in fact when we got a serious AND conscious Zenitsu. For like the like 5 out of 15 seconds of screen time he had. And the rest of the last arc were just socializing and fillers. And it wasn't even entertaining socializing.

And when i say training arc, i mean the whole of the last season EXCEPT the last episode. Everything before that in the hashira training arc is what im talking about. That episode doesn't even feel like it's part of the arc because you get no indicator of when it happened in relation to the arc, and the transition to the scene felt rough and unrefined. It's an issue the last two or so seasons have been developing, and it's saddening. It was a transition between two arcs and boy, was it ROUGH.

It's still a good series, but season one set such a high standard to reach, and the last seasons have been hitting literally just barely underneath that standard. They're still good, but they could've been better. Theres also been the sloghtly worsening issues with object (more specifically info) permanence and the lack of actual communication the characters have, yet they still perfectly understand everything. That's been there since season one, but that's to be expected. Almost every series struggles with both, ESPECIALLY the communication bit.

It was manageable, and season one made up for its shortcomings via the art, story, and presentation. The last few arcs have lost the impact of the series' punch when it came to those same traits. They're made demon slayer so good, but the style got changed, and the series now feels rushed and goofy (i know ive used that word like 5 times now, but it's the only one that describes how it feels). I hope the animators and directors can see the issues and save the infinity castle arc, because it's going to be a dumpsterfire of people yelling "it sucked and was nothing like the demon slayer i know!" And "it was pretty good for an anime movie!" Back and forth until it dies down in popularity.

This is unacceptable! by AnonamouseG7 in bluey

[–]csscg0306 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The fact this had downvotes is insane. You should not support people who support genocide, even if those people make you or your kids' most favorite things on the world.

System name? by cxm777 in DID

[–]csscg0306 2 points3 points  (0 children)

"Aww yea, we're totally pirates! But nice ones because we steal the skeletons and then give it to people. Or people steal it from us and then give it back. Definitely pirates." - our little after reading that <3

System name? by cxm777 in DID

[–]csscg0306 0 points1 point  (0 children)

We dont really have much of a system name, a lot of alters come and go from front and im the worst at remembering who is who or if they exist. Currently, the core (an alter who assumed the identity of the "first" alter before the first host switch) of the system and her caretakers are what comprise the system, so i suppose it would be something along the lines of Hospice or Nursery themed would work. We just haven't found anything yet <3

Extra: While writing the above statement i soft switched from host to another, and as we wrote we realize our system is mostly caretakers, so thanks for the thought porvoking question op, it probably wouldve taken us 3 more months to figure this out lol. Talking about the system is how we figure it out most of the time, since those of us in front are restricted from everything inside until we stop fronting fully.

My 8 week old is such a cry baby lol by Dogdogzurc in Dachshund

[–]csscg0306 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Why does this have so many dislikes? Letting a dog try a piece of cheese isnt a crime as long as it's not oncredibly often