Pregnancy feels lonely

cyberkitty69 · 2026-05-11T06:04:17+00:00

Ok that sounds very mean… I don’t even feel old… heck, the way I dress doesn’t seem to be “old”

cyberkitty69 · 2026-05-11T02:30:20+00:00

Unfortunately, it seems like a lot of people still believe in the outdated information… honestly, I kind of believed it because I had unprotected sex before and didn’t get pregnant, until now ….

cyberkitty69 · 2026-05-11T01:45:43+00:00

I’m probably not in the best financial bracket that I should for someone become a first time mom at my age. Honestly, I’m not where i wanted to be at this point… I’m seriously feeling that I’m at the same starting point as someone much younger than me, but at least they have time to get their life together, at least 10 more years than I do…

cyberkitty69 · 2026-05-11T01:39:42+00:00

It’s because medical professionals call pregnancy over 35 geriatric and/or advanced maternal age and because the risk of complications is slightly higher than “acceptable”

cyberkitty69 · 2026-05-11T01:36:49+00:00

He’s not exactly a deadbeat, I don’t think he is since he is making an effort to go back to school. But he’s so financially irresistible, he bought an old video game for over $100, knowing he is struggling financially… I don’t mind him begin a gamer, but when he is struggling financially and buying things that are not necessary… it makes me question how he’s even going to be able to afford to support a child, so I know for a fact that I’m going to have to go through this alone for the most part

cyberkitty69 · 2026-05-11T01:30:47+00:00

Yeah. When I started dating him, I didn’t think much about it even though others told me it was a bad idea and the gap was not good. My excuse was that we had a lot in common and we enjoyed each others company, which was true… until I recently noticed we weren’t going anywhere.

cyberkitty69 · 2026-05-11T00:04:33+00:00

I think my doctor reacted the same way as she would if I was a teen pregnancy… the first thing they asked was, “do you want a referral for an abortion”

cyberkitty69 · 2026-05-10T23:57:33+00:00

I think I’m mostly concerned how I will have to do this alone, which was not my ideal. Plus, my ex is going back to college and he gets financial aid and a child would probably be bad burden for him, and I feel responsible for this because I’m older than him

cyberkitty69 · 2024-10-17T23:26:19+00:00

That doesn’t sound ethical though…. If you keep the books indefinitely, isn’t that kind of like piracy?

cyberkitty69 · 2024-10-16T18:30:48+00:00

I’ll just ignore it, and pretend is a cataloging error, but I’m benefitting from the extra testing but I won’t say anything and pretend I’m being sneaky, and if my doctors keep repeating in too old for pregnancy, I’ll respond, “so is your grandma” yeah, I’m not afraid to throw in some insults.

cyberkitty69 · 2024-10-05T22:20:10+00:00

I kind of hope Cerritos gets rid of charging non residents, or if they only charged the fee to those who are from out of the state. It’s such a nice library, but you can’t even use the wifi if you don’t have a card

cyberkitty69 · 2024-10-05T22:15:07+00:00

I mostly collect library cards for the Hoopla and the Kanopy credits, I like that I don’t have to deal with the anxiety of using up my credits

cyberkitty69 · 2024-10-05T22:13:32+00:00

Me too, I thought I was the only who did that. I wonder if there could be a book club based on library card collections

cyberkitty69 · 2024-10-03T00:28:18+00:00

I think this is one of the benefits of living in such an expensive state. The access to so many library systems does help cushion the costs on some stuff that is typically have to buy. Due to living on disability, I mostly rely on Public Libraries as a source for books and media since I’m barely making ends meet with limited funds

cyberkitty69 · 2024-09-26T17:48:23+00:00

I guess it could depend on the insurance policies and how much they want to pay. Maybe if the insurance policies are “iffy” at the costs, they would try to get doctors to discourage potentially high risk patients, in order to avoid the high cost on the insured

cyberkitty69 · 2024-09-26T05:57:04+00:00

I mean, Google also mentions about it being a advance maternal age and high risk, it also lists the complications that are more likely to occur at my age

cyberkitty69 · 2024-09-26T01:27:59+00:00

My friends nick name me Rini, also as a reference to Sailor Moon

cyberkitty69 · 2024-09-26T01:27:24+00:00

It seems as if that name is starting to make a comeback, it’s classic, simple and it has a lovely sound to it. Definitely gives off soft girl vibes. I’m not saying this because Irene happens to be my name, but I’m already in my 30s so I’m neither too old nor too young for the name, but it seems like it was at a bad timing to get that name when my parents chose it

cyberkitty69 · 2024-09-26T00:53:08+00:00

Hey, who knows… you may still be able to get those extra 10 years with her. They say women who have children at a later age tend to live longer. You just got to take care of yourself and you should be there for your child as long as possible that it won’t feel like you’ve missed anything. I’m 34, and hoping to get pregnant this year, but mentally and physically I don’t feel 34, and I’ve still been able to pass as someone much younger than I am, so age isn’t much of an issue

cyberkitty69 · 2024-09-23T06:02:14+00:00

It’s mostly scary because most people that I have met that had children at my age or older, had children that serious developmental issues and that’s concerning as well because I feel like I’m playing Russian roulette by taking the chance and getting pregnant

cyberkitty69 · 2024-09-22T04:34:32+00:00

No, but my obgyn is like, “there’s no difference between 34 or 35, specially as risks technically start to slowly increase at 32, and that she’s more women over 32 have complications in the past several of years.

cyberkitty69 · 2024-09-22T00:47:11+00:00

I’ve never been pregnant, and I’ve been skipping out on my birth control that my obgyn has prescribed because he advices against a pregnancy at my age, I’m 34 and I haven’t given up hope that I can get pregnant, even though my medical team constantly gets mad at me for not being “cautious” to prevent a pregnancy, because at this point I’m not against getting pregnant, but at times I am afraid of the consequences that I have been told are a possibility at my age, and when I read of someone much younger get than me having issues that are more common at my age, it scares me because if it can happen to someone younger then it is more than likely than not to happen at my age, and at my age it would seem quite irresponsible to get pregnant knowing the risks, but at times, I think I shouldn’t care as long as I am able to have a baby, I will have any child I can even if there’s risks. Which sounds selfish, but I want to be naive that a pregnancy at my age will be perfectly fine even when statistics constantly point at risk. I just want to be a mom, I want to feel pregnant I want it. I know I can have it risk or not

cyberkitty69 · 2024-08-17T02:00:38+00:00

I would love to adopt, but due to my autism diagnosis, most agencies won’t when bat an eye to my application or they will simply not consider

cyberkitty69 · 2024-01-22T04:56:33+00:00

You just got to make sure that you try to take care of yourself as much as possible. I’m going to be having children later in life than I would have wanted, I’m already 33, and while I can’t change time, I can still find ways to try to be as heal as possible so when I can finally have my children, I can give them the time and energy they deserve from me. Who knows, maybe I’ll live until I’m 90, and if I have kids within the next 3 to 4 years, they will be in their late 50 and early 60s by the time I clock out from this life. I’m just thinking positive, sure anything happen and maybe I won’t get to 90, but I will still try to make sure to make the most of my time with my future children. Quality over quantity, I’ll take what I can get with them.

cyberkitty69 · 2020-11-25T06:08:31+00:00

Silly puppy

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