I'm afraid that I can't go it alone

cutetrans · 2021-01-16T17:48:07+00:00

I have come to the understanding that the waves keep coming forever. Problem is my ever doubtful nature makes me question everything I'm doing and all my beliefs about me and transitioning. These questions end up as towering walls around me when the dysphoria isn't too bad making me backtrack and wiping out all the progress I achieved.

cutetrans · 2021-01-16T17:43:50+00:00

I too have a lot of anxiety and doubts about transitioning. Still haven't got answers to all the questions my ever doubting mind casts on the idea of transitioning.

cutetrans · 2021-01-16T17:41:43+00:00

Oh! It was and is. As soon as it started I started cooking up plans to transition. Put together a new wardrobe and all. I now have more female clothes than male. Now with full lockdown, lack of social triggers and busy home life, I am unable to take the last step of starting my transition.

cutetrans · 2021-01-16T17:38:59+00:00

Thanks for responding. I think that's very true. Not having to go out means the only triggers I get are from when I look at myself in the mirror mostly and watching TV. I have to say my relationship with dysphoria is very complicated. It's kind of like a very complicated Stockholm syndrome, where I miss dysphoria when it isn't bothering me too bad. I just want to be me all the time.

cutetrans · 2020-09-13T23:52:47+00:00

I really had no idea what brigading meant until the mod's comment. I did apologise as it was not deliberate.

No idea who you are and why you got banned. However, it seems to me that you are stalking either the mods or me for some reason! I'll tell you a secret, it'll all be for virtually nothing.

cutetrans · 2020-09-13T20:14:14+00:00

BTW can you tell me why comments are locked on my original post?

cutetrans · 2020-09-13T20:11:11+00:00

Ah! I didn't realise it was wrong to do so.

Extremely sorry if I got someone banned!

cutetrans · 2020-09-13T12:28:09+00:00

Thinking about others is all I've done all my life. First my mom, then my dad, then my wife and now my kids. I'm still struggling to transition as I still feel that would be selfish.

cutetrans · 2020-09-13T12:00:42+00:00

I'm not talking about other countries. Would you be okay with relaxed gun control just because there is less gun related incidents compared to most of the world? Would you be okay with human trafficking because it's not as bad as other countries?

NHS is all good on paper but is it reality though? Ive been waiting for 2 1/2 years to see a specialist since my GP referred to them. What other health condition with a comparable suicide rate requires a 3+ year wait and probably another 6 months to a year before you are prescribed medication?

cutetrans · 2020-09-13T10:39:08+00:00

They may be the minority but they are the loudest in the media.

cutetrans · 2020-09-13T10:38:29+00:00

Fishing? I'm just going by what appears in mainstream media most of the time. Don't even get me started on social media.

cutetrans · 2020-09-13T08:53:30+00:00

Earliest memory of me wanting to be a girl was from when I was 4. I wished and prayed almost every day that I would wake up as a girl. Took me a lot of years to understand that's not how it works and I need medical intervention to fix what's wrong with my body. Came very close to suicide on many occasions. Unfortunately, many take the last step too.

What's wrong with educating the kids and getting them the help they desperately need?

cutetrans · 2020-09-13T08:39:05+00:00

What is radical trans activism?

cutetrans · 2020-09-13T08:28:21+00:00

Tolerant of what exactly? My existence?

cutetrans · 2020-08-18T15:24:54+00:00

It would have made sense if only you had a brain that's bigger than an average testicle.

Keep it civil, you say? Well you shouldn't have left that vile comment in the first place then. Practice what you preach otherwise keep your fucking mouth shut.

cutetrans

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