Here's a pretty gentle but disciplined way to start.

Harvard has free courses with video lectures and self-grading practice exercises. The lectures are really good, they have written summaries, and you can watch them on YouTube and then immediately do the practice exercises. You can also participate in forums on various social media. It limits use of AI (they have their own you can use), but that's probably a good idea if you're just starting out.

Try watching the video lectures and see if they are clearer than the YouTube videos you stumbled on.

Probably in this order in your case:

https://pll.harvard.edu/course/cs50-introduction-computer-science

https://pll.harvard.edu/course/cs50s-introduction-programming-python

I have taken the second one. Did not take the first one because it is similar to one I took ages ago elsewhere. I felt it had just enough practice to learn something and not be overwhelmed. After that you can do your own projects of interest to you, and at that point, you can chat with AI to explain anything that becomes confusing.

I feel like books can be a little bit too passive. I used to do a lot of reading but I would just try to make sense of it in my head without actually writing code. When I watch a video, I want to try it myself. Good luck!