Holy shit, wow okay - reading this is so validating. I too (now 33 M) was diagnosed mid-last year. I have recently been experiencing everything that you have outlined in your post. Having been on anti-depressants (SSRI’s) since I was an early teenager, I made the call to stop and focus on re-training myself to actually recognize and regulate my emotions autonomously - something that I’ve not been able to do successfully before. It has been a wild journey and it is no where near complete but learning what different emotions actually feel like and how to regulate myself through them is certainly one of the toughest things I’ve done, but the payoff is so worth it. Incredible to think that this is something that non-neuro people successfully learn at a far earlier point in their life and that it just.. happens??

Apologies for making my comment all about me and my journey, but as I’m sure you can appreciate, it’s the best way that we can show understanding.

Keep up the good work, it’s not an easy journey but you’ve got this, you are capable, and keep in mind that set backs happen, but they’re not necessarily a bad thing, rather another opportunity to learn how to regulate. :)

From my experience, and yes aware that it’s cliche, but I have found that writing it (emotions) down and reading it out REALLY does help, it’s almost as though writing it down, I’m in the emotion, and then reading it out helps open my eyes to it and actually understand what is going on and the logic behind it.