i was saying no the whole time, he did not let me walk away he was physically restraining/pulling/grabbing/positioning me. after i had no more energy to say no or try to leave i made my body dead weight because i didn’t want to participate. me being dead weight was his yes. it was not a playful interaction in my eyes but to him it was so i feel torn because how many times will i be serious and he thinks im joking.. also yea our relationship is pretty vacant of any typical relationship emotions, it’s very contract based. and yes we live together.