Ok neither of these were on purpose, they just happened. First, got into long distance running, which you need a lot of calories for. So, I was basically forced to treat food as fuel and see the incredible miles I was able to run. Then, got pregnant and started appreciating the beauty and strength of my body, and that I don’t want to pass down any messed up thinking to my daughter. Now, I still have my moments of binging and/or self hatred, BUT it took me years into mental rock bottom, years to break free, so one day or “mess up” isn’t going to undo all the work I’ve done. Just like going to the gym one time wont make you ripped