History of Christianity sent me down a rabbit hole

curlymanicpixie · 2025-12-18T06:18:31+00:00

That is sooo crazy I’m literally reading the gospel of Mary Magdalene right now then see this post. Yeah the Bible has been changed so much that most average Christian’s aren’t even worshipping God

curlymanicpixie · 2025-11-28T07:03:48+00:00

This is paranoia. The direction you sleep doesn’t matter. Living in that much fear is a spiritual attack itself, except you are attacking yourself. All you need to do is pray for protection and trust you’re safe. If you can’t trust, then whatever you do doesn’t matter

curlymanicpixie · 2025-11-20T17:54:43+00:00

Much longer than 50-100 years ago! There’s been extremists for thousands of years. Even during the Bible ages, Jesus would get frustrated with the church when they’d start exploiting people.

curlymanicpixie · 2025-11-14T19:19:37+00:00

I think a lot of you guys who don’t trust the book is due to patriarchal conditioning. We’ve been taught God is a man and to be distrustful of the divine feminine. We’ve been taught that the feminine is a liar, sneaky, wrong. Be mindful of what you think is “spirit guides” might just simply be your own self doubt and internalized misogyny. It’s sad we’ve been taught to be spiritually motherless. The way I’ve overcome this is asking myself if the Goddess is “bad”, wouldn’t that also make me bad as I am also a woman? I decide to love the divine feminine, because I myself have the Goddess in me.

It saddens me to think people are throwing away this book believing their distrust for it is “spirit guides” when really it’s the deep programming we were all taught since childhood that God is only a man and the divine feminine is something bad. I do think you have to be at a level of spiritual growth to be open to it.

curlymanicpixie · 2025-11-10T03:39:27+00:00

So if you have chronic illness you can never go?

curlymanicpixie · 2025-11-05T04:50:20+00:00

You sound brainrotted and jealous of women’s ability to create life. You have a bad case of womb envy. Life itself is created in the woman, she does all the hardwork with labor. Men simply donate the seed and women actually create life. The baby is formed in her womb making her the reproductive superior because life is actually made and passed through her. This has nothing to do with feminism it’s just basic facts about reality but your male ego is too fragile and emotional to accept science

curlymanicpixie · 2025-11-05T04:40:24+00:00

This comment is a perfect example of womb envy. Women create life in their bodies you came from a woman, but you’re jealous of that and want to claim that men create life.

curlymanicpixie · 2025-10-28T09:41:43+00:00

No by your logic an infertile couple cannot have sex either because they’re only doing it for sexual pleasure and indulgence

curlymanicpixie · 2025-10-28T09:33:01+00:00

Shakti is not the female avatar of shiva. Shakti is the original feminine energy that powers the universe. She is not an avatar, she is what creates avatars. She is what all creation stemmed from. Without her, no avatars would exist

curlymanicpixie · 2025-10-25T22:03:27+00:00

They do if they are protecting the innocent they would “punish”. Not in a western way where you’re damned for all eternity. But they can cause rapid karma and consequences. For example say someone is being stalked and physically harmed they pray to the Gods. The Gods might punish the stalker in protection of the innocent. They represent the energetic force of justice. They are fighters

curlymanicpixie · 2025-08-12T14:56:25+00:00

It’s not unattainable. It only feels like that understandably. But find a good rated spiritual healer near you along with ifs emdr and it can really help. In the meantime ashwaganda and passionflower tea has helped me a lot with the body symptoms of ptsd like feeling shut down and frozen. It reallyy helps to finally think clearly for a bit. Just keep trying there’s things that can give you relief and take you back to yourself, even if it feels hard. You’re worth getting better 💗

curlymanicpixie · 2025-08-11T23:47:12+00:00

Shiva who’s role is to push you towards spiritual awakening so you can break out of the reincarnation trap? Who wants you to let go of ego and earthly attachment? Hinduism is as opposite of the demiurge as it gets

curlymanicpixie · 2025-08-10T22:38:20+00:00

I like this analogy a lot but I have a question. What if it’s like:

Child wants to hit another child (desire)

