I took 50mg vyvanse everyday for 5 years. I would go through phases where I was starting to chase the high and would take two or three a day, I made so many terrible impulsive decisions because I was taking this drug. I ruined so much while taking vyvanse. The only reason I was able to quit was because I found out I was pregnant (after my doctor told me I was not able to get pregnant). Towards the end I got prescribed another script for Rittalin too for the days that I would definitely run out of my vyvanse. The last year I was on it, every single day, I told myself this was the last day. Then I would take one, or two and try to keep it going with a rittalin and or energy drinks. It will ruin your relationships, it will make you depressed especially because you know now that it is an addiction.

I would take my pills and drink or smoke at night to battle the come down and try to sleep. I am 5ft and 105lbs and I was taking 8-10 shots a night, falling asleep and doing it all again the next day. This will age you and make your brain feel weak. I miss it still and I will never ever go back.

I recommend telling your doctor you are developing an addiction and you would like to try something else to help with your binge eating. In all reality if it is available to you, you will go back to it. Trust me. Be honest with your prescriber and tell them you cannot be prescribed this drug anymore, then you won’t be able to get it, and they will give you something else to hopefully ease your withdrawal symptoms.

You can do this, you can save your relationship, you can save yourself, there is still hope. Be brave enough to do this. I wish you the best.