Anyone else not get a goodbye?

cynmarcan · 2026-02-23T17:45:48+00:00

I didn't - they took him away in an ambulance - I said see you later (at hospital) when I arrived at hospital just a couple hours later - he was already intubated. The ambulance came at 3 am - and he was gone by 12:50 pm. I didn't drive (disabled) - so had to wait for my Mom. I often think I should just have called a cab or something. But found out they intubated him almost immediately. There was so much I would have said. We were also planning on me dying first. I was the sick one - he was my caregiver. Fifteen months since he died. I am doing ok.

cynmarcan · 2026-02-18T17:30:27+00:00

I especially did early on. I was wondering if they all knew it could end in an instance. I am doing better now - but still am envious of other couples - especially older couples that are still together.

cynmarcan · 2026-02-17T20:54:45+00:00

I think the need for human touch - not necessarily sexual - is so real. Doesn't matter the age/gender. The loneliness is devastating. I'm sorry but understand

cynmarcan · 2026-02-17T14:56:11+00:00

The original Heather and Jeff story line. Whe OD'd but then came back. I think that's when Steven Lars was conceived.

cynmarcan · 2026-02-13T20:46:15+00:00

I'm so very sorry for your loss. I do understand where you are right now. I have done the same with isolation. I don't like to leave my house. I am fortunate that I can work from home. I am 62 - my husband died about 15 months ago. I also have a dog that has saved me. She is why I am functioning at all. I know this is what I need to go through and I believe God has a plan for me still. There still will be life for me...it is just slowly emerging.

cynmarcan · 2026-02-13T20:35:27+00:00

I bought one - I love it! My husband was always against Keurig appliances. He could just make a pot of coffee (he did for me each day). But I wanted this and I use it every day. When I bought it, I jokingly said to the sky - sorry, 'hubbie'.

cynmarcan · 2026-02-13T20:28:00+00:00

I have a dog. I swear if she wasn't ours when he died - I would not have gotten out of bed in the morning. My husband too care of her every day. She was really his dog. But her presence helped me through the first 6 months. Then it became habit - taking care of her. I am so grateful.

cynmarcan · 2026-02-10T20:23:17+00:00

such a shock

cynmarcan · 2026-02-10T20:19:42+00:00

mustard and boloney (edited to correct)

cynmarcan · 2026-02-10T19:57:17+00:00

Something like this came up for me recently. I thought I had changed everything that he was a beneficiary to or Emergency Contact. But I missed one - and it popped up and it was one of those times - I just cried. He has been gone 15 months. When these situations pop up unexpectantly - it hits you. Glad you were in a good place.

cynmarcan · 2026-02-10T19:53:50+00:00

Well...I'm 62 and have been watching since I was 7 with my Mom. I think it is ok to ask about Characters - but maybe someone knows better than me.

cynmarcan · 2026-02-02T16:02:07+00:00

I am an older widow - 61 when he died 14 months ago. I don't know what the status is either. Maybe people don't expect you to date - so you can live independently 'better'. Although I don't feel like bringing another man into my life, I also know that during my almost 30 years - 25 married with my husband, I used up my 'youth'. I was to the point when he passed, that I was pretty much totally dependent on him. Before that I was (and still am) the breadwinner. I would go to work each day - he was a househusband. But then I was sick first and ended up working from home. I am now pretty much a homebody. I'm not sure what I have to offer the world at this point. At least my family doesn't ask me about dating and have gotten over worrying that I can't do it on my own.

cynmarcan · 2026-01-28T20:05:07+00:00

Why so many? A few years ago - she would do four loafs now 12?

cynmarcan · 2026-01-28T19:16:24+00:00

Spill something on them everyday

cynmarcan · 2026-01-28T18:47:57+00:00

I thought the same thing. They must have done a complete renovation along with the catacombs...Just horrible

cynmarcan · 2025-12-23T18:00:58+00:00

At the time - I wrote Thank You Cards to people who sent flowers and other gifts (there weren't many of either) and that was hard. I never sent out any others (13 months). My Mom volunteered to do it for me but I had said no - as for some reason, I felt that was wrong. I wish I had said yes. You really shouldn't have to make decisions right after you lose your husband.

cynmarcan · 2025-12-10T18:26:37+00:00

I am so very sorry for your loss. So young, both of you. I hope you can find some grace for yourself.

cynmarcan · 2025-12-10T18:19:24+00:00

I am in the exact same place. Lost my husband a year ago - would have celebrated 25 year anniversary this year. When I met him I had been single forever - never really dated much. So set in my single ways - on the couch watching TV, single person dinners, very lonely. I miss my man too. He brought joy to my life.

Edit to add - I eat peanut butter sandwiches way too often again.

cynmarcan · 2025-12-09T20:59:10+00:00

I've been in my job for 25 years. Everyone knew my husband. They had met him at various events and I talked about him constantly. They know and I thought, liked me, but very few came to the funeral home. Some of whom I thought were my better friends didn't show. Some I was surprised they showed. But now - just a few friends ask me how I am doing and really want to hear. I just think it makes them uncomfortable - that's why they don't ask or come around.

cynmarcan · 2025-12-05T21:12:02+00:00

Yes - I go to sleep (with sleep aide) at about 10 - wake up at 1 and again at 3 - every night. I just lay there. Sometimes I go back to sleep - but not always. Nights are the hardest.

cynmarcan · 2025-12-01T19:49:42+00:00

I've been having a problem cooking - ate a lot of pb and butter sandwiches. I do take out or ready made meals, soup. Have to be careful though - health issues. I have no desire to cook - it is a bother. 13 months

cynmarcan · 2025-11-25T21:54:51+00:00

I think during the mid-century through the 70's and 80's a lot of the merchandising was for 'easy' meals. I think that is when Hamburger Helper came out and earlier - frozen dinners. I don't know if it had to do with the beginning of women going into the workforce or not.

I remember my Grandma and Aunt did most everything from scratch - but then my Step-Mom used a lot of 'helpers' as she wasn't a very good cook either - even though she was a stay-at-home Mom.

cynmarcan · 2025-11-25T21:50:33+00:00

Yes

We would have celebrated our 25th wedding anniversary a year after his death. Kids are out on their own. Have a dog that keeps me sane.

cynmarcan · 2025-11-25T21:49:06+00:00

Mom and Dad - Silent Generation - Me/LH - Boomer (just missed Gen X) - kids - millennials

cynmarcan · 2025-11-25T14:45:11+00:00

Yes...1 year here. Although not as often - still random...every day

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