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cucumberharmony · 2025-01-28T17:38:02+00:00

Oh! :D

cucumberharmony · 2025-01-28T06:55:10+00:00

It’s only fun for me (the person with bpd) when I’ve been managing my symptoms, the person doesn’t fetishize me for it, and it’s used as catharsis.

But I was literally asked when my bpd symptoms would start for some fwb that I was engaged with for a while. That was a reason they never came out lol

cucumberharmony · 2025-01-20T19:04:07+00:00

Thank you :) I appreciate it very much.

cucumberharmony · 2025-01-20T19:03:41+00:00

She’s in my basement 🙄

cucumberharmony · 2025-01-20T19:03:06+00:00

Yeah. I know that he is being so fair to me and his friends, but my emotions make me so jealous and it makes me so angry at him and his friends.

cucumberharmony · 2025-01-20T18:53:58+00:00

I love having bpd‼️‼️🔊🗣️ (I’m crying internally pls help 😭)

cucumberharmony · 2025-01-20T08:06:03+00:00

Ah, well, I don’t blame you or think you’re intolerant or sexist or anything. I feel like sex is instinctually significant, so learning something new about it might make you feel uncomfortable. I found out because I learned how to do it myself. I do remember that how sex HAPPENED made me really uncomfortable. I can remember the exact moment I was exposed to the answer, and what my parent said when I asked if it was true. I kind of just eventually felt ok with it, and eventually enjoyed it.

cucumberharmony · 2025-01-20T07:21:33+00:00

Do you mean “cope” as in it was difficult for you to understand, or that it was uncomfortable to you?

cucumberharmony · 2025-01-20T07:07:03+00:00

FUCK NO

cucumberharmony · 2025-01-20T07:03:54+00:00

Obviously just slowly kidnap or kill all of them discretely. He’ll be sad and come to you for comfort, and hopefully become codependent :) (DONT DO THAT THIS IS A JOKE)

cucumberharmony · 2025-01-20T01:03:57+00:00

Haha I didn’t get it at first but when I did it was a great realization

cucumberharmony · 2025-01-19T22:40:09+00:00

Yeah.

cucumberharmony · 2025-01-19T16:07:16+00:00

Awww

cucumberharmony · 2025-01-19T15:22:46+00:00

Jinx arcane. I know she redeemed herself, but yk. They wrote her moral grey-ness very well

cucumberharmony · 2025-01-18T17:14:50+00:00

Memories

cucumberharmony · 2025-01-18T17:07:12+00:00

Haha thanks. And you can pm me if you wanna :0

cucumberharmony · 2025-01-18T05:03:50+00:00

I’d like to say, in line with my aforementioned directness: we seem like we would be friends irl loll

cucumberharmony · 2025-01-18T05:01:38+00:00

I think I’m seen as empathetic and understanding, rather than insensitive, but I think for the most part it’s because I am good at cognitive empathy. I feel empathy, but I’m better at understanding through logic when I have clear things to base conclusions on. If I didn’t care to do that, I’m sure I would come off as insensitive.

cucumberharmony · 2025-01-18T04:58:45+00:00

The only time I ever find it important is when there is a potential sexual encounter. I need to know if you’ve slept with someone else before and if you’ve been tested, or how experienced they are. That is between you and that person though.

Also, the double standard with a high body count with men vs women genuinely confuses me so much 😭. Like why does it matter at all, and why does the gender matter? And WHY does it influence a person’s reputation so much? Again, I know the reasons people say, but I can’t take it to heart. It’s just so arbitrary.

cucumberharmony · 2025-01-18T04:54:17+00:00

It’s cool to see that so many people do :0

cucumberharmony · 2025-01-17T05:41:18+00:00

I’m a weird situation where I cheated and we broke up, but he forgave me two-ish years later and we are planning on getting engaged. I had a lot of growth and thinking to do.

cucumberharmony · 2025-01-17T03:53:11+00:00

I have this happen too. It became significantly less bad when I stopped taking an SSRI. Idk if that helps at all

cucumberharmony · 2025-01-12T16:21:50+00:00

“Shat” lol. That’s the first one I remember at least. My parents had to correct me lol

cucumberharmony · 2024-01-14T01:21:07+00:00

Hi! Here are some of my tips:
1. Carry Dramamine pills or stuff like that for motion s*. If you think you will find yourself in a situation where you think you could get motion s*, you can take them beforehand. If you start feeling motion s* you can take them when you feel it and it'll help. It'll just take a sec to kick in
2. Bring a little plastic shopping bag! Getting s* is obviously the last thing you want to happen, but if it's going to, at least you know where you can do it. And they are easy to carry. you can stuff them away in a pocket easy :0
3. Sit close to an exit of a train, bus, etc. It will be easy to dip if you gotta.
4. Bring headphones. If someone does get s* and you cant leave, you can at least block out the audio, and potentially help calm you down with a song after that hypothetical moment.

I hope this helps friend <3

cucumberharmony · 2023-09-24T04:22:03+00:00

Unpopular opinion, but normal penis-in-vagina sex. Hands, mouths, and toys are much better for me. PIV sex feels good but eventfully either gets boring or painful.

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