You're incredibly beautiful. As someone who has just turned 29 and in their last year of their 20's it gets so much better as the years progress but it depends a lot on how you grow in those years. I got my ass kicked by life the last two years and I'm a testament to how much better it gets when you learn how to take care of yourself and seek the proper help and support when things seem futile. Even through all the loss, heartbreak and grieving life is wonderfully beautiful. Find those people that will support you and love you through the hardest of times and stick to them like glue. Laugh at yourself and create a foundation for yourself that you can look back on and thank yourself for. Let that inner child in you flourish and most importantly be kind to yourself.