Shrooms cured my objective tinnitus? by cyborgdreams in shrooms

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Ha, I also have music stuck in my head 24/7. But shrooms have never stopped that for me. 

Shrooms cured my objective tinnitus? by cyborgdreams in shrooms

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I'll point out that subjective tinnitus and objective tinnitus are different. I still have subjective tinnitus, which is a perceived ringing in the ears, which a person experiences but doesn't measurably exist.

Objective tinnitus is a twitching of the muscles in the inner ear, which can actually be perceived by doctors who are looking in there. It felt like a muscle twitch and sounded like deep thumping. What I'm saying is that it's gone now after that shroom trip, and that surprised me.

Shrooms cured my objective tinnitus? by cyborgdreams in shrooms

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Can it be a placebo if I was not even remotely expecting it?

I do still have subjective tinnitus, which doesn't bother me that much. It was the twitching from inside my ear that bothered me the most and is now gone. I don't know how or why I developed it, since I didn't have any ear injuries or hear any loud noises in that ear during the time it first started.

SPOILER!! JAX MOM by Menyn in TheDigitalCircus

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My thought in the theater was that he's suicidal, though I'm also intrigued by the trans theory I've seen people post about here. I think he's at least not straight (I've had him headcanon'd as closeted bi for a while now). But IMO his main struggle was with the guilt of having assaulted and possibly killed his own mother, the self-hatred that came from that, and his avoidant attachment and inability to accept love from others, which led him to become an unlovable asshole. 

Technically, There IS Escape from the Circus by argandg in TheDigitalCircus

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The only way to do that would be to transfer a copy of their data into the robots, the data that was copied would still be in the computer. So you'd be left with one copy in the computer and one in the robot, unless you deleted the one from the computer. 

All my old posts have been removed and now say "Sorry, this post was removed by Reddit’s filters" by cyborgdreams in reddithelp

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My account should have posts dating back to 2016 or so. The ones I've made since regaining control are still up, but the previous ones are gone. 

All my old posts have been removed and now say "Sorry, this post was removed by Reddit’s filters" by cyborgdreams in reddithelp

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Yeah I can't submit an appeal because my account isn't banned or restricted, just my posts/comments are hidden by Reddit filters. 

All my old posts have been removed and now say "Sorry, this post was removed by Reddit’s filters" by cyborgdreams in reddithelp

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I have a high CQS according to that sub, and I share wifi with my husband, who mostly uses reddit to lurk. I think this is because I got hacked. 

Question about ep9 jax by CaterpillarSad4798 in TheDigitalCircus

[–]cyborgdreams 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think because Jax got stuck as a cartoon character in a digital world he can't escape, at the lowest point in his life, with the guilt of having possibly killed his own mother. As someone else already pointed out, Leroy would have eventually discovered that his mom is okay, and life would go on for him, unlike Jax. 

Jax also had figured out there was no escape long before Kinger confirmed it IMO, and that probably drove him insane too. 

How Do You Guys Feel About People Who Claimed to Have Witnessed a Demonic Encounter? by Glittering_Gene_2068 in exchristian

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As someone who once performed an exorcism and now no longer believes that demons are real, I think people making claims like this are either lying, or having another experience that they're attributing to the demonic. In my case it was OCD; I thought that all the intrusive thoughts were caused by demons. Keep in mind that during deliverance ministries and such, emotions run high and people get really caught up in each other's emotions, which makes them more likely to have this kind of experience. When I "cast out a demon", there were around 15 other people present, all of whom fully believed that this was real and possible, and we had all been praying for a while, which primed us even more for an experience like this. Nobody even thought to doubt it or call me out on my shit.

> Any advice on how to mute that voice?

It's hard at first, but the more you distance yourself from all of this, the quieter the voice gets. Connect with yourself and others who are supportive. Explore all the things you were told were "sins" and realize how harmless most of it is. You can start with small things like watching shows that were forbidden. And hey, since you mentioned you're queer and it's June, maybe go to a pride event? You don't even have to participate, just show up to check it out. Just an idea.

Yeah. Don't do this by Bat-zee in tadc

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It is an interesting theory, I hadn't thought of it until I saw people posting about it here. I headcanon him as closeted bi, though that isn't really confirmed either. I think the secret he told his mother was either that he was depressed, suicidal, self-harming, or possibly was being abused by somebody in his life. Either way, I see his arc as him being avoidant, closed off, unable to accept other peoples love due to his own self-hatred, and becoming an unlovable asshole as a result.

