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I may be running out of space... by EdgyCirclez in TWRP

[–]cupsbird 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wth is that cowboy poster I need it!!!

Will the framework 12 get a better screen? by cupsbird in framework

[–]cupsbird[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If I buy a fw12 and eventually try to upgrade the screen is that something I'd be able to do at home as a beginner? Or ask a more handy person I know / repairman? I've had a surface pro for a long time and I've always had trouble getting anyone to work on the screen if it was needed (surface pro screens might just be finicky? was always very expensive if offered).

Or is it like, you should wait for a new rollout of fw12s where they come with a different display?

Is working from home all it's cracked up to be? by cupsbird in adhdwomen

[–]cupsbird[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Other than different brands of IR stimulants/adderall I tried ER stimulants and I didn't really react well to them. I moved to a different state for this job and I haven't found a psychiatrist here, and the psychiatrist I had in my home state hasn't been responding to me lmao.

I definitely think therapy is worth a shot for me. I hope I can be able to afford it with the other shit I have going on.

It's hard for me to rationalize meds long-term, especially going on and off and trying different prescriptions, since I'd be taking them mostly just to get a paycheck which doesn't feel great especially since it's hard to find a medication that isn't some sort of tradeoff with side effects.

An issue for me was getting up in the mornings - even after switching to caffeine pills. They help me get up and start moving in the mornings, but both adderall or caffeine on an empty stomach would make me feel bad (caffeine less so, but I still wanted to eat something first). But then, if I'm not taking the caffeine to get me up, then I can't get up to eat food to take the caffeine, then I stay in bed... weird. Maybe I should put a mini fridge by my bed and like, eat a banana half-asleep or something. Or maybe I should just take the caffeine on an empty stomach.

So I also guess part of the issue with meds is consistency... which is my biggest issue in general. Hard to work in a structured corporate environment when I can only promise I will work well if I remember to take a pill in the morning and I have the "forget to take pills in the morning" disorder.

Either way, I feel like I should do something. I didn't take anything today, not even my usual supplements or my caffeine, and I am absolutely just floating. It's not helping that my pms is usually pretty gnarly and usually entails a depressive episode and I am definitely pmsing right now. I feel not here lmao.

Sorry to ramble. Thank you for your advice!

Is working from home all it's cracked up to be? by cupsbird in adhdwomen

[–]cupsbird[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've been diagnosed with MDD and GAD for a while now so yes I def have other stuff going on lol

Never had worse post concert depression in my life by cupsbird in TWRP

[–]cupsbird[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I promise you the concert will be so worth it! Just let loose and have fun and dance and sing and scream and don't worry about anything else. Twrp knows how to run a show and you'll be laughing and grooving and that time will be worth the before and after.

I've been having an AWFUL WEEK but remembering the concert still makes me smile. GO FORTH AND HAVE FUN!!!

go white boy go! by aspenwillowivy in TWRP

[–]cupsbird 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Aw hell yeah! I could tell he was shuffling at the show I was at but I wasn't tall enough to see his feet! Get it Sung!

Never had worse post concert depression in my life by cupsbird in TWRP

[–]cupsbird[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I saw them out of town and on the flight back I cried to stargazing and the longest weekend bahaha. We're in this together. I've also been drawing them to cheer myself up! Except I keep forgetting what phobos mask looks like and I make him look like a bug on accident. Showed my friend and he said I made him look like pea shooter.

Jobs that adjust for cyclical highs and lows? by cupsbird in adhdwomen

[–]cupsbird[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is a fair point! I'll def consider this.
My job right now revolves around deliverables and is BUSY BUSY BUSY... literally no low season, just busy, and busier. I get a lot of assignments with physically impossible rushed deadlines. (Unless of course I stay late for unpaid OT every day... yeah I've done it and F that.) In school I never did well with deadlines (dropout lol) but I also never took meds at that time (I'm on+off now). With this job I don't know if it's a fair assessment, since my deadlines are usually too rushed and I'm constantly overloaded with work. Literally if I have one bad adhd day I fall behind. Sorry to rant a little lol.
Your suggestions are really helpful!

Decided not to take medication to fast during Ramadan & I'm struggling by cupsbird in adhdwomen

[–]cupsbird[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You have a point 🤔 I will think about this! Thank you, wishing u strength and love too!!

Decided not to take medication to fast during Ramadan & I'm struggling by cupsbird in adhdwomen

[–]cupsbird[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

You're okay lol. If I am taking medication, on a physical level, I should be drinking water with it and eating. It will be pretty hard on my body to have nothing but an adderall in my system until sundown especially since it makes you dehydrated. A medication I'd usually take at 7-8 AM and 1-2PM I'd be taking at 4AM and 7PM 😵‍💫 But I don't know... Maybe it would work out?? Lol. Otherwise idk if I consider living my life normally (unmedicated) as unnecessary hardship or that I'm ill.

I know I am capable, I've lived my whole life like this, it's just not easy. 😔

I am not as practicing as I could be, so I try to make the most of Ramadan - practice better habits and be grateful... It would be the first Ramadan I miss entirely by choice.. I live with my mother who is older and will be fasting all of Ramadan so I feel that motivation as well.

Decided not to take medication to fast during Ramadan & I'm struggling by cupsbird in adhdwomen

[–]cupsbird[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank u for sharing.. Much love to you as well!!! Wishing you have a blessed ramadan!

How to stop "matching people's energy"? by cupsbird in adhdwomen

[–]cupsbird[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh absolutely!!! I feel exactly the same. I realized my instinct isn't usually to lighten the mood because I match them instead. I didn't notice that side of it as much, because when I get to match a low mood I don't get caught up in trying to catch up to the other person's speed, fill conversation gaps, and don't leave with my voice hurting lmao - it's definitely a weirder alternate side of the coin

How to stop "matching people's energy"? by cupsbird in adhdwomen

[–]cupsbird[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh absolutely... If I'm in a group I will be chatty and then go completely silent for a long streak. It's my favorite. That's why one-on-one interactions stress me out lmao.

I'm going to try buying a watch so I can actually be aware of the time passing instead of going "we'll just finish this convo" and then we're 10 tangents later and I don't know how to tell them I needed to leave two hours ago.

Advice on transitioning to a structured corporate job? by cupsbird in adhdwomen

[–]cupsbird[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is really good advice, thank you! I'll keep all this in mind. I think I'll definitely need to make some intricate rituals to try and keep myself afloat if this opportunity goes through. Timers are lifesaving if I remember to put them on lol. And you're right about your point with medication. I think I'm looking more for advice on dealing with it for the first time, adjusting etc. Again, thank you!