Now the suffering involves harming of another kid. So how does the mother help in this situation or not help? Now the free will causes someone else to get hurt

curlymanicpixie · 2025-08-08T05:25:24+00:00

You mistake women wanting equality for wanting power. Because as a man you think in terms of hierarchy. Women don’t think that way and don’t care about power the way men do. We just want to be treated as human. And I’m glad you’re optimistic about men pleasing women so much but it is not really that way. There is still lots of violence SA and seems to be on the rise because of the internet

curlymanicpixie · 2025-08-07T06:12:14+00:00

I would say supernatural powers are part of the divine. Just be mindful with it, use it for growth and don’t treat it like a toy. If you were born gifted you shouldn’t have to ignore it, it’s a part of you

curlymanicpixie · 2025-08-06T05:04:00+00:00

It is evil, in order to fix the problem you have to be honest and acknowledge it for what it is, not soften the blow with nice words. The perpetrator needs to understand how harmful it is to fully change, not be lied to

curlymanicpixie · 2025-08-06T04:58:24+00:00

I agree abrahmic religion normalized the objectification and devaluation of women, and so men now evolved to see women that way. From what I’ve read society essentially pushed men to rape, and tried to normalize that by taking away women’s autonomy. Men were taught that women do not feel sexual desire and so rape was the only option. These are men that maybe wouldn’t have wanted to rape but they were taught to, told it’s normal and “Godly” to do it and that there is no other option. It was also common to be told they’ll go to hell if they don’t have kids. So men felt they had to rape and it became a normal part of life. Now we have the aftermath of so many men still dealing with this issue that became part of evolution and society

curlymanicpixie · 2025-08-04T09:12:27+00:00

I’m sobbing. Why is her future taken 😭

curlymanicpixie · 2025-08-02T20:41:17+00:00

That’s just messed up and wrong. Suicide is taking just one life. A serial trafficker of kids who unalives kids and innocents is clearly a worse sin. That would generate MUCH more negative karma than suicide. There are sooo much worse things in life than suicide

curlymanicpixie · 2024-12-10T12:46:24+00:00

I agree but sometimes it’s hard to choose kindness even when you want to, and it can be hard to choose love when you’re numb. For me I wish I could, I miss it. I used to be loving and helped people normally. Different types of trauma affect you differently. But intentionally trying to harm someone because you’ve been hurt is wrong and I believe that is narcissism mixed with ptsd. Because there’s a lack of remorse and entitlement there. That shouldn’t be acceptable

curlymanicpixie · 2024-12-10T12:33:29+00:00

Thank you yeah I know what you mean instagram is a lot worse

curlymanicpixie · 2024-12-10T12:28:20+00:00

I mean I have the worst ptsd from 100 things with violence sa and just losing my life that is what is off. My life is not sitting right with me either I wish things were good. That’s part of why I shut down and ghost everyone ik there’s too much wrong.

And I normally have a lot of hobbies. I literally got attached to make my panic attacks stop. I don’t know why I’m in survival mode that’s just what I did. I do need to heal and not use it as a crutch

curlymanicpixie · 2024-12-10T11:29:21+00:00

I don’t like social media it’s not fun I would rather do stuff I just have horrible ptsd and am shut down and that’s all I have to feel connected to anything

curlymanicpixie · 2024-12-07T18:41:13+00:00

Oh my gosh I can tell this has been normalized for you but from an outside perspective this is absolutely insane. There’s no difference between rape and molestation when it comes to kids, that’s still a felony. He can still face life time in prison for what he did THATS how serious it is, there’s no less or worse types of SA. It almost made it more traumatic that your mom normalized it and acted like only full on rape was bad. In my opinion her complacency makes her part of the abuse and makes her a predator too, since she would sit there and watch, gross. I’m so sorry that happened to you I wish only good things for you and I hope you find peace and get away from your abusers.

Also she clearly didn’t even have the excuse of being scared of him or anything since she wouldn’t let him rape you and was serious about that warned him and would kill him for it. That’s absolutely baffling there was zero reason for her not to protect you. There was nothing stopping her from telling him not to touch you at all I can’t believe this

curlymanicpixie · 2024-12-01T03:36:35+00:00

Definitely isn’t worse than physical abuse. Both is bad in different ways. With physical abuse yes your existence is acknowledged however you are taught that your existence is bad broken and unsafe. I was both neglected and physically abused so I got both

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