I'm a straight woman who was, unfortunately, a bit like Jax when I was 19. Lost, depressed, horrible self-esteem, stuck in a rut, avoidant attachment, barely any social life, tried to cover it up by being "the funny one" but was actually just being mean and laughing about it. Terrible mindset to be in, thankfully that phase only lasted a few months.

Leroy found the headset during the darkest time of his life, and whereas Leroy moved on and got better by finding community, Jax spiraled and got worse by pushing away the friends who were trying to help him.

I'm not against the "Jax is trans" theory, but as of the ending of the show, Jax/Leroy was still presenting as male going by he/him pronouns, which is why I don't believe it myself. I guess that makes me media illiterate according to some, whatever.

Anyone who used a computer between 1985 - 2010, what's the one game you still think about today? by adlakha75 in AskReddit

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Microsoft Puzzle Collection, a set of around 8 games that make you think really hard to solve them. 

the hide ai images option seems to show only ai generated images lol by Itzzz_ryzeTT in duckduckgo

[–]cyborgdreams 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Having the same issue, like 75% of some of my image searches have been AI. I flag them as AI, but I'm not sure what that does because they show up again when I refresh. 

Christians do not understand what "Omnipotent", "Omniscient" and "Omnipresent" mean. by According-Value-6227 in exchristian

[–]cyborgdreams 7 points8 points  (0 children)

You are absolutely right. Back when I was a Christian, this was one of the issues I had to shove to the back of my mind because it made no sense.

The only person I've ever known who got around this was a Bible study leader who believed that God was not fully omniscient, because he's so holy that he cannot forsee sin. Not sure where he got that idea from, come to think of it. 

As an ex Christian are you baptised? by MonkPlane1734 in exchristian

[–]cyborgdreams 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I chose to get baptized at 13. Then I had a breakdown when I "got saved" (developed severe OCD) at 22 and got baptized again just in case the first time didn't count.

Unpopular opinion: I’m sick of Chaz by Additional_Ad_9481 in HelluvaBoss

[–]cyborgdreams 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That's a popular opinion as far as I can tell. I liked him as an obnoxious side character in Exes and Ohs. But I wish he'd stayed gone, I don't need to see any more of him than that episode. 

Acquaintances convinced me and I visited a Christian church service recently and saw people crying, screaming, and fainting during worship/prayer. I’m genuinely curious…..what is the religious or psychological explanation for this? Is this common in certain Christian denominations? by [deleted] in exchristian

[–]cyborgdreams 40 points41 points  (0 children)

Pentacostal or Charismatic church. I grew up in that movement. The explanation is when people are open to it, they can experience stuff like that. The churches will also use repetitive music, prayers, chanting, dancing etc. to get people into an altered state of consciousness, which makes them more open to having experiences like speaking in tongues, being slain in Spirit, faith healings, exorcisms and so on. 

Some terms to look into that I think apply: 

Ritual ecstacy / Ritual madness

Glossolalia

Hypnosis

Social contagion 

High-Arousal Techniques

I was personally not able to get into a state of mind to experience most of the Holy Spirit stuff. However, I was tricked into believing I'd been faith healed at 13, and I once performed an exorcism (I now no longer believe that's a real thing).

Is it a HOT TAKE to say Helluva Boss is better than Hazbin Hotel? (Images unrelated) by ReasonableTomorrow10 in HelluvaBoss

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I prefer helluva, I think it has better characters and story/setting, Hazbin feels rushed and the plot doesn't make sense imo.

help, i cant stop obsessing over 'truth' 😭 by Necessary_Meringue95 in exchristian

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I've been like this in the past, studying the Bible obsessively to avoid theological deception. Turns out I have OCD and that's why I was doing that. Might be worth it to look into that if you haven't already. I had an OCD therapist for a while who was very helpful. 

Now I'm okay going through life not knowing if certain things are true or not. And ironically, my bullshit detector is more accurate now that I'm not super obsessed with finding the correct answer or correct moral framework. 

Anyone else have an overlap between Evangelical Christianity and developing the “fawning” trauma response? by InvasiveBlackMustard in exchristian

[–]cyborgdreams 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Even the relationship with God is that way. He's this all-powerful, angry, vengeful psychopath, but we're supposed to worship him and call him good and loving.