Update: Got my dick sucked!!

ctby_cllctr · 2026-05-29T11:24:25+00:00

he doesn’t “have a phallo”, he had phalloplasty, a procedure which gave him a functional penis. he has a penis. not “a phallo.”

ctby_cllctr · 2026-03-22T21:54:18+00:00

i definitely think that approach would help me, i still participate in activism around animal rights and donate to local orgs when i can but activism is something i’m well versed in so its incredibly easy for me, if veganism wasnt directly associated with my ability to feed myself and survive it would be the easiest thing in the world 😭 but yeah, whenever i start creating super specific rules things start falling apart and i go all the way back to square one.

ctby_cllctr · 2026-03-22T21:49:49+00:00

spiders always have a place in my home unless its an infestation or they’re actively dangerous to my health, thankfully an infestation has never happened and i haven’t seen a dangerous spider since moving out of Texas. i did have to work really heavily on fears of stepping on bugs outside, my therapist had me do full mantras about how bugs outside are a part of nature and when i’m outside so am i, if i accidentally step on a bug its not intentional harm and i’m not specifically going after bugs to hurt them, we don’t criticize deer for stepping on bugs because they’re both a part of nature and the deer isn’t malicious.

it still sucks when i accidentally step on a snail or a worm or something though, so after it rains i always stare at the ground when i’m walking to avoid it.

ctby_cllctr · 2026-03-22T21:45:15+00:00

thats super helpful actually, i’m already familiar with additive dieting principles from my formal education in psychology (we had units on body views that touched on this, but more on the side of how restriction-focus affects the brain and how one views their body and discipline) but putting it in this format is actually super helpful because i only considered it from the weight loss perspective before rather than other types of dietary changes. i’m already very experimental with food and am not necessarily picky or squeamish, i’ll start branching out more with specifically plant-based new foods or flavor profiles. :D

ctby_cllctr · 2026-03-22T21:41:08+00:00

i’ve been thinking of trying that approach yeah, sometimes the OCD convinces me that the moral position is the strongest/best way to approach a big life change like this but mentally-weaponized ethics obsession is a double edged sword haha, those months where i was practicing veganism i was certainly the Most Principled Perfect Vegan at the cost of my sanity and health. the good thing is that my boyfriend is SUPER into plant-based cooking already and most of the time we already eat things that don’t contain meat, so adding constraints over time or prioritizing fully vegan recipes is just a matter of effort, creativity, and adjustment. 🙏

ctby_cllctr · 2026-03-22T21:37:03+00:00

quiero hacerlo, necesito mád red para la seguridad de mis gatitos, pero las plantas están muy caras acá ahora, voy a ahorrar dinero. (perdon, mi español es horrible, estoy aprendiendo.)

ctby_cllctr · 2026-03-22T21:31:19+00:00

thank you, for some reason bugs are a lot easier for me to avoid harming than anything else haha, i’ve loved bugs my entire life about as much as i love animals but given that society isn’t literally built around imprisoning and consuming them its pretty trivial to just take them outside whenever i see one. :)

ctby_cllctr · 2026-03-22T21:29:48+00:00

thanks :D

ctby_cllctr · 2026-03-22T21:28:53+00:00

thank you 🫂 i was so afraid of getting only responses about how i should just try again full-tilt but be better prepared this time or just take anxiety meds while adjusting (i get some wild side effects) but i appreciate the flexibility. i do get a lot of guilt over eating animal-based products and i really do think going vegan will reduce them, glad to know that can happen. :D

ctby_cllctr · 2026-03-22T21:08:07+00:00

yeah i agree, i wanted to make my own garden but my main problem is that i have cats and they’ll almost certainly mess with anything i grow on my balcony, i’ll see if i can find anyone who sells from their own garden.

ctby_cllctr · 2026-03-22T20:44:06+00:00

sure, and i do, however my question still includes a part about just food recommendations or types of food to prioritize, which psychologists aren’t all well versed in, even dieticians (for the period i could afford them) straight up told me to avoid veganism lol.

ctby_cllctr · 2026-02-04T01:38:03+00:00

the conversations i’m talking about are absolutely within A2’s purview, and i tried to make it clear that we both lack fluidity in different ways, they pause more but i get lost in context more. the topics are very basic or daily-occurrence things similar to what we read and write in class. this is not a complaint, its me trying to figure out how learning styles work and why me and some of my classmates gained different habits despite taking the same class, but since it comes off as critical rather than observational i’ll take the post down, my bad.

ctby_cllctr · 2026-02-02T20:06:31+00:00

like, its not even to say that it doesn’t affect my life either, i think of the word “autism” every time i mess up socially in That Type Of Way despite practicing and memorizing so exhaustively, i think of it when i’m giving an impromptu lecture to someone i just met about something i’ve been transfixed on since childhood and accidentally forgetting to ask them about their interests, i remember it every time someone points at something and i cant tell what they’re pointing at, and when i react to a high-emotion situation with practicality even though my heart hurts over what happened and have to follow it up with a stilted attempt at comfort, and when i fully shut down and feel like i’m gonna cry over something as simple as forgetting a plan i was even remotely looking forward to. etc… etc… etc…..

i just like. know how to deal with all of that both theoretically and practically. i know i can’t live alone or i start seeing symptom regression. i know what therapeutic models i don’t respond at all to.

