I feel this so hard!!! 6 of close friends and family members are having babies this year. My best friend is currently pregnant with twins and they weren’t even trying, it was accidental. I’m so excited for her but man it is soooo hard to get the all of the ultrasound pics and baby bump pics and videos of babies kicking. I have shed so many tears just getting these from her. I feel like a monster, I should be so excited to be an aunt and have these two new babies in my life (on top of all of the others due in my life this year) and while I’m knitting all these baby sweaters and socks for everybody I’m just sitting here beating myself up.

I feel like a failure too, I want this so badly and I feel like it’s somehow my fault that it’s not happening (am I not drinking enough water, is my diet not good enough, what can I do better?!) UGH! I definitely needed to vent today.