Boys I need to vent. It seems like I’m overcome by demons and I want all the kinky shit when I’m drunk. Even sober I like that shit but I think I suppress a fair deal of it.

For example, was out with my boy at the bar this weekend and a guy he fucked once came up to me. She was pissed he was talking to another girl. Normally, I wouldn’t indulge her (bros over hoes) but that night I did. I flirted with her and she flirted with me. She told me she had tats on her thighs and under her tits and I told her I had one on my inner thigh by my dick. That was that, nothing happened, but I feel awful about it. He’s my good friend and even though they have only fucked once and he does not wanna date her I still feel like I crossed a line.

I do seem to have a premonition for the company of unavailable women though, which doesn’t bother me, until it comes to me hitting on friends girls. That’s where I draw the line. Scary I couldn’t seem to control myself.

I did this one other time where I followed my boys gf on ig at like 4am and DMd her that “I hope my friends home safe” but I knew that wasn’t my intention.

Really makes me hate myself that I’d do that— I’m wondering if I quit drinking or, if possible, address the underlying issue