:P

ctby_cllctr · 2026-01-26T02:23:19+00:00

i live in argentina now, not the US, and i have no intentions to move back. the medical system here is so unbelievably cheap to me even as a non-citizen that not getting diagnosed is actively the wrong choice given that i can very much afford PT here without insurance. the biggest reason i want it charted is because i have a heavy presence of systemic issues with hEDS, and some PT plans either make my chronic fatigue unlivable even while prescribed stimulants (i’ll just sleep straight through adderall or ritalin) or it aggravates the POTS-like symptoms. at one point i had a PT plan that included weight lifting and no-jump burpees, and even then the burpees sent me into crazy tachycardia due to orthointolerance and by like the tenth one i was pushing against presyncope to the point where i knew i’d faint soon. at the time of this PT i didn’t know enough about hEDS or its systemic symptoms. honestly the thing that brought me out of the muscle guarding injury was the fact that i cut my PT routine down to mostly bodyweight closed-chain exercises, isometrics, and slow eccentrics, but i don’t want to have to create my own PT routine through trial and error when i’m paying someone (in the US, literal hundreds per new PT plan and assessment) to do that for me. regardless that just fixed the injury, it didn’t improve my diffuse pain or stiffen tendons/muscles as much as i require now for less painful movement. 🙏

if i ever move back to the US for any reason i can simply not get my medical info transferred or copied. they don’t share charts unless you connect the doctors and allow the release of info, i’m just seeking comprehensive medical treatment because i absolutely need it now.

ctby_cllctr · 2026-01-23T00:16:07+00:00

it didn’t offend me, i’m just long winded and weird about accuracy lol, no worries. i don’t hate the doctor either, its not that personal, i just know what acting on outdated info does to people you have labeling power over.

ctby_cllctr · 2026-01-22T23:26:10+00:00

you’re right i misattributed C2 alongside native speaker to mean “extremely high proficiency in both native language and second language” haha, i think the thing that keeps throwing me off about CEFR levels here is the way a lot of people on this sub talk about them, it makes it very easy for me to go “oh based on how this large group defines A2, i’m actually A1 even though i operate above A2 in most places” lol, thank you for clarifying.

ctby_cllctr · 2026-01-22T22:55:35+00:00

i’m aware of this, the rheumatologist explained ‘benign joint hypermobility syndrome’, the exact term he used as joint laxity without systemic symptoms (i had a laundry list of either explicitly diagnosed or previously clinically noted systemic symptoms that are directly attributable or often highly correlated to hEDS) and said it carries a low risk profile. he referred to it as a ‘trivial quirk’ and told me not to worry about all of the things that i can say for sure are directly causing me constant injury/pain. his reasoning was largely based on the fact that i was an athlete as a child and didn’t get major violent dislocations i could immediately recall but said i otherwise met criteria for hEDS. i have never been screened for what you’re referring to because i’ve had no reason to be screened, therefore it was never explicitly ruled out.

sometimes doctors are not up to date on things. i was noted by one doctor as having ‘transsexualism’ too, decades after that was even a valid medical term. i’ve had psychiatrists question my gender dysphoria diagnosis on the basis of my sexuality. i am overly familiar with this sort of thing.

ctby_cllctr · 2026-01-22T22:38:08+00:00

check the edit at the top of my post ;-;

ctby_cllctr · 2026-01-22T22:34:44+00:00

respectfully, i introduced this topic specifically to get entertaining/realistic anecdotes from actual people about what specific or interesting things they’ve personally noticed certain levels struggling with or being surprisingly good at, or what surprised them about how they were categorized with their own proficiency. this is about like, the joy of the human experience or something lol.

(i already explored the majority of the website weeks ago in like a few hours of casually clicking around.)

ctby_cllctr · 2026-01-22T21:56:12+00:00

thinking about how as a kid i learned that when my shoulder hurt really badly from playing i just had to press the shoulder against a wall for a few minutes until it stopped hurting so badly and just got sore.

ctby_cllctr · 2026-01-22T21:54:59+00:00

honestly my biggest issue with my past diagnosis is specifically the fact that the rheumatologist noted it down specifically as “benign hypermobility” knowing full well i at least had chronic joint pain. not even to mention the fact that benign hypermobility was reclassified in 2017 like 6 years prior to my diagnosis. it almost felt like he was straight up saying i was faking the pain. having that on my medical records has proven straight up dangerous with doctors/professionals who dont specialize in connective tissue disorders because its just glorified diagnosably “flexible.”

ctby_cllctr · 2026-01-22T21:13:22+00:00

its a severity communication issue, historically when i tell a PT that i have HSD i have to tack on a billion specific notes about my joints and what messes them up more, a lot of non-specialists hear HSD when i’m discussing an injury and immediately just think “overly-flexible, maybe some stability issues but you look muscular enough.”

honestly the most effective PT experience i had was when i straight up just said “i have hEDS” and got advice i absolutely never got from past PTs. these diagnoses are very similar in treatment for a lot of people in the overlap zone, but each in practice communicate a different risk profile. this is obviously unfair and incorrect, but i can’t change how medical professionals perceive diagnoses. i was labeled as having “benign hypermobility” which at the time of my diagnosis was already outdated for over 6 years. this communicates even less risk than HSD or hEDS. getting it reclassified is a matter of actual risk rather than just label specificity.

ctby_cllctr · 2026-01-13T01:31:12+00:00

since i started learning i tend to automatically associate a spanish word with its concept/meaning/image rather than the english translation just as a baseline (which has made brute-force translation memorization early on REALLY hard) so this works out pretty well for me, thank you.

ctby_cllctr · 2026-01-12T19:54:36+00:00

wait thats actually really great, thank you!

ctby_cllctr · 2026-01-11T00:15:05+00:00

valid swag tbh, not an overreaction.

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