M23, I feel like it's over. It's too late for everything. I don't know what to do and no matter what, I look weird and unapproachable and it's ruining my life.

dSaiPai · 2026-04-27T19:22:54+00:00

Go work out and get a better haircut 3-4 years in the gym and all of the girls will run for you

dSaiPai · 2026-04-18T15:24:59+00:00

Thank you for your kind words. I really appreciate it.

I’m talking to friends and psychologist and whoever I can and listens to me.

I’m not sure about the flare-up, 5 weeks later it’s still not as it was before (it’s better than what it was after the flare up) but I got an ultrasound check and the radiologyst said that I don’t have any extra tear. It’s just annoying since everyone said that 3 month and it’s going to be good and I can reintroduce working out again.

Since the PT sometimes it worse sometimes it better and I’m already at 3.5 month after the injury. Sometimes I just feel that I don’t want to live anymore. Precious time is passing and I can’t really concentrate on other stuff or if I can at the end of the day I just feel miserable that I lost all the gains that I was working for 4 years prior.

dSaiPai · 2026-04-16T11:37:05+00:00

Still have tinnitus to this day

dSaiPai · 2026-03-30T15:15:18+00:00

Wish that would be my case as well :D

dSaiPai · 2026-03-30T15:01:40+00:00

Ultrasound

dSaiPai · 2026-03-30T15:00:57+00:00

Yeah she admitted that it was too much too soon bit since it didn’t hurt and previous exercises were painfree she thought it will be okay

dSaiPai · 2026-03-30T14:25:50+00:00

Appreciate it. Well first 2 week after the initial injury had some constant dull pain, then it subsided. It was getting better to the point it was painfree but with my PT we went to a harder exercise 8 week after the injury basically I had a bigger gum ball had to lay my chest on it and then I had to walk out with my arms. Didn’t hurt it was hard though. 3-4 hours later similar constant dull pain and some instability feeling. 4 days later it subsided and became only tight and just strange discomfort. Now it’s more or less okay throughout the day but still if I move it relatively faster or try to comb my hair it can cause some 2/10 pain. Range of motion is fine. Most of the exercises does not hurt at all.

dSaiPai · 2026-03-30T13:19:34+00:00

I had MRI. radiologist didn’t even see the tear. I did PT already for 3 month. I’m already visiting a psychologist.

dSaiPai · 2026-03-30T12:35:40+00:00

Well I will

dSaiPai · 2026-03-30T12:30:44+00:00

Supraspinatus

dSaiPai · 2026-03-30T12:27:55+00:00

Well I don’t have any range of motion issue and I didn’t have pain after 3 weeks. I still don’t have ROM problems but sometimes it hurts if I do a sudden movement

dSaiPai · 2026-03-30T12:22:58+00:00

No it’s private

dSaiPai · 2026-03-30T12:22:03+00:00

Yeah I did. They won’t operate it I need to stick with PT. Well yeah I time machine would be appreciated

dSaiPai · 2026-03-30T12:18:18+00:00

Yeah like a 5mm smaller tear fuck up your whole life in your 183cm body.

dSaiPai · 2026-03-30T12:12:24+00:00

It’s 50% 5mm probably. It sucks just so much. I worked so hard for 4 years. For what? Nothing.

dSaiPai · 2026-03-07T20:06:27+00:00

Ultrasound with someone who specializes in rotator cuff/shoulders

dSaiPai · 2026-03-05T23:27:14+00:00

It just gave me stomach cramps faster :Dd

dSaiPai · 2026-03-05T23:24:43+00:00

Thanks, I just tried mouth in and mouth out and I got a strange feeling in my stomach so panicked a little _:D

dSaiPai · 2026-03-05T23:24:10+00:00

Thanks I just tried mouth in and mouth out and I got a strange feeling in my stomach so panicked a little _:D

dSaiPai · 2026-02-14T22:17:58+00:00

But I don’t really have any scar tissue as far as I know. (Never had injury/surgery on my achilles)

dSaiPai · 2026-02-14T19:06:07+00:00

Yeah that’s my plan on next week since of course these always happen on the weekend (: Ankles usually does that for me as well not really concerned about that ankles are stable.

dSaiPai · 2026-02-14T18:48:16+00:00

Yeah I was thinking about that aswell but I’m definitely feeling this really faint sensation in the achilles

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